debiuti studentTa literaturul-publicisturi krebuli wigni mesame Tbilisi 2019 qalaq Tbilisis municipalitetis meria redaqtori salome kapanaZe saredaqcio sabWo: giorgi kekeliZe mariam wiklauri - ZiZiguri ioseb WumburiZe Salva berianiZe giorgi kaxiSvili Tamar belqania qristine CakvetaZe gamocemis redaqtori marine markozaSvili teqnikuri redaqtori aleqsandre kuzanaSvili garekanze: Tako xorxeli , `qalaqi dogvili~, tilo, zeTi. gamomcemloba `sveti~ © debiuti. Tbilisi 2019 ISBN 3 poezia ani qavTaraZe goris saxelmwifo saswavlo universiteti *** qalaqSi, sadac poeziam dakarga gemo, qalaqSi, sadac ver gacviTes wignebma ydebi, davdivar Cumad, sulis moTqmis mdumare Cerod, damaqvs fiqri da Zvel nacnobebs gulgrilad vxvdebi. damRales, isev simSvidea, isev Cumad var, drogamoSvebiT vlaparakob, viRimi, vsunTqav, dResac fexmorTxmiT Camovjeqi fiqris bunagTan, Cveul rutinas mivanebe dReebis furcvla. martis iamac Tavisive tani galia, aq arc wvimaa, arc mzea da Tovli saerTod... ise var, TiTqos mejaxeba kedlis galia Riaa, magram albaT sjobda kari daerTo! dRes vinRa ukravs gamalebiT fortepianos, musikis duRils fanjrebidan vin gagagonebs. qalaqSi, sadac yvelaferi wreze trialebs, bolo ar uCanT daJangebul dReTa vagonebs. 4 debiuti Tan damaqvs fiqri, sulis moTqmis mdumare Cerod da Zvel nacnobebs ugunebo ieriT vxvdebi, qalaqSi, sadac poeziam dakarga gemo, qalaqSi, sadac moitexes leqsebma frTebi. *** aba, ra giTxra, bevri rame xdeba axali, es Tveebia, movukeli RamiT xetials. lampionebi Tu odesme kidev mnaxaven, Tavs daxrian da arc erT sityvas aRar metyvian. amarideben farTo Tvalebs, viTomc ara var, gaayoleben ucxos mzeras, viTom ver micnes. aba, ra giTxra, kargad yofnam cota damRala da Zvel iarebs Rimilian saxiT viviwyeb... da saidanRac wamosuli aRar vbrundebi. mekiTxebian _ sada xaro, Semdeg Tveebis, ise ubralod wamovkrife guda-nabadi, ise ubralod davuqnie yvelas xelebi, raimes sagzlad gayoleba arc ki damWirda, me gavuyevi Cems bilikebs odnav damrecad, ukan mixedva Zveli gzisken ise gaWirda, wamiT mominda, Cemi Tavi misgan damecva. aba, ra giTxra, wesrigmac ki icis mowyena, dakecil leqsebs aRaravis aRar vukiTxav da ras Sevcvlidi, vis Sevcvlidi, azri ara aqvs da arc pasuxi ar aqvs amas, vinme Tu mkiTxavs. aba ra giTxra, mzeebia da zamTris napiri, ise veRar vwer, mTeli guliT, rogorc mCveoda, poezia radgan damaklda emocia da ar avtirdi, didi scenidan movagoreb Cemsav Cemodans. isev vinaxav gadakecil, ferad naxatebs, dRes, yvela gancdas gadaxades farda notebma. aba, ra giTxra... xan bevri ram xdeba axali, zogjer ki Turme, wesrigmac ki icis mowyena. *** saRamo, qari da martis Tve. Cems xmaSi sicive moRoRavs oRondac simSvide maRirse, simSvide maRirse, oRondac. qari qris Zlierad iseve... da totebs axeTqebs saxuravs. wvimis xma ganwyobas misvelebs da male kariviT davxurav. me sadRac ocneba gamebna, qari gvis imedis nafxvenebs. wuxelac sicive damdevda da axla dardis xmiT maxvelebs. saRamo, qari da martis Tve. Cems xmaSi sicive moRoRavs oRondac simSvide maRirse, simSvide maRirse, oRondac. 5 6 debiuti avTo xaraiSvili ivane javaxiSvilis saxelobis Tbilisis saxelmwifo universiteti *** kakuni karze niSnavs Semosvlas da Severcxlili sivrciTi mZivi Seamkobs yelze, rogorc dedofals maspinZlis sityva erTob xangrZlivi.. Semodi, radgan Ramdeba ukve da cac daiTvlis sakuTar lukmebs, iCqare, raTa davxuro kari sanam yvelafers Seexo qari. SeipatiJebs moyvare stumris oTaxis centrSi miuCens adgils da mrgval magidas manam wres uvlis, sanam gaumxels sakuTar wadils.. da radgan suni iwvevda sasmlis da radgan seni mohyveba ase, saiqioSi misi arwasvlis poezia sadRegrZelod svams Tass, RviniT savses da maSin, roca dneboda sanTlad da maSin, roca ewvoda suli, daetyo saxes sxeulis daRla da gamoCena gzis dasasrulis. mdumare iyo da utyvi iyo stumari ucxo WerqveS mosuli, da uxilavi, gaucinari gauCinarda rogorc avsuli. rCeuli vxedavdi. dumda rogorc sameba Saravandedi gars ertya didrons, Semovisaxle masze zmaneba, rom miwieri ar iyo TiTqos. vucqerdi Cumad, vparavdi sxeuls da misi sunTqvac gulmkerdze medo, miuxedavad RmerTisgan rCeuls Cemi saxeli arc ki gaego. es iyo talRa, fiqrebis talRa da TviTneburad gabmuli simi, SemomrCa mxolod me misgan damRa da iluziad cremlebi wvimis. 7 8 debiuti mistika me, am sasaflaos Svili suliT RmerTis, guliT _ miwis, var kldis qimze CamoSlili fesvamwydari xeTa rigis. ca maxuravs Tavze mcvelad Semmosveli farTo niWis, Tuki davibade mwerlad, saubari, ratom miWirs?! mimZims, gavixseno Zveli vcocxlob momavliT da mSvelis, magram es wveTebi wvimis, tanSi Jruantelad mivlis. Cemi saydari vgrZnob suns kedlebis, mZafri sineste ufro Zvelia vidre es saxli, Sen, rom ebrZodi im wlebs mivende veRar vaxerxeb Senebas saxlis. aris warsuli _ mware simarTle da momavali bindiT moculi, Sevikedlebdi saxlSi sinaTles, radgan Tbilia, Tanac orsuli… da es kedlebi mwyobri Tanrigad da uCveulo Cemi saydari, gamoSuSdeba axla amrigadwlebiT savse da welSi gamtydari… 9 poezia giorgi laSqaraSvili saqarTvelos Ria universiteti *** minda, rom Semifaro, magram Sen Cemi Sefareba ar SegiZlia... da mainc minda, rom Semifaro. Sens Tbil saSoSi viZino, rogorc daubadebelma bavSvma. minda Semifaro da Seni muclis kedlebs vetmasnebode, Signidan vgrZnobde Sens dardebs da avkargs, maZlevde sakvebs Senive sxeuliT da orsuls vqmnideT... magram Sen Cemi Sefareba ar SegiZlia... *** sivrceSi dgaxar, sakuTar fexis xmas usmen. Txeli, natifi sxeuliT uaxlovdebi sibneles. ebrZvi sakuTar fiqrebs, mogonebebi gaxrCoben. 10 debiuti wyvdiadi sulSi. mdumareba, gaucxoveba, uaryofa. StormSi moyolili gemiviT gemsxvreva goneba da rogorc gardacvlili ekipaJi, Seni azrebic tivtiveben wylis zedapirze. gismen, rogorc patara aleqsandre aristoteles da vcdilob RmerTi gavxde. *** uxmod wvims, alegoriebiT daavadebuli Cemi goneba gamWvirvale wveTebs paravda zecas. foladi var, romelic Sens siRrmeSi dneba da Cemi sisxli sxeulze gexateba, viT balaxs dilis cvari. CrdilisferSi dgas mdumare mTvare da cremlisfrad elavs misi sxivebi bnelSi. xeebis CrdilSi sxedan wvimebi da Cems dambal TiTebs RmerTisken viSver, rom wvimebis gverdiT momces adgili. (Sen moeride cxel dReebs susxian TvalebSi) me mjera rom gaixsneba yvela kari da Cems bnel oTaxSi Semosul SuqiviT daibadebi. poezia 11 *** lurj siCumeSi Cavikete. mocremlo Tvalebs askdebaT sevda, rogorc mwife nayofi miwis zedapirs da esarCleba sikvdils sicocxle, rogorc mbraldebels braldadebuli. Sen ki xar Cumad da mlocveliviT xelisgulebze codvebi, rogorc RvenTebi, ise giwyvia. da, rogorc verxvis mwvane foToli gazafxulisas mec ise mSvidad vqanaob Seni sulis cisfer saqanelaze. nawyveti leqsis- filmidan `orni qalaqSi~ sulSi Sexiznuli fobiebi, fulis siZulviliT Sepyrobili molareebi, rogorc yovelTvis Seyvarebulebi, sxvisi codvebis mosmeniT daRlili episkoposebi, davdaWerili loTebi, mominanqrebuli kedlebi, Cem win aRmarTulan, am kedlebis meSinia. kedlebi yovelTvis SiSs iwveven, elodebian SekumSvas, 12 melanqolizmis dabadebas, Sens SeSlas. vcdilob weras, movdivar SenTan, viviwyeb yvelas, gaocebuli TvalebiT gimzer Sen warsulis suraTebs vkargav, meramdened miReb fanjaras, arasdros matyueb. notebi, cvlileba, amoralizmi, romelic gvajadovebs orives. me gewebebi rogorc mSieri Cvili dedis mkerds. Cven mocarelas baRSi vdgavarT, siluetebs veTamaSebiT qaris zuzunSi. vcekvavT, erTmaneTs verwymiT da gvetmasneba tanze Camocvenili xmeli foTlebi, rogorc sveli perangi. usasrulod miamitebi, mudmivad revolucionerebi, kilimanjaroze dasaxlebulebi. debiuti 13 poezia Tiko kotrikaZe soxumis saxelmwifo universiteti arCibald mekeSi gisaxsovre saukunod! arnaCuqari Seni Tavi mivikuTvnile, ver gagaqre da mogiZebne sxva sxeulSi Seni adgili, xvlikisferi Tvalebis asuls Segizarde sxvisi sxeuli. olga balaSova (vilhelm tellis ZeglTan) ...vuTvlidiT erTmaneTs amosunTqvas, Sen meti CemTan yofna CaisunTqe... vilhelm! xom gaxsovs is ambavi, Sen rom dagzuTxeT, drois ukusvlam Tu rogori wili gviyara, 14 debiuti wydeboda kadrad garCenili warsuls infanta, Cven ki vebrZodiT... vilhelm! mainc vebrZodiT ganvlils... erTmaneTs sunTqvaayolili sityvebi qarSi rogor daobdnen, xom gaxsovs maSin?! Cven ki vebrZodiT, dakargulsac vebrZodiT, vilhelm! *** roca gonebam gulis SfoTva omSi Caiba, striqonTa modgma miiswrafvis melanis gzebSi, ici, ra didi sirTulea, wero daRlilma, roca ufskrulis sibneleSi iwyeba leqsi?! areul Rrubels emateba fiqrebis mtveri, gonebas mZime gansacdeli atydeba Tavze, ise rTulia daweramde ganvlili gzebi, roca dasasruls elodebi imediT savse. wer usicocxlo striqonebSi Camkvdar gulisxmas, qariSxals uxmob da muzebic gaxveven Tavbrus, es xom ubralo sityvebia gulis siRrmidan, fiqrebi sityvebs aumRvreven awmyos da warsuls. maT nami aTbobs, me ki _ leqsi wvimian Rames, roca foTlebic aivseba wvimis wveTebiT, poezia am dros ifeTqebs xmaurisgan aSlili zeca, wyvdiadis Rames gaanaTebs muzis mdevrebi. gulSi ifeTqebs monatrebis uxmo godeba, Canaleq grZnobebs aamRerebs kalamis wveTi, yvela es wuTi mogonebad gadaiqceva, muza wava da me davrCebi _ kalamiT xelSi. *** isris xma bneli enarcxeba areul fiqrebs, wams ver aCerebs mowyenili uxmo vedreba, usasruloba gafrindeba RrublebSi isev, dro miqris, radgan ver vaxerxebT mis SeCerebas, miqris ukvalod, anareklsac aRar gvitovebs, walekavs irgvliv uzarmazar preistorias; mxolod datovebs danTxeuli melnis striqonebs, guSindel gmirebs gadaaqcevs dRes istoriad... dro ki brazobda, midioda Cvengan mwuxared, rom ver vamCnevdiT siZlieres, viTarc mefobas, aRar Cerdeba, miaqrolebs fiqrebs mdumared... uRrublo zecas dacrecili leqsi SemorCa. 15 16 debiuti mariam papaSvili qarTuli universiteti ise var savse (sulisZieba) ise var savse, maWariviT amovduRdebi, mowmendil caze veli TiTqos isev qariSxals, yoveldRiurad, banalurad, kiTxvebze kvlavac, banaluradve Tavs davuqnev, kargad, ra miSavs... ise var savse, damiskdeba majebi male, da Cemive Tavs ganvucxadeb SurisZiebas, vecade, RmerTo, magram albaT ver mivakvlie gzasa da biliks, davdgomodi sulis Ziebas. ise var savse, uxmaurod SevZleb yvirilsac, unda menaxe Cemi grZnobiT, sadac da vinac, gadavabrune TiTqos sulis yvela kunWuli, sad ar geZebe, yvela kuTxe gareT da Sinac... ise var savse, rom mgonia gardavicvale, da sadacaa zecas vwvdebi naTxovar frTebiT, isic ar vici, Tvals rom vxuWavT, marTla `vicvlebiT~, gardavicvlebiT, viZinebT Tu ubralod vkvdebiT?... ise var savse, mgonia, rom gamovilie, poezia da naglej-naglej, ususuri veyare miwas, sad ar geZebe, RmerTo, magram veRarsad gpove, da am bneleTSi sakuTari Tavic ver vicani. ise var savse, rom mgonia arc davibade, rom dedamiwam TiTqos gulze ver damitia, taZris kuTxeSic geZebe da Cemi sulisTvis uRmerTod, RmerTo, sanTelic ki ver daminTia. ise var savse, rom mgonia gadmoviRvrebi, kvlavac mipoves nafleTebad TovlSi iebma, sada xar, RmerTo, davikarge, Tu Sen waxvedi?... sakuTar TavSi gavagrZeleb sulis Ziebas... gpoveb, ufalo, sakuTari, sulis wiaRSi, da, dagivaneb, rogorc uwin, awda maradis, da sulnapovni, ukve zecas mzirali TvaliT, giaxlovdebi, me RmerTsavse, taZris karamdis... ityvis dumili ityvis dumili jer verTqmuli grnobis arias, giTqvam paemans da Sen mawvdi fermkrTal lianebs, pirvel naxvisas bodiSs gixdi, Cemo Zvirfaso, rom yvela rjulis qalis msgavsad _davigviane. gamogigone wignSi, sadac arsad ewere, giZRvni baraTebs, sxvebisaTvis versad saCinos, yoveldRe sunTqvas vayolebdi sulis nawilebs, oRondac Cemi warmodgena gadavarCino. 17 18 debiuti pirveli Tovlis fantelebi damadna Tmaze, Sen albaT waxval, rogorc mihyavT gemebs Tolia, vfiqrob da Cemi nabijebi cotaTi giswrebs da mxolod erTi nakvalevi rCeba Tovlians... gamogigone, ase urcxvad gamogigone, da dameRvare sevdisfero, sisxlad majidan, is Citi minda yofiliyav, kamaras rom kravs da yovel diliT sakenks kenkavs Cemi fanjridan. me, verSemdgari msaxiobi, vdgavar scenaze, da Cemive Tavs ver vumtkiceb, rom ar ewere im wignSi, sadac moxeuli kideebidan, gamouyviaT Tavi ukve damWknar enZelebs. gazafxuldeba, SeexsnebaT kvirtebs sakinZe, amouyveba yoCivarda daRlil bilikebs, gamogigone, magram isev bavSvurad gCemob, da kvlav vagroveb yviTelgula SenTvis gvirilebs. gamogigone, diax, isev gamogigone, Semdeg paemans kalendarze vniSnav iebad, winaswar getyvi, albaT isev davigvianeb, magram icode, qali var da mepatieba... 19 poezia naTia kapanaZe ilias saxelmwifo universiteti. mama triodrama wuxel mamaCemi damesizmra Semiyvareo, sikvdilis win mevedreboda.. axla mainc Semiyvareo.. miyurebda Tavisi mwvane da wyliani TvalebiT da tuCebi ukankalebda... Semiyvareo, es miTxra mxolod. xelebs xmeli tanis qveS malavda, TiTqos sakuTari Tavi unda gaesvenebina... iwva sakuTar xelebze da dumda. dumda yvelaze saSineli dumiliT da me ar SemeZlo misi mosmena... nel-nela gaxma, dacotavda, dapataravda. ToTo bavSviviT iyo. me mivutane yvelaze TeTri zewari sxva zewrebTan SedarebiT, 20 debiuti gavaxvie masSi da mivikari gulze... is ar miyurebda, mxolod eWira Cemi xorblisferi TiTebi da sakuTar Tavs iq eZebda, xelisgulebSi. roca Zalian patara viyavi, anu maSin, roca wyenas martivad viqrobdi, mamaCemma lekvi maCuqa. zamTris romeliRac Tves, romeliRac ricxvSi, romeliRac Tovlis Semdeg. is iyo TeTri da is iyo Zafi Cven Soris romelic ar unda gamwydariyo. da me lekvi masze metad Seviyvare. dadioda Cemgan Seuyvarebi mamaCemi da daqonda mxrebiT Cemi gabrazebuli mzera. erTxel ar davusjivar... erTxel ar usayveduria... TiTebs Soris malavda cremlebs, ise Semodioda saxlSi... gadmoabijebda zRurbls da mTeli saxiT iRimoda.. da me mZulda, rom mas SeeZlo ase ecxovra. arasodes momferebia mamaCemi. arasodes gadausvams Tavze xeli da arasodes Sevuqivar... poezia mamasaviT mama ar iyo mamaCemi da mamasaviT undoda myvareboda. muStebSekruli vuyurebdi yovelTvis, yovelTvis TvalebSi.. axla mainc Semiyvareo, es miTxra mxolod da xelisgulebSi CamaSterda... aba, rogor meTqva, rom xelisgulebSi vikemsavdi yvela tkivils da rasac ver vatevdi, majebze gadamqonda. uyure Cems xelisgulebs, iq sakuTar Tavs namdvilad ipovni. Cemi mezobeli maia didi xania, rac cxovrebas fexi auwyve. qaris Wkuaze dadixar da nebas mihyvebi mas Semdeg, rac Sen sikvdili dedis gauwyes da ageria yvelaferi, rogorc sityvebi, rac SenTvis uTqvams gaifanta, Zvel dReebs miaqvs, dRes Seni saxlis Sesasvlel kars fanjara hqvia da am fanjridan ipareba Seni bavSvoba yoveli dilis eqvs saaTze. cariel qilas uxeSad isvri sanagveSi, romelsac miaqvs daufaravad rac gafine gamosaSrobad 21 22 debiuti anu sxeuli. da mas hyidi ocdaaT larad, adre msgavsi ram gaSinebda, dRes- aRarc gZabavs... im nacnob quCas miuyvebi, ocdaeqvsiod wlis Tu iqnebi, Tumca bevrad meti getyoba Sens mwvane Tvalebs, siwiTle rom edeba siod, dasrulebuli bavSvoba rom aRar eTmoba. mTeli dRe ase xetialob, mere dumdebi da romeliRac nacnob kacTan erTad brundebi saxlSi, romelSic Sesasvlel kars fanjara hqvia. mTvrali xar, radgan Tveebia aRar fxizldebi. daZinebamde dadian da ocnebebs gvian Sens gonebaSi arsebuli mavne Wiebi... gamTeniisas kuTvnil Tanxas Zebnas dauwyeb, didi xania, rac cxovrebas fexi auwyve. 23 poezia ana botkoveli, `afeTqeba~, tilo, zeTi. Tbilisis saxelmwifo samxatvro akademia 24 debiuti Tamaz wereTeli saqarTvelos universiteti q.-s Tavis TavSi, TavisTavad, garna avad, gulsaklavad, qariSxali amsxvrevs tanad kldes, daRaluls iasamnad... axla xilva _ gulis darad, gulis gulSi wamis wamad, gaRimebad, garda Zalad, cad kidemde, garna Cqamad! da sevdiTgan gansabanad, da sevdiTgan gansabanad... poezia Tevzebi prospeqtze xalxis ireva talRa, yvelas Tavisi aCqarebs saqme, qudebi _ xelSi, xelebi _ maRla, qalaqi _ Tevzis saWeri bade... nabiji _ Cqari, nabiji _ neli, gadaZaxili qalis Tu bavSvis, haeri mZime, filtvebSi _ mtveri, meezove ki miirTmevs nayins... sunamo _ mZafri, sunamo _ tkbili, ireva, rogorc ireva dila, SeorTqvliT Tbeba xelebi civi, mzes efareba RrubelTa fTila, uceb, garedan mosinjva jibis da sigaretis nafazi, mtkbari, taqsi! _ viRaca xmamaRla yviris, quCis meore napirze mdgari. gamvleli aqeT, gamvleli iqiT, Termosebidan siTxeebs svamen... vuyureb saaTs, wammzomi mSvidi?! _ wamebi wamebs wamebSi Wamen! xeldeba dila, Crdilebi Canan, simarTles darCa Zalian cota... urnebTan saWmlis rigebSi dganan, skverebSi loTebs ewvebaT loya, maTxovars civad esvrian xurdebs, maTxovars ara, macxovars stkiva! itacebs qari WuWyian furclebs, 25 26 debiuti aseTi iyo guSinac dila! icvleba mxolod waqceulT ricxvi, Secvlili ricxvic icvleba xSirad, xelsaxocebic icvleba, sircxvils, mowmendils uSnod, saxaven Wirad. prospeqtze xalxis ireva talRa, yvelas Tavisi aCqarebs saqme, qudebi _ xelSi, xelebi _ maRla, qalaqi _ Tevzis saWeri bade... unda mapatioT unda mapatioT ocnebis xorcSesxma, vici, dagiZveldaT grZneulebs locvebi, Tqveni salocavi grigalma moxeTqa, xelaxla mwvandeba damwvari borcvebi, unda mapatioT, zeca rom mwadia, Cemi SeCereba ar aris ioli! mizani xifaTze aTasjer basria, mowmea metexi, mowmea sioni, unda mapatioT Tvalebis axela, igueT naTmeni grZnobebis siSmage! frena SemZlebia, frTebi maqvs ramxela, sunTqvazec metyoba grZnobebis siWarbe, unda mapatioT brZola da wvaleba, rom sisxli ZarRvebSi Cxrialebs, cxelia, unda mapatioT es feriscvaleba, unda mapatioT, CemTvisac Znelia, poezia ganmeoreba ganmeorebis, ciklidan cikli, wamidan _ wami... es Tvisebaa Cveni cxovrebis, Tan ukvdavia, Tan _ warmavali. ... pirvelia Ramis, minebidan fanjris, vxedav ucxo napirs, isev wvima aris... qrolva ismis qaris, damuqreba mTvaris, zeca tiris samgzis, mec avtirde lamis, saxuravze saxlis, wvimis wveTi daZrwis, moZaleba dardis, fiqri rogor bardnis, damZimeba Tavis, nakvalevi kalmis, dasasruli wamis, cxadze cxadi aris, monatreba qalis Tval-warb-wamwamT jaris, uSenoba aris... uSenoba aris... 27 28 debiuti lali WeSmaritaSvili ivane javaxiSvilis saxelobis Tbilisis saxelmwifo universiteti ori metafora Secvarul TiTebs, Seyinulmklavebs, gaZarcvul sxeuls almasad aTlils _ vadareb, Cemo, Sens ucxomTa-vels _ TiTo vazs, xeebs misxlobiT aTvlils. mag mwvel bageebs, garejis ares da Tvalis kamkams, roSkis tbebians, mag guls TeTnuldis myinvaris mxares, masTan mimaval aRmarTgzebians. Tavs rom gaxsenebs xSirad iara _ is oboli da geri viRacis, afxazeTia, vinac giara, arSerCenili kide miRma zRvis. isev nislia Camowolili, veRarc Sen matkbob zvirTebiT, Tergo... da warsulidan Camoyolili me mxolod Seni quxili mergo. Seni sxeuli ase natifi poezia vin metyvis, ratom vnaxe krwanisze, vin metyvis kidev, rom me vifiqro: Senze, mamulze, axal aisze... arastandartuli poema prologi aq, ra SuaSia Tu iyo aprili, Tu viRac anariqsts ufro Txlad Caucvams, Tu im dros orives ratomRac dumiliT mogvinda ziari quCebis xmaurTan. am xnidan mec da Senc agvicda kalami, Cven vwerdiT leqsebs da ar vwerdiT erTmaneTs. ra miwer-mowera, gvcxvenoda salamic, miZRvnili strofebic davwviT da davmaleT. umoqmedoba I am dromac ise Caiara rogorc sCvevia _ verSemCneul da acilebul mzerebTan erTad... umoqmedoba II aqac ar vici mze iyo Tu Tovlis fantia, rtoze aluCa Tu aluCis norCi ylortebi, Cven apolonma leqsis dawva ar gvapatia da erTmaneTTan dagvabezRa Cveni strofebiT. moqmedeba I erTimeoris yvela strofi gavizepireT, dadagul feniqss isev aCnda danasisxlebi, 29 30 debiuti agorebuli leqsis gunda ver gavaCereT, STagonebebiT gavivseT da veRar viclebiT. gamarjobao, naxvamdiso, rogor gikiTxoT? leqsikons ukve Seaxorcda yvela iara, monologebo, axla unda dize vifiqroT _ xmaurs siCume ar udgeba arsad ziarad. moqmedeba II leqsi poemad gadaiqca, poema _ prozad erT dRes meores vuriTmavdiT, Tveebs varqmevdiT da roca furcelebs aRar surdaT grZnobis dateva da roca ukve uTqmelobiT TeTrad vaTevdiT _ Cven vTqviT, miyvarxar! moqmedeba III am dromac ise Caiara rogorc sCveviamkveTrad SesamCnev mzerebTan da sityvebTan erTad... epilogi vamCnevdi, ukve vuriTmavdiT wlebs, aTwleulebs, Cven erTmaneTis amovxseniT yvela qaragma; iyo gabutvac, iyo wyenac; bolos sikvdilic _ magram me isev leqss gitoveb Cvens fanjarasTan.. bolo sacalfexoa es biliki Cemi savaliors ver dagvitevs, ra vqna, amis Tu meSinia. Seni gzac ase sacalfexo gamodga, vSiSob da Tu warsulSi erTxel mainc gadavikveTeT, is erTxel iyo _gaiSala, orad wavida _ poezia darCa Wriloba Senze Cemi, Cemze- Seni. wadi, onegin, nu moxedav werils cecxlians mand Seni bedis cinizmia amokawruli, pirze SeaSre eg Rimili beds avznians da SeirCine eg Rimili saxes qarguli. wadi onegin, nu brundebi ukan Sens gzaze gadakveTaze ar dagxvdebi, rogorc Sen gsurda, mxolod nakvali dagxvdeba da am gzas nu tkepni Cemma fiqrebma Seni saxe ukve Sesudra.. wadi, onegin! me vxedav (omis) mzes arasodes mipasuxoT kiTxvaze: `werili Tu sixaruli~ _ weriliT! me sikvdili var anu omis fostalioni, me var TariRi dakawruli saflavis qvaze (rigiT meore)... 31 32 debiuti maia wiqariSvili ivane javaxiSvilis saxelobis Tbilisis saxelmwifo universiteti gadamrCeneli gazafxuli mxolod gazafxuli gadamarCens, miTxari dekembris susxian dilas... veZebdi zamTarSi gazafxulebs qarSi veZebdi _ martis Tbil wvimebs tyemlis kvirtebs, atmis yavavilebs rogor SeiZleba Cemnairi giJi ar asuliyo xis kenweroze da Tundac misTvis ar eTxova... me maradiuli ferebis planetidan, me maradiuli qarebis planetidan, maradiuli Rrublebis cidan, maradiuli gazafxulis wvimebidan, gamoviTxove... gadamrCeneli gazafxuli da Cems alboms, romelSic mTeli bavSvoba vagrovebdi gazafxulis gamxmar yvavilebs, gazafxulis mzis siTbos, niavis surnels, aprilis wvimebs, poezia gazafxulis niaviviT susti xelebiT aprilis wvimebiviT nazi RimiliT wavawere: Tu gadagarCens, Cemi gazafxulic iyos SenTan... *** oms iwyeben Cemnairebi, da Cemnairad TavgamodebiT, omis dawyebis TariRs saguldagulod Sedgenil TeTr kalendarze wiTlad niSnaven ... oms iwyeben Cemnairebi, da bolomde mamacuri TavgamodebiT, pirvelebi mixtunaven wina xazze... iqneb omis damwyebTa SiSi mainc veravin igrZnos.. ideqi aq _ wina xazze CemTan dgoma garantiaa, omis mogebis Tu ara, wagebis Semdeg cocxlad darCenis... CemTan dgoma, garantiaa cocxlad darCenis... CemTan dgoma, 33 34 SenTvis ufro bewvis xidia... ga-i-qe-ci _ gaqceulebs aRarafris aRar aqvT SiSi, gaqceulebi _ uSiSrebad gadaqceulni gaiqcevian... omidanac gaiqcevian, gaeqcevian Cemnairebs, gaeqcevian Tavisnairebs, omidanac gaiqcevian... oms iwyeben Cemnairi giJebi, da Cemnairad TavgamodebiT, omis gagrZelebis TariRs saguldagulod Sedgenil TeTr kalendarze wiTlad niSnaven ... *** sanam kerps aRvmarTavdi, movimarage aguri, rom kvarcxlbegi amego... movimarage Sandlebi, rom kerpisTvis cecxli damenTo. kerpisTvis viswavle cecxlze siaruli, kerpisTvis viswavle _ locva haerisTvis, viswavle yvelaferi _ aravisTvis, debiuti poezia da es aravin vaqcie yvelafrad .... sanam kerps aRvmarTavdi, sanam agurs movimaragebdi, sanam Sandlebs movimaragebdi, rom kerpisTvis cecxli damenTo... arc ki gamxsenebia, rom me myavs RmerTi, rom RmerTi erTia da is kerpi araa, arc ki gamxsenebia RmerTi, romelic me myavs da araa kerpi. qalaqi zRvis piras dRes ar yofila amindis prognozi an ratom unda yofiliyo... qalaqi zRvis piras mziania, qalaqi mziania zRvis piras ... (qalaqi mTavrdeba zRvasTan, zRvidan ki Relva iwyeba ...) zRvaSi TeTri navia, TeTr navSi, TeTri bavSvebi... zRvaSi TeTri navia, TeTr navze, TeTri afrebi... me giyureb, TeTr navSi mamaSenia... zRvispira qalaqSi Sen... qalaqis dasasruls rom zRva iwyeba, mamaSeni im zRvaSia... am navSi TeTri bavSvebi-Cven... 35 36 debiuti Cven ar vicodiT Savi zRva, Cven ar gvesmoda Savi zRvis, Cven ar gvegona Savi zRva saidumlo, Sen icodi da gesmoda zRvis... dRes amindis prognozi ar gamoucxadebiaT... prognozs an ratom unda elodo, dRes caze vxedavdiT mzes, dRes zRvaze ar qroda qari, magram zRva iyo mRelvare... napirze Seni saxlia, uTxari _ afrebi mozidos, napirze Seni saxlia napirze _ zRvispira qalaqi... sicocxle xandaxan giWirs iaro... da roca siaruli miWirs, da roca sunTqvac miWirs, maxsendeba babuaCemi, romelmac yvelaferi ocdaaTi wlis asakSi xelaxla iswavla. roca pirvelad daibada, sunTqva iswavla... mere siaruli iswavla... poezia laparaki iswavla... da roca meored daibada: iswavla sunTqva bebiaCemiT, iswavla siaruli bebiaCemiT, siyvarulic xelaxla iswavla bebos ar daezara da aswavla... roca bebiaCemi maxsendeba da misiT cocxali babuaCemi, xandaxan siaruli miWirs... da roca vixseneb warsulSi cocxal papaCems, warsulSi mTrTol papaCems, mindeba misi cecxli gavinawilo da viaro yvelgan, sadac sicocxle siarulze ufro metia.. 37 38 debiuti nodar gurgenaSvili akaki wereTlis saxelobis quTaisis saxelmwifo universiteti *** dasabamamde iyo sityva da misgan aris, rasac daxsnida am miwaze da rasac kravda da suls esmoda ufro SoriT xmauri qaris da ufro axlos Cven gvesmoda dumili kravTa. ise Zlierad, rom yurebi daingra smeniT, Cven vTamaSobdiT cecxlze ufro sikvdilTan axlos da kvlav SevyareT adamians is Zveli seni uimedobis, mxolod Cvens bnel gulSi rom saxlobs. videqiT marto, aRar gverqva amqveynad xalxi, videqiT, sadac Cveni bolo ocneba mokvda da Soreulebs aRar gvqonda amqveynad saxli, da aRarc gancda Seni xilvis, brZenTa da mogvTa. Cven daviviwyeT yvelaferi, rac erTad gvkravda, davkargeT yvela margaliti, miveciT Rorebs, Cven isev gvesmis ufro axlos dumili kravTa da albaT isev movadgebiT odesme xorebs. poezia anda Sen moxval fexSiSveli, sisxlian ferdiT, sad aris azri, rom kvlav dadge samyaros karTan. ver naxav vinmes, rom dagidges jvarcmulo gverdiT, aq marto wigni ki ara da RmerTia mkvdarTa. Tumca ra mkvdrebi, zogi kidev jer ar Sobila, ar SeiZleba arSobili odesme mokvdes. rac aris axla, rac iqneba, sul es yofila, danarCeni ki wauRiaT saCuqrad mogvebs. dasabamamde iyo sityva da misgan aris, rasac daxsnida am miwaze da rasac kravda da aRar ismis aRarsaiT xmauri qaris da darCa mxolod sulTan axlos dumili kravTa. miriam mSvidobiT! mival, veTxovebi samyaros Svilebs, qerubimebi muxlmoyrili RmerTTan tirian, me vamsxvrev isev moses mier motanil filebs da axal mcnebebs gaZlev mTidan, Cemo miriam. giyvarde mudam, Seneburad miTxari, vficav, ar gyavdes kerpi, siyvarulis garda oRondac, giyvarde, rogorc zRviT gadaRlil mezRvaurs miwa da moitane isev vneba gulis bomonTan. ar mwamo cili, rom eWvebi ara maqvs TiTqos da gadafurcle cxovrebaSi Cven oris gverdze, ho, vici xSirad SeuZleblis SeZlebas viTxov: damado Tavi yovelRamiT Ziliswin mkerdze. da yoveli dRe momiZRveni msgavsad SabaTis, 39 40 debiuti yoveli Seni amosunTqva Cemad maRirse, grZnobebis metad axsniT kvdeba yvela kamaTi da xo, kvlav moval TiToeul me Sens Zaxilze. xoda, moiRes es saxeli, ubralod ase da vuTxraT mere am samyaros dakargul Svilebs, rom ar weria araferi tyuilad caze da vamsxvrev isev moses mier motanil filebs. ara giTqmodes guli vinmes, Cem erTis garda, Cven am miwier safexurebs zecisken avcdiT, gadamafare Seni Tmebi saxeze fardad, Seivse Cemgan mocemuli samyaros gancdiT. da iyos ase, rogorc vTqvi da rogorc davwere radgan yoveli gamovida Cemi nebidan, Tuki odesme vinme dawvavs am Cems nawerebs, mainc verafers waiReben Cveni vnebidan. `mSvidobiT~, vici, rom am sityvas arasdros getyvi, vSordebi mxolod Cemi mcnebiT samyaros Svilebs, yoveli leqsi is fiqria, romelic ver vTqviT da vamsxvrev isev moses mier motanil filebs. 41 poezia revaz zumbaZe samcxe-javaxeTis saxelmwifo universiteti maraToni maraTonia es cxovreba mudmivi, Zmao; Tan ukan mogsdevs Senze swrafi sikvdilis Crdili, ase amboben, wveTi iyo TviT zRvamde zRvao, ase amboben, Svili iyo mamamde Svili. Tumc yovelive cnobilia, Semqmnelis garda RmerTi vixileT... da vawameT cocxali roca, saocaria, rom mSobeli masac ki hyavda saocaria, emorCila isic ki droTa. araferia dakarguli, fasi aqvs radgan. yoveli wami, wuTebs avsebs saaTis gamo, da, Cemo Zmao, sawamlavi sulSic rom Cadgan, Tavic rom mogWran, avsuli zne ar unda Wamo! apaTiaa, geubnebi, dRes am dRis arsi, ocdaaT vercxlSi Tu icvlebi, ver gSvelis jvari, 42 debiuti puri da Rvino ki ireva axsarTa jamSi, magram monanulT dauxures taZrebis kari! vai da viSi, godebaa da xSiri codva. arc siyvaruli da arc amis raime msgavsi, dRes metafora uazroa _ uriTmo bodva grami siwminde aRaraaumanko kravSi! ca maRalia, ver mivwvdebi, Zalian Sori, Tumca siwminde caSia da siame tkbilze. diax, cxovreba aris zustad `memento mori~ diax, codvebi aq gadadis mamidan Svilze! maraTonia es cxovreba mudmivi, Zmao; Tan ukan mogsdevs Senze swrafi sikvdilis Crdili, ase amboben, wveTi iyo TviT zRvamde zRvao, ase amboben, Svili iyo mamamde Svili. saqarTvelo guSindeliviT maxsovs: merani TvalbediT yornebs eomeboda, maxsovs mtirali vinme mwerali, RmerTis cremls hgavda gegoneboda. maxsovs aRmzrdeli, Zmobis ficoba tyviis gasrolac maxsovs fliduri, me TinaTinis maxsovs mzisoba, qajeTis cixis maxsovs klituri. poezia me maxsovs qarTli, maxsovs svaneTi, samasi vaJis maxsovs sikvdili, maxsovs deduli, maxsovs mameTi ilias mkvleli, Cveni sircxvili! maxsovs metexis asiaTasi, xatebze fexic maxsovs dadgmuli, maxsovs mefeni qveynis kalTaSi, maxsovs mefeniZelzedgasmulni. maxsovs iori, mtkvari, enguri, Tergdaleuli maxsovs Taoba, maxsovs taZarSi mefed Sesuli da gamosuli araraoba! maxsovs mindia, omSi dacdili, balaxisa da xeTa Sviloba, oTaranT qvrivi xelebgaSlili da gandegilis gandegiloba! maxsovs zamTari, gudamayari... Svilis mkveloba maxsovs `mamuri~. maxsovs mter-moyvris gzagasayari da gayiduli Cemi mamuli. maxsovs marjvena, sveticxoveli, varZia maxsovs, mefe Tamari, me amirani maxsovs cxoveli da kavkasiis jaWvis qamari. 43 44 maxsovs lale da Tavi moWrili, ca mowmendili, mama mtirali, maxsovs daviTi sxeulmosvrili dedisimedi saxemcinari. maxsovs perangi SemorRveuli, isari maxsovs isev qarTvelis, me kari maxsovs Semongreuli, Caqroba maxsovs taZris sanTelis. maxsovs naJuri, Rvinis cremlebi, medeas qorwils maxsovs lxinoba, me iasonis maxsovs gemebi, artagis maxsovs romSigmiroba. maxsovs xaxulis didi gumbaTi da dolisyana imerxevisa, maxsovs xanZTeli mefe sumbati, svaneTSi kvali didi devisa. maxsovs TeTrwvera mwyemsi javaxi, SiSvelfexeba maxsovs qalwuli, maxsovs nasroli Savi talaxi da RmerTis saxli iq aRmarTuli. maxsovs imerxevs bevri taZari, ingilos maxsovs locva beruli. maxsovs saydrebSi xSiri xanZari urjuloTa xma SemoCveuli. debiuti poezia maxsovs didgori, maxsovs Samqori, maxsovs aspinZis guli mTliani, maxsovs dagvsdevdnen CveniCamqolni, magram RmerTia samarTliani! da axla locvas vambobT qarTulad, qarTuli geni maT ver damales. da axla qristes vyavarT naTlulad da vicavT ZirZvel qarTul savanes! 45 46 debiuti mariam Wanturia, `dama guli~, tilo, akrili. Tbilisis saxelmwifo samxatvro akademia 47 proza daCi axvlediani ivane javaxiSvilis saxelobis Tbilisis saxelmwifo universiteti Sexvedra nawyveti romanidan `afxazi~ giorgi emxvarma sigarets moukida da sanapiroze mdgar tankze avida. male soxumur wvimas Weqa-quxilic daerTo. giorgi Cumad gascqeroda soxums, gahyurebda mis sayvarel qalaqs TiTqos patiebas sTxovda, rom tankebiTa da tyviamfrqvevebiT cdilobda mis damorCilebas, is xom sul ramdenime Tvis win inal arZimbasTan erTad am sanapiroze fexSiSvela daiareboda qeraTmian mSvidobismyofelebTan erTad. axla ki is da inali kalaSnikovmomarjvebulni dasdevdnen erTmaneTs, maT verc soxumi gauyviaT da verc sanapiro zoli. ratom?! imitom, rom inali Tavis moZme afxazebTan erTad TavisuflebisTvis ibrZvis, giorgisac ver gavamtyunebT _ is Tavis qalaqs icavs. bavSvobaSi isini mxolod imaze ver Tanxmdebodnen, vin TamaSobda fexburTs ukeT. Semdeg rac ver gaiyves, 48 debiuti iyo saukeTeso mocuravis tituli. mere iyo soxumis meTerTmete skolaSi gadmosuli aida aSuba, biWebma ver gaarkvies, romels Seuyvarda is pirvelad. magram isini mainc yovelTvis erTad iyvnen. Tu rames ver arkvevdnen, saqmis gasarCevad mama andriasTan Cadiodnen aCadaraSi. maSin mama andriasac ver warmoedgina, rom es patara biWebi, romelTac ase uyvardaT erTmaneTi da sicocxle, ar daindobdnen yvelaze mniSvnelovans _ mogonebas. arc sicocxles gaufrTxildebodnen da arc qalaqs, mosisxle mtrebad gadaeqceodnen erTmaneTs da mama andrias ki ara, ucxo qveyanaSi Camosxmul iaraRs miandobdnen simarTlis garCevas. aravin icoda, yoveli Setakebis bolos ratom darboda giorgi cofianiviT gardacvlilebs Soris. iqneb undoda, swored missave tyvias emsxverpla inal arZimba, an iqneb swored amis eSinoda... veravin CaekiTxa giorgis, Tu ratom iqceoda ase. mis aseulSi asakiT yvelaze patara Cvidmeti wlis cotne iyo. giorgi cdilobda axlos hyoloda da gaemxnevebina igi. marTalia, cotnes arc gambedaoba aklda, arc iaraRTan uWirda urTierToba, magram TanamebrZolebi mainc yvelaze metad mas ufrTxildebodnen. swored cotne mivida sanapiroze marto myof giorgisTan, mxolod mas SeeZlo bevri kiTxva daesva misTvis _ giorgi, dRes Zalian dadardianebuli meCvenebi _moridebiT uTxra. giorgis gaecina _ mec Seyvarebuli var, cotne, guli veRar uZlebs ukve am monatrebas, _ ironia Seapara Tavis pasuxs giorgim. im adamianebs, romlebic grZnobebs malaven da gareg- proza 49 nulad yvelaze Zlierni moCanan, yvelaze did sevdas daatareben jiut gulSi. giorgi marTlac Seyvarebuli iyo, bavSvobidan uyvarda saida gumba. omis dawyebis mere araferi smenia masze. saida bolos erTi wlis win naxa, roca ivlisis sicxeebiT Sewuxebuli soxumelebi zRvas Seekedlnen, magram dRisiT gamosvlac ar iyo didad saxarbielo. areulobebis molodini zafravda soxums. saRamos ki, mSvidi iyo zRvac da mzis simxurvalec naklebad awuxebda qalaqs. saidas da giorgis sayvareli adgili `dioskuria~ iyo. gogo arasodes igvianebda Sexvedraze, magram arc adre modioda. giorgim icoda es yvelaferi, magram is mainc adre stumrobda xolme `dioskurias~. bolo Sexvedrisas ki giorgis daagvianda, radgan universitetis ezoSi wydeboda samomavlo saprotesto aqciebis ganrigi. afxazebis damoukideblobis moTxovnas qarTveli studentebi aprotestebdnen, giorgi ki, rogorc organizatori aqtiurad iyo am procesebSi CarTuli. msvlelobebi mSvidobiani iyo da swored amitom giorgim Tavs ufleba misca, rom cota xniT daTqmul adgilas enaxa saida, magram soxumSi xom mas yvela icnobda, gzadagza yvelas rom gamoelaparaka, saidas vardebic amouvarda Tavidan. qalaqSi turistebi moZraobdnen, magram ara Cveul ritmSi. mainc carieli moeCvena qalaqi giorgis. Tumca saidas naxvis survili da Sexvedraze dagvianeba am wuTas ufro metad afiqrebda. es yvelaferi ki soxumSi mimdinare procesebs daukavSira. giorgis ucnauri grZnoba ufro gaumZafrda, roca `dioskurias~ win saida aRar daxvda. man icoda, rom saprotesto aqciebSi igi CarTuli ar iyo. piriqiT, 50 debiuti giorgis arigebda Wkuas, rom aqciebi gadaizrdeboda axalgazrdebs Soris dapirispirebaSi. roca giorgim ,,dioskuriaSi” Seirbina, uTxres, rom saida dRes aq ar gamoCenila. swored am dros qalaqSi saSineli xmauri atyda, romelsac sirenis damTrgunveli xmac daerTo. 1992 wlis 22 ivnisis cxeli dRe idga, afxazi studetebis saprotesto aqciebis dasawyisi. isini damoukideblobis moTxovniT gamosuliyvnen. male qarTvel da afxaz studentebs Soris fizikuri Sexla Semoxla moxda. qaosi Zu mgeliviT moipareboda qalaqSi. ase ibruna piri soxumma samoTxidan jojoxeTisken. viRacis uxilavma xelma nacnobi scenari aamoqmeda, patara erebs kavkasiaSi dacva sWirdeboda... giorgi baraTaSvilis sadgurisken gaiqca. xmauris xma swored iqidan modioda. botanikur baRTan axalgazrdebis sxvadasxva jgufi erTmaneTs dareoda xelketebiT, carieli xelebiT, zogan civma iaraRmac ki gaielva. am dros giorgim saidas mokra Tvali, igi erT adgilas idga, Tvalidan sisxli sdioda, mis megobrebs wre SeekraT da TiTqos mis gamoyvanas cdilobdnen areulobidan. giorgi swrafad SeiWra brboSi da gogo umal gamoiyvana trotuarze, mas megobrebic gamoyvnen. giorgi uyurebda saidas da ver mimxvdariyo, ratom ver xedavda mis zRvisfer Tvalebs, romelic ase uyvarda... gogos Tvalebi sisxliT avseboda, sisxls gadaefara maTi ocnebebi da siyvaruli. saidas Tvalebi giorgisTvis laRi cxovrebis da sinaTlis simbolo iyo... axla ki TiTqos mis dasisxlianebul TvalebSi proza 51 arekliliyo is saSineleba, rac soxumSi xdeboda, misi silamazisa da cremlebis tandems saaSkaroze gamoetana adamianTa modgmis yvelaze usamarTlo monapovari _ omi. borotebisa da silamazis brZolas waagavda Tavad saida da misi gawiTlebuli, odesRac zRvisferi Tvalebi. mainc silamazes emarjva borotebaze. is iseTive lamazi iyo, rogoric iqneboda albaT sicocxle borotebis gareSe. swored aseTi daamaxsovrda is giorgis. gogo tiroda, giorgi gaunZrevlad idga mis win, idga da ebrZoda sakuTari Tavs. igrZno, rogor Seipyro ususurobam imis gamo, rom ver daicva misTvis yvelaze Zvirfasi. am mogonebebSi iyo giorgi, roca mama Tevdores gamogzavnilma afxazma aslan Tarbam Seawyvetina fiqri. man mama Tevdores danabarebi gadasca, giorgi aCadaraSi unda Casuliyos mis sanaxavad. mama Tevdores biWebi Zalian monatreboda. is gafacicebiT amzadebda Tavis afxazur odas maT dasaxvedrad. vin icis, ramdenjer gauSlia maTTvis sufra, ramdenjer gamaspinZlebia biWebs, magram ase gansakuTrebulad arasdros momzadebula. pirveli Sexvedraze giorgi gamocxadda, gadaexvia mama Tevdores da dinjad daeSva taxtze. _ Zalian daRlili saxe gaqvs, giorgi, vici rom im sibiZureebSi, rac mesmis, arc Sen da arc inals wvlili ar migiZRviT, isic vici rom Rirseulad emsaxurebi samSoblos da Cveni imedi xar. afxazebi imdenad giyvarda, rom Tavad maT Segarqves metsaxeli afxazic, magram imas ver vxvdebi, giorgi, rodis moaswariT, rodis iqeciT Sen da inalifa erTmaneTis mosisxle mtrebad?! Cem Tvalwin 52 debiuti gaizardeT orive da, ver warmomedgina, ase Tu gagyofdaT cxovreba da misi dinebiT gatarebdaT. _ mama Tevdores TiTqos xma ukankalebda, laparaki uWirda: _ gaxsovs, patarebi rom viyaviT, Cveni pirveli Cxubi, mere SenTan rom avediT simarTlis gasarkvevad... _ mamaos aq sicilma sZlia _ maxsovs krasnodarTan rom waageT, erTmaneTs abralebdiT marcxs. Sen gaiZaxodi dacvis xazi iyo moSlili, inali ki gaiZaxoda dacvidan SetevaSi xom ar gadavidodi golis gasatanado. is Tu gaxsovs giorgi, aida aCbas gamo naCxubrebi rom SexvediT moedanze, Tqven iq ki ar giCxubiaT, ukve naCxubrebi SexvediT moedanze, zedac ar uyurebdiT erTmaneTs, mec veswrebodi mag TamaSs, rogorc yvela danarCens. amjerad giorgim ver Seikava Tavi gulianad gaecina, maSin Cven patarebi viyaviT, mamao... _ upasuxa da mogonebebi aeSala. mama Tevdorem ki ganagrZo, Tqven imitom waageT, rom erTmaneTs gadakidebulni TamaSobdiT _ axla ki saqmeze gadaval, giorgi. es omi rogorc ar unda damTavrdes, Sen da inalifas im dRidan gaqvT wagebuli, roca erTmaneTs daumizneT, ara mxolod Tqven, yvela qarTvelsa da afxazs. axla ki is, razec dRes dagibare, minda rom Sen da inalifa SexvdeT erTmaneTs iaraRis gareSe.,amis Rirsad mainc CamTvaleT. inali gareTaa da naxevar saaTSi Semova. Tu waxval, isic wava, uiaraRodaa... nu Relav... giorgi am Sexvedras ar moeloda, magram ver SeZlo meufisTvis epasuxa, adgilze gaqvavda, TiTqos mTelma cxovrebam Tvalwin gaurbina, TiTqos es yvelaferi ar iyo realoba, TiTqos is da inalifa isev varjiSze unda proza 53 wasuliyvnen. inalifas fexiT siaruli uyvarda, wereTlidan maiakis bazamde erTad fexiT naxevar saaTSi midiodnen. sanapiro zols rom Cauyvebodnen, dro SeumCnevlad male gadioda xolme. giorgi ise Caeflo mogonebebSi, rom verc ki SeamCnia, rogor Semovida oTaxSi inalifa. TiTqmis ori weli iyo, ar enaxa. isini saocari simSvidiT Sehyurebdnen erTmaneTs, ar icodnen Caxutebodnen erTmaneTs Tu ara, maT isic ar icodnen, mtrebi iyvnen axla Tu Zmebi, magram es ucnauri simSvide maT Soris ise idga, rogorc fari. siCume isev giorgim daarRvia: _ araferi gaqvs CemTvis saTqmeli, inal?! iqneb arc me maqvs saTqmeli, iqneb aqve gagvemarTa dueli da dagvesrulebina erTmaneTis xocva. iqneb swored amisTvis moxvedi Senc. giorgim TandaTan xmas auwia _ ici, ra saSinelebaa, roca yoveli Setakebis mere daRupulebs an tyveebs Soris geZeb? ici, ra saSineleba imaze fiqri, rom SeiZleba swored Cemma tyviam imsxverplos Cemi Zma. es realobaa, inal, Sen me mtrad meqeci, roca separatistebs SeuerTdi. ver vijerebdi da ver vegueobodi im azrs, rom Sen me damimiznebdi, magram ase moxda... axla, ra Sedegi unda moyves, Seni azriT, am Sexvedras, orive gadavexveviT erTmaneTs da yvelaferi warsuls Cabardeba, an Sewyvet brZolas? an me Sevwyvet?! an iqneb orivem sasuliero cxovrebas mivyoT xeli da aqve davtovoT es iaraRi, dResve daviwyoT codvebis monanieba?!. Cven gamiznulad, Tu daufiqreblad erTmaneTs davumizneT da amas veraferi Secvlis. verc ki gamovTvliT imas, Tu ra ziani movutaneT Cvens xalxs 54 debiuti da Cvens qalaqs. ver CamovirecxavT erTmaneTis sisxls, istoria ukve daiwera, Cven patara kacunebi gamovdeqiT, romlebic am gansacdelma daamarcxa .kargs verafers vutovebT momaval Taobas, rogorc ar unda damTavrdes es omi, Cven ra dagvrCeba, inal, saamayo?! im Cinebs daviTvliT albaT, romelsac an moRalate mogvakravs, an mamuliSvili. ar velodi dRes Sens naxvas da arc imas, rom odesme iaraRis gareSe unda SevxvedriliyaviT, magram dRes aq varT, samwuxarod, ukve ise SevtopeT, rom veRarafers SevcvliT, saerTod verafers... es bolo fraza giorgim ise amoigmina, rom moceliliviT daeSva taxtze. inalifa dinjad usmenda giorgis, ar SewinaaRmdegebia da roca man daasrula, mxolod maSin amoiRo xma. _ giorgi, mSoblebi tamiSTan damicxriles Senma TanamebrZolebma. maTi dasaflavebis mere yoveldRe gelodi saxlSi. vicodi, rom Senc ibrZodi, isic vicodi, rom mec unda mebrZola, Zalian rTuli dReebi gamoviare, magram saxlSi gelodi... roca mSoblebi davasaflave, im dRes yvelani yvavilebiT egebebodnen soxumSi Semosul tankebs, isinic ki yvavilebiT daxvdnen maT, vinc samZimarze iyvnen CemTan. mere gavige, rom Sen asmeTauri gaxdi. giorgim Sepasuxeba scada, magram inalifam Seawyvetina _ damasrulebine, es yvelaferi araa _amis mere Sen geZebdi da im adgilebSi daviarebodi yoveldRe, sadac erTad yofna gviyvarda me da Sen. bolos ki am dawyevlil kalaSnikovs mivande Cemi cxovreba da Cemi gza, dRes ki imitom movedi, rom ukanasknelad menaxe Sen da SenTan erTad Cemi bavSvobac... Cven erTmaneTs vgavarT, proza 55 ukan arcerTi ar davixevT da Cveni gzebis gayofas ver SevaCerebT... inal arZimba motrialda da karebTan misulma kidev erTxel Seavlo Tvali giorgis, TiTqos Tavadac ar sjeroda misi sityvebis. uWirda imis dajereba, rom isini mtrebad eqcnen erTmaneTs. moulodnelad giorgi karebTan miiWra, gadaexvia megobars da Cailaparaka, ar vici dagvidgeba es dRe Tu ara, magram me mainc vfiqrob, rom Cveni Zmoba amasac gauZlebs, realoba ki marTlac uSeRavaToa, inal, rogorc ki aqedan gavalT, Cven isev mtrebad viqceviT. giorgi Cqari nabijiT gavida oTaxidan, ukanmouxedavad midioda, undoda gaqceoda am sinamdviles, romelic utifrad, cinikurad Sehyurebda TvalebSi. inali gaunZrevlad idga karis zRurblTan, meore oTaxSi xatebis win muxlmodrekili loculobda mama Tevdore, soxumSi isev srolisa da afeTqebebis xma ismoda da gamZvinvarebuli talRebi qalaqSi SeRwevas lamobdnen. 56 debiuti eliza qristesiaSvili goris saxelmwifo saswavlo universitetis SiSi dila dResac gaRviZebiT daiwyo. kidev rodemde? _ aravin icis. meqanikurad davxedav saaTs da gavifiqreb: jer dro maqvs, Tumca, risTvis, ar vici. mxolod is vici, rom wasvlamde jer adrea. sarkesTan vdgebi. ra ucxo var! _ gamefiqra. daujerebelia, magram marTla ver mivxvdi, vin viyavi. xelebze davixede. beWedi ar mikeTia. hoo, ese igi ar gavTxovilvar. TiTqos davmSviddi. Cavicvi. ar maxsovs, ra. moulodnelad, qalis xmam CamZaxa: ar dagagviandes, iCqare. mivxvdi, es dedaCemia. aviRe CanTa da avtobusis mosacdelisken gavemarTe. arc ki Camixedavs, mqonda Tu ara fuli mgzavrobisTvis. gzad gamaxsenda, rom universitetSi mivdivar. ar maxsovs leqciebis ganrigi da raodenoba. male avtobusmac gamoiara. ar maxsovs, rogor, magram rogorRac iq movxvdi, romeliRac proza 57 `marto skamze~, gverdiT rom veravin momijdeboda axla ukve aRar maxsovs, sad mivdivar. gaunZrevlad xelebCamoyrili vzivar, mxolod Tvalebs vaxamxameb da erTi mimarTulebiT, fanjaraSi vixedebi. minebi daiorTqla, veRarafers vxedav. minda, avwio xeli, gavwmindo mina da gavixedo. Tumca, vigrZeni, rom ar SemiZlia, TiTqos mkvdari var. RmerTo, me mkvdari var? uxmod vyviri da TiTqos sakuTar sxeuls davyureb zemodan. ar mesmis aranairi amqveyniuri xmauri, arc adamianis, arc transportis. mxolod imas vxvdebi, rom es avtobusi drodadro Cerdeba. mkvdari arasodes vyofilvar _ vfiqrob ganwiruli. arasodes migvrZnia, rom mkvdari viyavi. ver vibrZvi, verc Tavs vatrialeb da verc enas, mxolod Tvalebs vaxel da vxuWav, vaxel da vxuWav sasowarkveTili. _ netav, es ra gzaa, sad var? es gza samoTxeSi midis? iqneb ara? jandaba, sadac unda wasula, ase kargad var da sulSi gameRima, radgan tuCebs isev ver vgrZnobdi, amitom ar vici, saxiTac viRimodi Tu ara. o, rogor momewona?! ra netarebaa, roca midixar da Tanac arsad. axla ukve sixarulisgan uxmod vyviri, radgan vici, rom me `arsad~ mivdivar. _ netav, rogoria iq? netav, male mividode. netav, netav.... uecrad, mxarze xelis frTxil Sexebas vgrZnob, yurTan axlos ki nacnobi xma `ar Camodixar? movediT~. _ aseTi usiamovno jer araferi migrZvnia, es xma, es Sexeba. es TiTqos samoTxidan gamobrunebas hgavda. TiTqos cxvirwin momixures kari. axla vici, es grZnoba euflebaT momakvdavT, romelTac samoTxis ZiliT sZinavT, adamiani ki isev dedamiwaze eqaCeba dasabruneblad. 58 debiuti bolo gaCereba iyo, is ara, sadac me wesiT Cavdivar xolme, magram ra mniSvneloba aqvs. me, adamians, romelsac araferi maxsovda, arc mSoblebi da arc sakuTari Tavi, axla yvelaferi gamaxsenda. SiSi _ ai, ra aris is, rasac am dRis Semdeg ganvicdi. meSinia sicocxleSi sikvdilis da imis, rom erT dResac igi mova Tavisi namdvili saxiT, frTxilad damadebs mxarze xels da yurTan axlos miCurCulebs: movediT! me ki, sicocxleSive mkvdars, araferi meqneba dasaTmobi. gaagrZele sityva an fraza cecxlze Semomdgar rZesaviT _ aris adamianis patiosneba. Tu Tvals moaSoreb, gadmova da yvelafers mosvris. kacmac Tu erTxel moaduna yuradReba, gaeqceva patiosneba da Zalian gauWirdeba sakuTar sulze mimwvari narCenebis moSoreba. samSoblos _ cneba adamianis mesakuTre bunebam Seqmna. amitomac daisakuTra miwa da yvelaferi, rac am miwis qvemoT da zemoTaa. misakuTreba ki ar niSnavs siyvaruls. ufali rom gamomecxados, _ eklesias vaCveneb. qarTul enas _ yovelTvis hyavs dampyrobeli. is mudmivad dampyroblis eniT iSolteba. ucnauri bavSvi viyavi, radgan... namdvilad viyavi bavSvi da dRemde var. Cemi cxovreba _ jer kidev Sesavalia im romanisa, proza 59 romelsac me vwer da dasasruls minda, misi yvela mkiTxveli tirodes. vcdilob _ davagrovo lamazi wuTebis zRva. ar vicxovro mxolod Cemi cxovrebiT. Cemi azriT _ adamianebi varT foTlebi, romlebic sicocxlis xem gamoisxa da erT dResac Tavidan mogviwyvets axali foTlebis gamosatanad. fuliT bednierebas ver iyidi, samagierod _ iyidi yvelafers imisTvis rom cotaxniT mainc daiviwyo es. yvela religiuri xdeba _ roca RmerTi `kai tipia~. Tavisufleba CemTvis _ aris dabadebis da gardacvalebis ufleba. danarCeni iluziaa. kaci _ romelic aRmerTebs dedas, gansakuTrebuli pativiscemis grZnobas aRmiZravs. adamianebi tirian _ ara mxolod cremlebiT. ar madardebs _ ar vici, eg ra aris?! 60 debiuti veriko Tordia daviT aRmaSeneblis saxelobis erovnuli Tavdacvis akademia me da Sen vfantavdiT babuawverebs... mziani dila idga. Citebi Cems aivanze WikWikiT iklebdnen iqaurobas. gaRviZeba ar mindoda, magram aucileblad unda wavsuliyavi... unda wavsuliyavi. avdeqi, movwesrigdi, Tma davivarcxne, sarkeSi kidev erTxel Cavixede, Rrmad CavisunTqe da wavedi... daTqmul dros daTqmul adgilas unda vyofiliyavi. miviCqarodi, magram TiTqos arsad ar meCqareboda. garemoc imaves mimeorebda, rasac Cemi guli da goneba. mivedi... davinaxe... vin iyo is CemTvis, an ras warmoadgenda, zogadad, ar vfiqrobdi.daminaxa, gamiRima da Cemsken wamovida. mkiTxa, rogor xaro, pasuxad mxolod gavuRime. ukve wasvlis dro iyo. avtobusi xalxiT gaivso. davjeqi; isic gverdze momijda da gamiRima. miRimoda da ar icoda, ratom uCanda qaTqaTa kbile- proza 61 bi. ratom iRimoda yurebamde da Tan yuris bibiloebi uwiTldeboda, ar icoda!!! didi xani vimgzavreT. mTeli gza vfiqrobdi imaze, Tu vin iyo es biWi, romelsac Cems danaxvaze Tvalebi ufarTovdeboda da bednierebisgan ubrwyindeboda... vfiqrobdi, vfiqrobdi didxans, magram pasuxi ar mqonda... jer ar viyavi misuli daskvnamde. arada... mgoni mec momwonda, ratom momwonda, ra iyo masSi gansakuTrebuli _ pasuxi ar mqonda. momwonda ki? iqneb sulac miyvarda, aravin icis. es mxolod me unda gamerkvia, veravin momcemda rCevas. am fiqrebSi garTulma ver SevamCnie, rodis gaCerda avtobusi. fanjarasTan vijeqi, Cven win didi, uRrani tye gaiSala, romelsac idumaleba TiTqos obobis qselebiviT Semoxveoda. Cven yvelaze bolos CamovediT avtobusidan. ar momewona garemo, raRacam SemakrTo, civi, ukareba da bneli moCanda iqauroba. mas ki ratomRac Tvalebi imaze metad ubrwyinavda, vidre Cemi danaxvisas. adgilze cqmutavda, ver Cerdeboda. meucxova... meucxova misi aseTi qceva. ra naxa am tyeSi aseTi aRsafrTovanebeli? wavediT! _ damiZaxa da pasuxs ar dalodebia, xeli CamWida da ZaliT wamiyvana. uxmod mivyvebodi. mis xelSi Cemi xeli sul dapataravda, gaoflianda. misi grZeli TiTebi surosaviT Semoxveodnen Cemsas. vkiTxe _ sad mivdivarT-meTqi?, ar vicio, _ momigo pasuxad. gavbrazdi, gavbrazdi Cems Tavze. ratom mivyvebodi, sad mivyvebodi, magram mainc mivyvebodi, fiqrebSi 62 debiuti gaverTe da kopebSekruli mivdiodi. erTgan gavCerdiT, SemekiTxa daiRale Tu arao, pasuxi ar gaveci, gverdi avuare da gza ganvagrZe. ramdenime wuTis Semdeg misi xma momesma _ ai, movediT! amreziT avixede da Tvalebi ver movwyvite, yeli gamiSra. ubralod, veRar vmoZraobdi. ar megona Tu aseTi tyis bolos ulamazesi veli gaiSleboda. gvirilebiT gadapentili xasxasa mwvane mindori, babuawveras fantelebi dafarfatebdnen da saxeSi meyreboda. haerSi iasamnis surnelic trialebda. Tvalebi davxuWe, xarbad davewafe tkbil haers. gavocdi, ena ver avidgi. mikvirda rom aq momiyvana, magram ra iyo gasakviri?! amaze lamazi adgili xom ar arsebobda. mivxvdi, man gamiyo es silamaze, gamando Tavisi saidumlo... gvirilebi Zalian miyvars, magram ar miveci ufleba maTi mowyvetis. isini xom mindors alamazebdnen; ara piriqiT, mindori alamazebda maT. da, isini Cems xelSi, sococxleSekvecilebi ubralod ver warmomedgena... Cavweqi yvavilebSi da mzes miveficxe. is gverdiT momiwva. misma sxeulma gadaTela babuawverebi, fantelebma ki sruliad moicva garemo. wamovjeqi, gamecina, ufro sworad sicili daviwye da mowyvetil babuawveras suli Sevubere misi saxisken. mere avdeqi da gaviqeci. ara, ki ar gavrbodi, vTamaSobdi. Cemi TeTri farfata kabiT gvirilebSi gaverie. me vTamaSobdi da isic CemTan erTad laRobda, Tan babuawveras fantelebs mayrida. vicinodi da isic CemTan erTad icinoda. damiWira... xeli CamWida da Semomabruna. gavuRime da Semrcxva, ma- proza 63 gram risi?! manac gamiRima da Sublze makoca. Camixuta, misma sxeulma xelT Cemi sxeuli da suli erTdroulad igdo. Tavi mis mkerds mivadevi da misi gulis feTqva gavigone. feTqva, romelic maxarebda, radgan es guli CemTvis feTqavda... Caxutebulebi didxans videqiT. isev mis mkerdze medo Tavi. Tvalebi magrad mqonda daxuWuli da vfiqrobdi... miyvars?! miyvars samyaro, sadac babuwverebis gafantva SemeZleba da gvirilebsac davindob, ar movaSoreb miwis wiaRs... am mTlianobaSi CaviSlebiT da garkveviT SevigrZnobT erTmaneTis gulis feTqvas... 64 debiuti TaTuli wereTeli ivane javaxiSvilis saxelobis Tbilisis saxelmwifo universiteti Jolosferi siCume yvela saTiTaod gamodioda da maritas sakuTari organizmidan talaxad gamonaden codvas mSvenier saxeSi esroda. asec xdeba, adamianebi sakuTari codvebis gadasafarad jadosnuri frinvelis arsebobas gamovigonebT da xalxi masze yuradRebas gadaitans Tu ara, maSinve Cvens codvebSi vixrCobiT. marita silamazea, silamaze yvelaferSia, magram adamianebs maincdamainc simaxinjis sinaTleze gamotana gviyvars da mere mTeli cxovreba talaxis srolaSi vatarebT. procesia midioda da yvela sakuTar Sav-bnel saqciels miaxoxebda talaxian gzaze, TiTo nasroli qva ki am tvirTs ufro da ufro amZimebda. axla gareT wvimaa da ufro mZafrad vgrZnob ras ganicdida marita, rodesac gedia Tvalwin moukles da aiZules Tavisive proza 65 gulis melodia Tavad SeeCerebina. mas xom SeeZlo viridan Camosuliyo, talaxnasroli sxeuli wyliT Camoebana da cxovreba gaegrZelebina, Tumca maritasTvis es warmoudgeneli aRmoCnda, imitom rom mas hqonda sindisi, romlis cnebac iq myofi adamianebidan aravin icoda. marita wavida, Tumca man Tavisi xanmokle cxovrebis manZilze siyvaruli, bedniereba, gulwrfeli Rimili, samaradiso silamaze ipova da mere frTebi daaWres. .. RmerTo, apovnine xalxs maradiuli siyvaruli.. RmerTo, apovnine silamaze.. RmerTo, STaunerge erTmaneTis pativiscema da mieci yvelas erTi natvris xe, yovel diliT TiTo survili rom Seaban da iqamde ilocon gulmxurvaled, sanam es survilebi realobad ar iqceva da Tavs ar daatydeba kacobriobas. iqneb maSin mainc viswavloT rwmena da maritebs Tavi davaneboT. ver viZineb. fiqrebis didi masiT datvirTuli gembani frTebs mimZimebs da maiZulebs zurgSi tkivili vigrZno, Tumca mirCevnia tkivili mainc vigrZno, vidre ugrZnobi, emociebisgan daclili, an saerTod emociebis armcnobi qsovili viyo da dedamiwaze ise davdiode, viTom aq myofTa siaSi SemTxveviT movxvdi. Zalian meZineba, magram Zilma damiviwya da am qarian TebervalSi Semoxeuli tansacmliT sadRac did nagavsayrelze damtova... albaT cdilobs siZneleebTan brZola maswavlos, sinamdvileSi ki binZuri zraxvebiT datvirTul adamianebs vebrZvi, vcdilob frTebs ar mivakaro, Tumca yoveli Cemi cda uSedegod mTavrdeba 66 debiuti da TeTr, qaTqaTa frTebs binZuri wyliT xeldabanili adamianebi mimZimeben. me ki ese frTebSeryvnili, sasoebiT yelamde savse sadRac cisferisa da yavisferis gasayarze siCumeSi dasvelebuli vwevar da Cemi TeTri Tanamgzavrebis mxsnels velodebi, romelic albaT sxvas uTmobs Tavis Zvirfas wamebs da kargavs imis bednierebas sxeuli gadamirCinos!.. aba, sulis gadarCena me ar mWirdeba da romc mWirdebodes fexebmokecili ki ar davelodebodi viRacis fiqrebSi mocurave `rainds~, ara! avdgebodi da erTi xelis mosmiT amovwyvetdi am fexqveSgasaTel patara kacunebs, mere amRvreul wyalSi Cavidodi da iqaurobas firuzisfers vaCuqebdi.. Tavis qalaSi qaosad meRvrebiT yvela. Senc, isic, visac axla Taflis gemos msgavsad sZinavs, is kuTxeSi mjdomic, visac daxeuli adamianuri materiidan gamoyofili xeli eToSeba da fiqrebSi naTeli ferebiT savse derefnebSi TmagaSlili dafrinavs.. hoo, dafrinavs. yvelas aqvs frTebi Cem msgavsad, magram ara aseTi feris. amasobaSi ras vambobdi damaviwyda.. a, ho, TavSi mereviT-meTqi cal-calke da yvela erTad aRebuli, gesmis?! me minda vipovo xidi, mere zed avZvre da es Zlivs amozrdili frTebi moviSuSo.. gulis siRrmeSi isev Sen gelodebi, magram mgoni azri ekargeba Seni aq gaCenis perspeqtivas. Sens adamianur sawyiss imis Zalac ki ar eyofa xmals xeli mokidos da yvela aq myofis sxeulidan wiTeli macocxlebeli neqtari saTiTaod gamorecxos, did saTlSi Seagrovos proza 67 da Cem mier gafiruzisferebul zRvas mewamulisfrad usaxsovros. simarTle isaa, rom adamianebSi gmirebze metad laCrebi cxovroben. ufro simarTle ki is, rom me minda Senma frTebma moZebnos Cemi. me msurs Seni feri gamovicno. mere mag feriT mTeli saxlis kedeli mogixato da Ramis oTx saaTze dagiZaxo, rom bedniereba mogitanes aCuqrad. `didi daRi daasva am areulobam cxovrebas-zogma bevri ipova, zogma Tavi dakarga...~ ar vici raze saubrobda Cem gverdze mjdomi Suaxans gadacilebuli qalbatoni, Tumca biZaCemis kubos win mjdari am sityvebma damafiqra da Tavs Zala davatane gameSifra. Cven bevri araferi gvqonda napovni, aSkara iyo, rom Tavi davkargeT.. Tavi davkargeT am usamarTlo cxovrebaSi da xelis faTuriT veZebdiT sarkmels, raTa iqedan Semosul sinaTles gaenaTebina Cveni sxeulebi. zogjer tkivili imdenad didia, Tavs ar aZlev uflebas tiriliT gamoxato igi. tirili primitiuli saSualebaa emociebis haerSi gamobnevisa da saukuno tvirTis Semsubuqebis. maSin, rodesac tkivilis skivri mxrebs dagimZimebs, SesaZloa, sicili erTaderTi gamosavali iyos sxeulis mtvrisgan ganwmendisa. igi Seni xmis iogebs TiTebs Seaxebs da mixvdebi rom nel-nela Tavisufldebi, iclebi, cotavdebi da qrebi... aRaraferi xar am qveynad da arc araferi iyavi. Tan araferi xar, Tan yvelafers moicav.. adamiani sikvdil-sicocxlis zRvarze gaWedi- 68 debiuti li molaparake manqanaa, romelic mudam imaze fiqrobs Tavisuflebas xeli rogor miawvdinos. Tavisuflebis mwvervali ki, Cemi azriT, adamianis garda-cvalebaa. sikvdilis arss bolomde veravin verasdros Caswvdeba. ramdeni sinaTlis weliwadic ar unda icxovros, isunTqos, ifeTqos, iarsebos am fenomenis asaxsnelad gonieri arseba ubralod bgerebs ver gamonaxavs da ise garda-icvleba, rom ver daiokebs cxovrebis wyurvilis gacecxlebul grZnobas. siCume Cemi stiqiaa, siCume-es Tavad me var.. axlac, rodesac TiTqos yvela me mekuTvnis da Tan aravin, cxel asfaltze garTxmuls siCume gulSi myavs Caxutebuli da mzad var yvela da yvelaferi davTmo misTvis. albaT koniakis gadaWarbebuli doza malaparakebs, magram arauSavs.. minda dro wagarTvaT, minda gamigoT da moxvideT CemTan axlos. Tumca ara.. ar msurs! iyaviT iq, sadac xarT da ar gabedoT Cems samyaroSi Tqveni pirovnebebis gamravleba. vici ra Zlier gsurT Cemi wiTeli feri moiparoT da tango ecekvoT, vici rogor miiltviT Cemi natifi welisken, gsurT moxvioT Zlierad xelebi da gaitacoT sadRac Sors im melodiis fonze, romelic ase Zalian giforiaqebT suls, gimZafrebT cxovelur Jinsa da ltolvas wiTeli ferisadmi. me Tavad siCume var mewamulisfrad SeRebili, alkoholiki, romelic siyvaruls ver eleva. axalgazrdoba ki Tavze mawvims da mec qolga Segnebulad saxlSi proza 69 davtove, minda wveTebma koniakiT gaJRenTili Cemi sxeuli aaduRos da siCume, romelic ase myavs gulze misvenebuli Seisisxlxorcos. axla Ramea, me ki-asfaltze mTeli arsebiT dawebebuls sityvebiT TamaSi mominda, an iqneb tango mominda.. tango-CvenSi dabadebuli. modi Cemo Jolosfero mecekve TavdaviwyebiT. Zvirfaso, iyavi CemTan cotaxani, Camexute da gaginawileb Cems wiTladSeRebil siCumes, mere Senc momiwvebi gverdiT da koniakSi CamxrCvalni, siCumis sabanSi gaxveulni vilaparakebT naTel ferebze, simSvideze, sikeTeze, tangoze, mzeze, cisartyelaze, wiTelze, Jolosferze da yvelaferze, rac ase maaxlovebs SenTan. modi, modi da momijeqi gverdiT, cota koniaki kidev damrCa, siCume ki maqvs mTeli saadamianos samyofi... 70 debiuti Tiko surmaniZe ivane javaxiSvilis saxelobis Tbilisis saxelmwifo universiteti interviu `CemTan~ _ Seni azriT, ra aris yvelaze didi tkivili, mariam? _ ar vici, nikoloz, albaT individualuria, yvela sxvadasxvanairad aRiqvams, ganicdis, yvela sxvadasxvanairad grZnobs, ver ityvi, rom raime konkretuli yvelaze mtkivneulia adamianisTvis... _ da zogadad tkivili ra aris? _ tkivili iseTive ram aris, rac bedniereba, oRond misi sapirispiro, roca raRac usiamovno grZnoba geufleba da ar mogwons, Tan Zalian ar mogwons... _ da Seni azriT, tkivili unda ar sebobdes? _ kargi iqneboda rom ararsebobdes, magram saWiroa.. _ saWiroa? risTvisaa saWiro, mariam? _ imisTvis, rom Tavi cocxlebad vigrZnoT... _ tkiviliT grZnob, rom cocxali xar? proza 71 _ ki, tkiviliT bevr rames vgrZnob, imas, rom cocxali var, imas, rom bedniereba metad unda davafaso, imas vgrZnob, rom adamiani var... _ da Seni azriT, tkivilis grZnobaze saSineli raime arsebobs...? _ ki, samwuxarod, arsebobs nikoloz. es is grZnobaa, roca gamofituli xar ukve, roca aRaravis da aRarafers elodebi, SeiZleba kari gaixuro im imediT, rom vinme SemoaRebs, magram tkivilze saSineli grZnobaa, roca gaxurul kars iqeT aravis imedi aRar gaqvs, roca aRaravis elodebi, rom mova, roca imedi qreba, ai, eg grZnoba yvela tkivilze uaresia... _ ratom fiqrob, rom tkivilze uaresia? _ imitom, rom mosiarule leSi xar, romelic arafers da aravis elodeba, romelsac aravisTvis da arafrisTvis ucems guli. ki ar cxovrob, ubralod arsebob... veRar grZnob, rom adamiani xar.. amas jobs, rom gtkiodes, gixarodes an rames ganicdide, magram sul rom araRaferi darCeba, yvela emocia rom gaqreba, ai, maSin iqneba kacobriobis saqme cudad. Cemo nikoloz, tkivili araferia, wamodgebi da ufro Zlieri gaxdebi, imitom rom rac ar gklavs, is gaZlierebs, yoveli dacemis mere xom ufro Zlieri dgebi, xorcielebas, adamianobas SeigrZnob da es sjobs leSad yofnas... 72 debiuti sanam bavSvobidan wamoxval... werili Cems umcros megobars da erT dRes Sen mixvdebi, rom sulac aRar xar bavSvi, gaizarde da yvelaferi Seicvala, vardisferi saTvaleebi moixseni da sul sxvanairad dainaxe samyaro, mxrebze, yovel wels, asakis matebasTan erTad ufro meti pasuxismgebloba gawveba da grZnob, rom es gamZimebs, xvdebi, rom bavSvobaSi male gazrdaze rom ocnebobdi, axla bavSvobaSi dabruneba ginda. iq, sadac yvelaferi ufro martivia da namdvili, iq, sadac mxolod waqcevisas SeiZleba rame itkino da verc ki warmoidgen, rom ufro meti zianis miyeneba adamianebs SeuZliaT. mogenatreba is dro, roca Seni mTavari sadardebeli, `rolikebiT~ gadatyavebuli muxli iyo da ara adamianebis mier moyenebuli Wrilobebis moSuSeba. gagaxsendeba, rom maSin Tavis gadasarCenad ar giwevda brZola da arc imaze fiqri, vis SeiZleba endo da vis ara... ici,suli dagimZimdeba da mixvdebi, rom marTla gaizarde. Seni uangaro grZnobebic ki moCvenebiTad iqceva, imitom rom cxovrebaSi rTulia iyo namdvili da Tanac gamarjvebuli, Seni bavSvobis fiqrebs sul sxva fiqrebi Secvlis. adre, baRSi rom ocnebobdi netav, dRes kargi saWmeli gaakeTono, an skolaSi fiqrobdi, netav dRes ar gamomiZaxos maswavlebelmao, am `zogadsakacobrio~ sadardebels sxva fiqrebi Caanacvlebs da Sen mixvdebi, rom cxovreba imaze saSinelia, vidre baRSi axalgaRviZebulze arasasurveli saWmlis Wama, an skolaSi orianis miReba. mixvdebi, rom Seni cremlebis mizezi SeiZleba sulis tkivili iyos da ara xorcis, gaacnobiereb, rom proza 73 uari unda Tqva bavSvur uangaro Tvalebze da sul sxva TamaSi daiwyo. gaiazreb, rom ar giRirs iyo namdvili da Seni maskaradic daiwyeba, uamrav orsaxovan ianuss gadaeyrebi. dainaxav, rom yvela adamiani keTili rodia... zogi Sens gamoyenebas Seecdeba, zogic _ motyuebas, zogi _ SeniT TamaSs. Zalian gagiWirdeba namdvili saxeebis da namdvili adamianebis danaxva. erTxelac waiqcevi, ufro swored adamianebi wagaqceven da aucileblad gagikvirdeba, rom adamianebs iseTebis gafiqreba da kadreba SeuZliaT, rasac Sen verc ki warmoidgendi, TandaTan mware da tkbil gamocdilebasac SeiZen, gamocdili moTamaSe gaxdebi da Senc daiwyeb TamaSs. ai, maSin mixvdebi, rom gaizarde, marTla gaizarde... da igrZnob, rom ZarRvebSi sisxli Cveulebrivze ufro gagiwiTlda. Seni yoveli dRe savse iqneba emociebiT. marTalia, es dRe SesaZloa ar iyos naTeli da xSirad mogiwios sakuTar TavTan Widili, gisosebis gamomtvreva, raTa sicocxle gamoaTavisuflo, magram nu SekrTebi. aqedanve getyvi, yvelaze didi brZola mainc sakuTar TavTan mogiwevs, raTa Seni adgili gamoZebno, vidre Seni filmi ar dasruldeba. es filmi komediuric iqneba da zogjer dramatulic, magram mTavari gmiri yovelTvis Sen iqneba. ecada, arc erTi bednieri wuTi ar dakargo. am filmis scenars xom Sen Tavad wer. yovelTvis gabede da iyavi bednieri...Sen gverdiT adamianebi usasrulod ver darCebian, erTaderTi, vinc arasodes migatovebs sakuTari me-a, Seecade arasodes dakargo igi da sxvebsac uwilado, radgan adamianad yofnis vali gaqvs RmerTTan da adamianTan. Sen sxvebsac unda aswavlo sicocxlis siyvaruli. sul es iyo...me mxolod Cemi ocwliani gamocdileba gagiziare, Cemo patara, danarCeni ki -Sens xelSia. 74 debiuti mariam qeTelauri ivane javaxiSvilis saxelobis Tbilisis saxelmwifo universiteti saxli rodesac samarSuto taqsidan Camovedi da fexqveS miwa vigrZeni, erTdroulad dameufla amouxsneli tkivili da umweobis gancda. raRacam ise mZlavrad Seazanzara CemSi miZinebuli mogonebebi, rom mominda sakuTar Tavs gavqceodi. aseTi grZnoba mxolod maSin eufleba adamians, roca yvelasgan miviwyebul mxareSi, romlis saxlebSic didi xania mtveri aravis gadauwmindavs, fexs daadgams da maSinRa gaacnobierebs, rom raRac mSobliuri mogenatra, Tan ubralo monatrebiT ki ara, tkiviliani, uhaero monatrebiT. umweobis gancda yvelaze saSineli ramaa, rac SeiZleba daeuflos adamians... gzis meore mxares Cemi skolaa. adgili, sadac gavatare bavSvoba. adgili, sadac erT dros sicocxle Cqefda da sadac ukve didi xania, fexi aravis daudgams. proza 75 uyureb mis gacrecil, usicocxlo kedlebs da maxsendeba Cemi bavSvoba, _ sicocxliT da siyvaruliT savse... fiqrebidan muxruWis xmas da mZRolis gamaRizianebel SeZaxils gamovyavar: `gzaze ras dayudebulxar, gaiare...~ romelsac Zlivs gasagoni CurCuli erTvis: `kinaRam gavitane... utvino...~ am gzaze manqanebi yovelTvis SeuCereblad moZraoben... sofelSi ki Znelad Tu dainaxav manqanas, isic mxolod weliwadis erT dros _ zafxulSi, roca qalaqs Sexiznuli axalgazrdebi Camodian dasasveneblad, erTi an ori kviriT. sxva dros ki sofelSi siwynarea... ufro swored, Semzaravi siCumea... mivdivar bargiT xelSi Cemi soflis gzaze da ver vcnob mas. mivdivar da mivaTrev uzarmazar tkivils, imedgacruebas, sasowarkveTas da danaSaulis grZnobas... mivdivar da ar vici ratom, meSinia. mcirdeba gza da izrdeba SiSi. SiSi, romelsac damangreveli Zala aqvs. mivdivar da vgrZnob mzis mwvel sxivebs... rogori sxvanairia, rogori mkacri... weliwadis am dros arasdros yofila aseTi sicxe. an SeiZleba mxolod me meCveneboda ase... cotac da soflis baRs mivuaxlovdebi, magram manamde yuradRebas Cemsken momavali ori adamiani ipyrobs. ver vcnob... vatyob, verc maT micnes... kidev ori nabiji da Cem win Tanaklaselebi dganan. gakvirvebisgan ena mucelSi Camivarda... rogor xaro, momikiTxes. 76 debiuti Camecina. visaubreT. aRmoCnda, rom dasasveneblad Camosulan ori dRiT...movikiTxe da movubodiSe, meCqareba-meTqi, davemSvidobe da isev Camecina. ucnauri vinmea adamiani. SeuZlia erTi xelis mosmiT gaanadguros urTierTobebi. erT dros arsebuli kavSiric moSalos da ukvalod gaaqros. da ai, sabavSvo baRic... mkacri da pirquSi saxiT miyurebs... ukve didi xania aravin Seufarebia Tavis mklavebSi, ukve didi xania dakarga mze... dakarga da gaborotda... jer erTi kedeli gaebzara, Semdeg meore, axla ki _ mesamec gabzaruli aqvs. nebismier dros SeiZleba Camoingres da saukuno bnelSi moaqcios adamiani, amitom ukve didi xania mis siaxloves aravin midis. saSineli ramea SiSi... ai, ukve Cemi saxlis aRmarTic iwyeba. cotac da saxlis kars gavxsni. kars, romlis iqiT aravin melodeba... kars, romelic didi xania aravis SeuRia.. ezoSi Semzaravi siCumea. Tumca dawyebuli saqme aucileblad unda davasrulo. muxlebi mikankalebs, magram mainc miviwev win, vxsni ezos kars da muxlamde balaxSi gavlas vcdilob. ai, isic... saxli... SiSma da danaSaulis gancdam erTdroulad Semomitia... amjerad ukve vici, risic meSinia. amjerad ukve vici, rom mTeli cxovrebaa swored im SiSs gavurbivar, romelsac martooba hqvia... rogori ucnauric ar unda iyos, verasdros warmovidgendi, rom ase Zalian momenatreboda mSobliuri proza 77 mxare, saidan gaqcevasac yovelTvis ase mondomebiT vcdilobdi. fiqrebidan loyaze Camogorebulma wveTma gamomafxizla. momeCvena, rom wvimda. arada ormoc gradusamde sicxe iyo, ca _ uRrublo. bargi karTan davde da saxlis kari Sevxseni... nestis da mtvris mZafrma sunma gamoJona mitovebulikedlebidan... ablabudebi... yvelgan ablabudebi... da kidev Semzaravi siCume. skams mtveri gadavwminde da Camovjeqi. mogonebebma yovelTvis ician, rodis dgeba maTi dro. mogonebebma sinanulic ician zogjer...yvelaferi Tvalwin damidga... mTeli bavSvoba, romelic am kedlebSi gavatare da ucnaurad mominda iq dabruneba. 78 debiuti olani biwaZe ivane javaxiSvilis saxelobis Tbilisis saxelwifo universiteti fasiani sikvdili mamas SesaniSnavi iumori aqvs, magram saSineli cxovreba.is msxvili, dakoJrili xelebiT ebrZvis xeebs da gamarjvebis Sedegad materiis qaosis dammarcxebeli uzarmazari Taroebi rCeba. am TaroebSi adamianebi WurWelsa da tansacmelebs awyoben, oRond rogor... es ukve mamas aRar ekiTxeba. mas mxolod or mTavar kiTxvas usvamen `ramden xanSi iqneba?~ da `fasis dakleba SeiZleba?~ mama yovelTvis uklebs, misi azriT, sxvanairad adamiani ver iqneba. civi da Savia is oTaxi, sadac mama naTeli saxlebisTvis Taroebs qmnis. mama, rogorc ar unda ciodes, arasdros metyvis, Tbil RumelTan adgili davuTmo. magram me xom vici, rom civia is oTaxi, sadac mTel dRes atarebs da is gzac civia, sadac qari mamas sacemad usafrdeba. amitom Rumels SeSiT vavseb da savarZelSi mokalaTebul fumfula katasTan erTad Soridan Tvalebs vaceceb. mama Rumelisaken iweva da misi dakoJrili proza 79 xelebi periodulad irxeva. igi ar miyurebs. mxolod fiqrobs, sevdiani TvalebiT, sxvebisTvis ki mxiaruli mzera emeteba. _ saWmels SeWam? _ekiTxeba deda tradiciulad tradiciuli pasuxis mosasmenad _ aba, ras vizam! mgeliviT mSia. _iRimis mgeli arasdros minaxavs, magram albaT mama mgels saukeTesod ganasaxierebs. mas xom SeuZlia, uxeS xeebs Seerkinos da ojaxuri xrovis dasacavad yvelaferze wavides. cicqna magida dedas motanili kerZebiT ivseba da mamas wyalobiT msubuqdeba. fumfula kata sacodavad krutuns iwyebs da mere _ mamas fexebze Semoskupebuli krutuns agrZelebs. Wamas ise demonstraciulad wyvets, albaT raime sainteresos Txzavs da marTlac, xelebs doinjad iwyobs da ambobs: _ dRes didi SekveTa miviRe! _ Tvalebi am dros Cveni axali saSobao naZvis xesaviT ubrwyinavs. deda qsovis monotonur process aCerebs da ambobs: _ Sens did SekveTebs cota fuli moaqvT, _ me da mamas gvecineba. dedasgan gansxvavebiT, Cven viciT, rom roca did raRacebs qmni, didi adamiani xdebi. yovel SemTxvevaSi, Tavs aseTad mainc grZnob. mere ra, jibes fuliT Tu ar givseben. _ fulis dedac! _viciniT isev me da mama. deda Tavs mowyenilad aqnevs. albaT axla Tvalwin gadasaxadebis qviTrebi ufrialebs. mivdivar da yelze vexvevi. _ odesme sakuTar wignebs gamovcem da winaswar SeZ- 80 debiuti leb yvela gadasaxadis gadaxdas. _ iqamde macocxle! _ gabutuli bavSviviT mpasuxobs. _ Cven ar vapirebT Sens mokvlas, _ mamas RimiliT loyebi exazeba. iqneb, es ubralo xazebi ki ara, braleuli naoWebia siberis niSnad?!. oTaxSi win da ukan viwyeb bolTis cemas. mere Cems axal moTxrobas xmamaRla vkiTxulob da epilogad Cveuli siCume dgeba. roca mamas ar moswonda, kiTxvas movrCebodi Tu ara, SeniSvnebs mayrida. adre sul ase iyo. rac gavizarde, siCumem imata. mama siCumeSi Cems dawerilze fiqrobs. swored misgan vici, rom karg mwerlebs SeuZliaT fiqri gaiZulon. mama fiqrs asrulebs da dedas amcnobs: _ axlosaa, Cemo kneina, gamdidreba! mama isev iseTia, erTi Tvis win rogoric davtove. TvalebSi etyoba, daaklda uCemoba. albaT enatreba CemTan `layboba~ da erTaderT SvilTan ganSorebis tkivils msuqan katasac ver uziarebs. mamam gamzarda jadosnur gogod, romelic SeiZleba garedan ubralo karadas hgavdes, magram SigniT metismetad bevr da saintereso rames itevs. universitetSi aseT raRacebze arasdros vfiqrob. ase SeiZleba, uecrad baRSi atirebul bavSvad viqce. _ sigarets mowev? _mekiTxeba qera gamxdari biWi da damskdari tuCebi ferflisferi uxdeba. ratom aris misi saxe aseTi nacnobi? iqneb warsuls ireklavs, arc ise Soridan? Tavis msubuqi gaqnevac kmara, Cemsken gamowvdil xels ukan dabruneba rom aiZulos. oTaxs kvamliT avsebs, me ki fanjris gamosaRebad mivdivar. proza 81 _ ramdeni wlis xar? _Tvalebs Wutavs da ecineba. _ Seni azriT, ramden fuls moerevi? _Zalian etyoba, rom Cemi Zveli megobaria, Tan arasakmarisad Zveli, odnav mainc rom xvdebodes, valebSi cxovreba ras niSnavs. _ cotas Senc gaCuqeb, rom geyos sigaretis sayidlad. Tvals vukrav da fanjris rafaze Semomjdari vaTvaliereb qalaqs. rac aq gadmovedi, yvelafris Tvaliereba daviwye. Tavi muzeumSi mgonia da mwyins, mama Tan rom ar wamomyva. mama mTel msoflioSi saukeTeso gidia, imitom, rom icis, rogor gagrZnobinos Tavi msoflios centrad. _ albaT, axlac morig Taros amzadebs da ufro imisTvis emzadeba, muStari rom sTxovs fulis `xval~ motanas. aseTi `xval~ iSviaTad dgeba. xandaxan mgonia, rom ar mesmis, mama ase ratom iqceva. nuTu, imdenad sustia rom ar SeuZlia raime uaryos?! an imdenad Seyvarebulia sakuTar Tavze, rom ubralod misi Ralati ar unda. Cemi megobari xmamaRla meZaxis da Tavs misken vabruneb. _ Seni qalaqi genatreba? _man ar icis, ras niSnavs `Camosulad~ yofna. es arc martoobasTan da arc damcirebasTan ar asocirdeba. xom giTxariT, es uzarmazari muzeumis dausrulebel Tvalierebas hgavs. _ qalaqi ar menatreba, _ xmaze metyoba, wesiT, gagrZeleba rom unda hqondes Cems naTqvams, magram arc ise Zvel megobars ar SeuZlia, uTqmelad mixvdes, rom qalaqze mniSvnelovani ojaxia. wablisferi kubos TavTan zis deda da Tavze Savi qs- 82 debiuti ovili axuravs. im dedas hgavs, eqvsi wlis win deda rom moukvda; im dedas hgavs, oTxi wlis win mama rom moukvda; im dedas hgavs, axla qmaric rom moukvda. meCveneba, rom yvela sikvdili mis cxovrebaSi am Savi SaliT gaformda. amitom minda, mivide da Tavidan movaSoro, magram mkvdrebTan axlos yofna ar miyvars. mgonia, rom ase imaT mivdev, visac ver davewevi; vinc aRarasdros gamiRebs kars. mamasac ki arasodes mivukakuneb, Tu ar mecodineba, rom kars iqiT CemTan Sesaxvedrad dgas. axla vici, rom mama Sorsaa yvela karidan, romlebzec me xeli mimiwvdeba. amitom aRarc ki vtiri. Cems megobarTan erTad viTvli fuls, romelic mamas sikvdilis gamo moitanes adamianebma. _ imaze metia, vidre Seni wignis gayidviT iSove, _ mis xmas alag-alag gaocebis elferi dahkravs _ axla gvecodineba, rom sikvdili fulis Sovnis saukeTeso gzaa. qaRaldis kupiurebs parkSi vaxvev da oTaxSi vinaxav. cudia, rom restornis fulis gadaxda maincdamainc wignis gayidviT dagrovebuli fuliT momiwia. arada, mindoda, piradad mamisTvis meCuqebina Cems wignTan erTad. vetyodi, rom me misgan gansxvavebiT, gamarjveba SevZeli, raRacis SeqmniT Tavi didadac vigrZeni da fulisgan jibec gamididda. amas axla azri aRar aqvs. roca viRacebi gtoveben, swored azrebi miaqvT Tan. ase rCebian uazrod cicqna magidebi, romelTa sisavsesac veRar daclian da msuqani katebi Zexvs patrons veRar awapnian. ase rCebian uazrod SavTavSaliani qalebi da studentebi, romelTac sxvebisTvis uwevT sufris kerZebiT Sevseba. proza 83 _ rogor fiqrob, mamaSeni iamayebda SeniT? _mekiTxeba ratomRac Cemi megobari da mzeriT mimaniSnebs mis xelSi moTavsebuli Cemi wignisken. _ xo, Tumca me misiT arasdros miamayia, _ mrcxvenia, amas rom vambob. _ ratom? _ sikvdilis meti veraferi moifiqra, mis naSromSi fuli rom gadaexadaT. arada, TviTmkvlelobas ra didi mofiqreba unda. _ xom Tqvi, cudi fantaziori iyoo. _mikvirs, saidan daamaxsovrda. _ ho, Torem isic rames dawerda. samagierod, kargi iumori hqonda... _ `da cudi cxovreba~... _ miRimis, Seni wigni guldasmiT wavikiTxe. mgoni, kargia, mamaSens rom ar waukiTxavs. _ mec ase mgonia. ... me da Cemi ferflisfertuCebiani megobari SavsamosianTa procesias erTad vacilebT. sasaflaodan sxva gziT pirdapir saxlSi vbrundebiT da dedas fulTan erTad magidaze vutoveb Cems Sav TavSals. gareT wiTur Tmebze mzis sxivebi mecema. cotac da saxec amiwiTldeba. manqanidan vxedav restornis win Sekrebil kacebs da maT mamas klientebis saxelebs varqmev. uceb ise mindeba, saTiTaod davumtvrio TiToeuls mamas gaxexili TiTebiT damzadebuli yvela karada, rom sunTqva mekvreba. fanjaras dabla vwev da saxes qars vuSver. muzeumSi vbrundebi, oRond axla ukve misi eqsponati var. 84 debiuti salome wyarozia soxumis saxelmwifo universiteti zRva qali - me var zRva; zamTrispiris qariSxliani Ramis mRelvare da myvirali zRva. grigali noembermileul wveTebs wvimisas guldamSvidebiT abinavebs CemSi. vgrZnob, rogor erTvis Cems sxeuls ucxo ram wyali. wyali Tevzisferi, wyali moelvare. ar arian napirze sulieri arsebebi, zamTarSi Zrwolas vgvri mrisxane RrialiT ususurT. aravinaa irgvliv da am autanel siCumeSi uSfoTvelad vadevneb Tvals daklaknili wyalmcenareebis cekvas Cems fskerze. me saSiSi var- sikvdili saxlobs TiToeul ujredSi da mxolod sicocxleCamqralT aqvT survili, eziaron Cems sxeuls zamTrispiris qariSxlian Ramesac ki. kacime mas sasaflaoze Sevxvdi. muxlebze edo ,,kaci, romelic icinis” da Rvarad sdioda cremlebi. uneburad saflavis qvas Sevxede. saocrad maxinji kaci micqerda iqidan da me mivxvdi, ratom kiTxulobda maincdamainc am qvasTan guinplenis ubedur Tavgadasavals. proza 85 axla, roca vCxubobT da is saxlidan garbis, yovelTvis vici, ratom miaqvs ,,kaci, romelic icinis” da ratom melis maincdamainc am qvasTan welSi moxrili da saSinlad ususuri. me mas vaZlev Cems maisurebs da ar vbrazob, roca saaTobiT esaubreba telefonze daqalebs. roca vmgzavrobT, fanjris mxares adgils yovelTvis mas vuTmob da ar mwydeba guli. roca Cems sxeulze TevziviT sxmartalebs, ar vuyureb TvalebSi, radgan vgrZnob, iseTi mzera aqvs, gegoneba, suli unda gaeyaroso cxedars da me meSinia am qalis. arasodes meubneba, rom vuyvarvar da vera da ver daaneba Tavi frCxilebis kvnetas, roca Cemgan esmis es sityvebi. qalimeSinia. avi zmanebani ar Sordebian Cems Rameebs da me meSinia, Tu xelT ar mipyria ,,Seni TovliviT mkrTali xelebi“. dilaobiT, roca midixar sadRac, me veSvebi muxlebze da sityvebi ikargebian, gadian Cemgan. Tavs dabla vxri da vCurCuleb: Sen gabede da daepatrone zamTrispiris avdrian zRvas. Sen ar SeuSindi grigals, avdars, wvimas da Semocure maSin, roca me, arsgamSrali, uxmod vadevnebdi Tvals wyalmcenareTa rokvas Cems fskerze. me meSinia, rom Sen dageRvreba Cemi wyali da daSreba zRva, daixocebian Tevzebi da wyalmcenareebi Sewyveten ritmul qanaobas. Sen, aseTi ucxo, maRali da diadi roca midixar da Tan migyveba mwvane Tvalebis susxnarevi Semodgoma. me, sarkesakruli da naxevrad giJi zRvis qali, ver vgrZnob, 86 debiuti rogor garbian sityvebi Cemgan... mamao Cemo, da Zmao Cemo, da Zeo Cemo, da RmerTo Cemo! Sen, romelic arad agdeb zamTris grgvinvas... Sen , romelic maZlev Sens kvarTs... Sen, romelsac saocrad giyvars fanjarasTan jdoma da mainc me miTmob adgils... Sen, romelic tuCebis kankaliT mixsni siyvaruls da wuxxar, rom ver igeb Cemgan pasuxs... me vZrwi, me vTrTi, me vcaxcaxeb da wveT-wveTad, wkapuniT icleba Cemi guli sisxlisagan, mere es wveTebi yelSi meRvreba da wurwuriT ipareba mkerdidan... Sen, movlenilo CemTvis msmelad wylisa Cemisa da mRrRnelad purisa Cemisa, da mwvelad sulisa Cemisa... Sen ver gaigeb, ratom arasodes gpasuxob- mec, mec miyvarxar! RmerTo, raSi gWirdeba es ubadruki sityva? me Tanaxma var, oTaxSi Semosuls dagxvde fexsawmendad. me Tanaxma var, Cemi sxeuli iyos Seni saferfle. me ar viqnebi ubeduri, Tundac zed Semdge, mxolod imis SemeSindeba, male ar momaSoro fexebi, male ar Camoxvide Cemgan miwaze. me uyoymanod aviReb SenTvis gankuTvnil tkivilebs, gavixdi kans da xorcze Semovixvev, oRond Sen ar igrZno wva. me moval SenTan da gagxdi tanjvas, Tavad movixvev yelze da viqnebi bednieri, rom agaride zRvis avadmyofoba. Sen ici, rom unda mipovo ,,kacTan, romelic icinis” da mainc iTxov Cemgan, giTxra, rogor miyvarxar. da me gwer Sen, roca vlivliveb zamTrispiris gayinul talRebad da vexeTqebi Seni fexis TiTebs. me gwer Sen, roca Seni Tvalebidan amodis mze da arafers geubnebi, mxolod gaZlev wyals da aRar vdardob wyalmcenareTa cekvaze SuaRamisas. proza 87 Cems talRebSi cxovrob Sen- mwvaneTvaleba RmerTi da me meSinia, ar dageRvaros wyali. qolgis kaba xom ver eteva viwro saknisxela gulis oTaxSi qolgebisa da wvimis Tanadrouli, ukidegano siyvaruli? is itevda... Zalian patara gogo roca viyavi da ar mimaCnda codvad saxalxod Rriali yvela wvrilmanze, myavda bebo, romelic civ Tovlze areklil mzis sxiviviT daatarebda sevdanarev cremlian gemos da damtvreuli qolgebisagan mikeravda kabebs. gsmeniaT aseTi ram? roca qolgas sayrdeni emsxvreva da gareTa qsovili upatronod rCeba, patara gogosTvis SeiZleba mSvenieri kaba Seikeros, msubuqi da axalsicocxleSekedlebuli kaba. ZiriTadad, lurji qolgebi mqonda- imTaviTve miyvarda zRva. qolgis kabebs wvimis suni asdioda da livliva feri SehRimoda mzes. grZelTmiani patara gogo daexeteboda galis mitovebul nasaxlarebSi da wlobiT uwmendi ablabuda etmasneboda qolgis kabas anazdad. mitovebul saxlebs sakuTari mZinare istoriebi hqonda da gogona Cxrekda karadaSi darCenil mZime Savi naWris kabebs, ablabudebsa da albomebs. vgiJdebidi afxazeTis nasaxlarebze. axlac, cxadSi Tu sizmrad rom vixseneb iqaurobas, gulidan naJuri sisxlic ver dawers im grZnobaTa gamosaTqmel sityvebs. Cemi suli im nasaxlarebs hgavs, im nasaxlarebSi daxe- 88 debiuti tialobs da Savi wvima bzars tovebs kedlebze. Camojdeboda xolme qolgiskabiani patara gogona Zvelmegrul kibeebze da interesiT ayolebda Tvals quCaSi mogruxune rusul tankebs. mere sios Sexmianebuli kabis Sriali ufantavda fiqrebs da maSinac eSleboda uazro, suleluri ocnebebi. Cemi suli hgavs afxazeTis mitovebul nasaxlars, ablabudebiT savses da WerCamongreuls, damsxvreul Wiqebze mofenili mtvriT dafaruls, iatakze migdebul furclebdamwvar ,,omsa da mSvidobas”. siyvarulTan ra xeli aqvs oms? maSin, albaT, mxolod iluzia iyo masazrdoebeli Cemi fantaziebisa. warmovidgendi, rom unda myvareboda rusi jariskaci, romelic nasaxlarad aqcevda Cems saxls (RmerTo Cemo, ra ironiulia cxovreba, rogor uyvars borotad xumroba maSin, roca saerTod ar eli amas?!). warmovidgendi, rom miyvarda is, visac surda batonoba yvela wmindaze da cecxls ugznebda nasaxlarad qceul nasiyvarulars. warmovidgendi, rom erTaderTi fari iyo Cemi lurji qolgis kaba da nelnela ekideboda mewamuli ali, misi xelidan wamosuli. jojoxeTur tkivilsa da siamovnebas maniWebda pawawina asakSi ararealuri fiqri imaze, rac male realurad iqca Cemi ,,qolgis kabebisTvis” cecxlis wamkideblad. da vijeqi kibeze, movTqvamdi Cem daxatul tragediebze da sakuTar mkerdSi vgrZnobdi TiToeul bzars kedlebisa. upatrono mkvdarTa sulebi aRazasaviT SemaCvenebdnen, usircxviloo, Camkiodnen da brWyalebs misvamdnen muxlebze amazrzenad. movTqvamdi uxmod: cecxli ukidia cas, Cemo! Seni TiTebidan modis proza 89 mgrgvinavi ubedureba da saxldeba Cems mkerdSi. Seni Tvalebi Cemi qolgis kabebis feria da gsurs, nasaxlaris aCrdilad miqcio kedlebCamongreuli suli. ZaZa kabebi ver angrevs Sens sunTqvas da yinuliviT civ mzeras mifaTureb gulSi. maiZuleb, vixetialo saflavebze, viwve amoburcul gorakebs Soris da vgrZnobde qolgisferi kabis sisveles. wvima gveRvreba fexisgulebze me da Cems megobar mkvdrebs da mainc, ver gvaTbobs Seni cecxli... cecxli, romelic wvavs oden, mferflavs da maWknobs auyvaveblad. wamSi gafrenili wlebi enacvlebian erTmaneTs da kibeze Camomjdari lurjkaba gogonas myudroebas arRvevs daisis niavisferi suni, cxeli zafxulis yelsmobjenili sunTqva. uamravi weli gavida. aRar meteva qolgis kabebi da aRarc vinme mikeravs. cxovreba umal angrevs mTel romantikas. bebo cocxalia jerac, magram aRar asdis Tovlsmifenili mzis sxivebis suni da wlebma daaviwya kerva. afxazeTis mitovebul nasaxlarebSi aRar daborialobs patara gogo gamogonili tragikuli ocnebebiT, mas aRar sWirdeba ubedurebis gamogoneba, saflavebi drom upova uqolgiskabebo sulSi. kedlebCamongreuli, mtverSefenili odebis feria suli misi... sanatrel xelTagan wakidebuli cecxlis feri, Camqrali mzisa da mZime wvimis surneliT aRvsili, omCasaxlebuli, realur ocnebaTa saflavebs Soris gawolili... natyviarebiT dacxriluli, mtvriani kedlebiTa da Camongreuli ciT. 90 debiuti sofio TinikaSvili goris saswavlo universiteti taZarSi taZris centrSi idga. neli nabijiT midioda misgan RmerTi. ar Cqarobda, radgan wveTi imedi, rom uxmobda RmerTs, isev iyo. ar uxmo da RmerTi eklesiidan gavida. is idga. Zafi, romelic jer kidev akavSirebdaT, gawyda. eklesia aRar iyo misi taZari, misi mkurnali adgili, misi saxli. eklesia axla fari iyo. an iqneb arc sWirdeboda fari, radgan guli, romelic adre feTqavda, gaiyina. sisxlma dakarga wiTeli feri da Cveulebriv siTxed iqca. dainaxa, rogor wamodga kuTxeSi mikunWuli dacemuli angelozi da mxrebi rogor gaSala. Tavs isev martosulad grZnobda, RmerTi rom ar moabruna. ra sastiki yofila es martooba. sulSi SeuZvra da aaforiaqa. Semdeg gaaxsenda kuTxeSi mdgari dacemuli angelozi da mas uxmo. erTmaneTs xeli CamoarTves, magram moZRvari ganawyenda. man dacemul an- proza 91 gelozs xeli ar gauwoda. protestis niSnad, sxeuli da suli datova da RmerTs aedevna. axla ukve orni darCnen. axalma megobarma, romelic man ixmo, ver moutana simSvide, radganac is ngrevis angelozi iyo. amasobaSi, dacemulma angelozma is dacarielebuli adgili ipovna, saidanac man RmerTi gauSva. amoiRo Sav samoselSi damaluli borotebis marcvali da dacarielebul adgilze dafla. mere adga da niRbis mosatanad gaemarTa. sad aris samSoblo?! aq aravis unaxavs momRimari adamiani. cremlebi? _ ramdenic gindaT. ojaxSi erTaderTi mamakaci davrCi. amitom valdebuli var, Cemi oTxi wlis da davicva. me masze didi var _ Svidis wlis gavxdi. sanam mama naRmze afeTqdeboda, is gvicavda xolme. maSin SemeZlo SemSineboda _ mama myavda da damamSvidebda. axla ar SeiZleba, rom meSinodes... dedac myavda... erT-erTi afeTqebisas, rom gamovrbodiT, nangrevebSi davtoveT. sisxliani iyo, fexze ver dgeboda. Cven wamovediT. sanam xmas gavagonebdi, veZaxdi. ar vici, esmoda Tu ara Cemi xma, me mainc veZaxdi. mamam miTxra, dedaSenTan ufali miva da waiyvanso... netav marTla mivida dedasTan ufali? ar minda, im nangrevebSi darCes. wamoviyvandi, magram, ase amboben, axla is adgili teroristebma daikaveso. adre, Cemi samSoblo alepodan iwyeboda, Cemi saxli- 92 debiuti dan, rodesac deda da mama myavda. maSin irgvliv lamazi Senobebic iyo da da quCaSi vseirnobdiT xolme. axla yvelaferi daangries da mxolod srolisa da afeTqebis xma ismis. netav sad gaqra? sad aris samSoblo? an saerTod aris? SiSi saxlSi orni varT, me da nataSka! sxva aravin! wlebia, kakunis ar xma yofila Cveni saxlis karze! mxolod Cven varT, ai, ase vcxovrobT mSvidad, CvenTvis. nataSka mSvidi da upretenzioa, mis xmas iSviaTad gaigonebT, samagierod, imdenad kargad gavicani, rom ver vxedavde, mainc vgrZnob, ra unda, ra moewoneba, ra uxaria... dRes sadilad puris xarCo gvaqvs. nataSka pretenziuli araa, yvelaferi uyvars, Tumca cotas Wams... saerTod, araferze gamoTqvams pretenziebs, Tumca, me yovelTvis vamCnev, ra moswons da ra ara, da vcdilob vasiamovno. _ dRes sadils daagviandeba, ara uSavs, ara? _ vekiTxebi da pasuxi ukve vici: nataSka xom pretenziebs arasodes gamoTqvams. ai, sadilic mzadaa, visxam jamSi, magidasTan vjdebi... nataSka Cems fexebTan puris namcecebs acmacunebs. cota xnis mere kmayofili da madlieri amomxedavs da Tavis soroSi wacunculdeba. proza 93 hm, axalgazrdas misi SemeSindeboda, magram axla cxovrebas mixalisebs. nataSkas me vyavar da veimedebi, is ki _ me... mere ra, rom Tagvia _ mTavaria, arsebobs viRac, viszec SemiZlia vizruno, radgan sxvaze zrunva adamians iseve sWirdeba xandaxan, rogorc haeri. nataSkas ukve usadilia da sorosken micunculebs. _ xuTi wuTic da avdgebi, de! _ isev ar damacades CaZineba. Cvens saxlSi diliT yvela laparakobs: deda, mama, umcrosi Zmebi, televizori, TuTiyuSi Cikoc ki! nataSka sorosken wavida da sizmris dasasrulidan gauCinarda... ra kargia! 94 debiuti ana Ciqovani ilias saxelmwifo universiteti ocnebis limiti vnerviulobdi... telefoni ar iWerda da manqanac gafuWda... saxlSi droulad ver vbrundebodi. erTaderTi gza am miyruebul adgilas gamvleli manqanis molodini iyo. saxlSi male unda davbrunebuliyavi, Cems mSoblebs ar moswondaT, roca vagvianebdi xolme. radganac klaselebi bolo zars aRvniSnavdiT, gamonaklisi dauSves da dro saRamos 8 saaTamde mqonda... me da nika vmegobrobdiT, erTmaneTs problemebs xSirad vuziarebdiT. ar vici, SesaZloa, erTmaneTi mogvwonda, magram am grZnobas, rasac siyvaruls eZaxian Tavs varidebdiT. Cems mSoblebs yvelafris mimarT konservatiuli damokidebuleba hqondaT da es gvaSinebda. me da nika megobrebs gaucnobiereblad CamovrCiT. martoni viyaviT. sxva gza ar gvqonda, unda gvesaubra da dro rogorme gagveyvana. me vnerviulobdi... tele- proza 95 foni ar iWerda... manqanac gafuWda... saxlSi droulad ver vbrundebodi... zustad vicodi, Cems saxlSi gvian dabrunebas rac mohyveboda. Sinaganad vgrZnobdi, rom CemTvis es kargis momtani ar iqneboda, amitomac maqsimalurad Sevecade, drois im monakveTze bednieri mogoneba Semeqmna. sul rom ase movqceuliyavi da am wesiT mecxovra, vfiqrob, axla ufro bednieri viqnebodi. albaT, adamianebi drois deficits ver acnobiereben. dros uazrod flangaven da mxolod maSin cdiloben Seqmnan Rimilismomgvreli momentebi, roca drois limiti amoewurebaT... nikas sizmrebze vesaubrebodi. mindoda, rom bevri mesaubra da TiTqmis ar vaclidi laparaks. vuyvebodi im sizmarze, romelic ocnebas hgavda, sadac Cem irgvliv yvela da yvelaferi oqrosferi iyo. adamianebi, erTi SexedviT, bednieri saxeebiT mamaxsovrebdnen Tavs, me ki mowyenili viyavi. rTuli iyo imaze fiqri da gansazRvra, Tu ras fiqrobdnen adamianebi. Rimili, misalmeba, siaruli, sunTqva, zogadad yvelaferi raRac uazro wesebiT iyo marTuli. situacia saSinlad mboWavda. gogonebisTvis wesebis dacva ufro rTuli iyo, radgan CvenTvis akrZalvebi orjer aRemateboda biWebisas... da ai axla, uceb, viRacam xeli Camavlo da amisgan Sors wamiyvana. irgvliv yvelaferi Seicvala da aferadda. Semdeg Cven gauTaveblad vcekvavdiT... nikas Cemi sizmari moewona. vsaubrobdiT sizmarze da imaze, Tu rogori xalxi iyo Cven irgvliv. ra feris viyavi me da ra feris iyo nika... CagveZina. dilis eqvsi saaTi iyo, roca gaviRviZeT. 96 debiuti mzis amosvlam imedi Cagvisaxa, rom vinme gamvleli gamoivlida da manqanis SekeTebaSi dagvexmareboda. me vnerviulobdi, telefoni ar iWerda, manqana ki, kvlav gafuWebuli. saxlSi droulad ver davbrundi. Svids aklda wuTebi, roca, rogorc iqna, erTi manqana gamoCnda. sixaruliT cas vewieT. gaaCera. saSualo xnis kaci iyomezobeli soflidan. dagvexmara. Cven gza ganvagrZeT. Tumca me kvlav vnerviulobdi... telefoni ar iWerda. saxlSi droulad ver davbrundi. roca saxlSi mivedi, dilis cxra saaTi iyo. deda saxegafiTrebuli damxvda. mamas divanze CasZineboda. Zmebs albaT oTaxebSi eZinaT. iqve mezobeli, uSvilo qali savarZelSi mokalaTebuliyo. ukve yvelaferi naTeli iyo. misvlisTanave marjvena loyaze simxurvale vigrZeni, romelmac Tmis wveridan terfamde damiara. mtkicebas azri ar hqonda. uSvilo mezobeli xmas ar iRebda. gverdiT idga da gulisyuriT ismenda yvelafers. mamam bolos Tqva: `me mamamisTan waval, Sen ki saxlidan fexs ver gaadgam verasodes! verasodes!~ vicodi, rom adre Tu gvian, raRac iseTi moxdeboda, rac radikalurad Secvlida Cems cxovrebas, amas yoveldRiurad vgrZnobdi. maT damokidebulebaSi Cem mimarT, mamis mier Cemi Zmebis gafetiSebaSi, dedisa da mamis urTierTobaSi, mSoblebisa Tu axloblis darigebaSi, saidumlo saubrebSi da sxva aTasgvar wvrilmanSi. mcioda, tanSi maJrJolebda, Tavi simwrisgan mewvoda da es grZnoba mTeli sxeulis gaswvriv, Tmis Zirebidan fexis wverebamde Tan mimyveboda, xmas ver viRebdi. ar maxsovs, vtirodi Tu ara. muxlebi mekeceboda, viyine- proza 97 bodi, Signidan vcivdebodi... magram guli Tavisas ar iSlida da es aiZulebda Cems Sinagan mes, TviTgadarCenis instiqts dahyoloda. magram am instiqts ra mniSvneloba hqonda? aivanze var. im xedisTvis, romelsac axla Sevyureb, aqamde ase arasdros Semixedavs... pirvelad vafaseb mas. xo, es albaT normaluria, roca raRacis dakargvis winaTgrZnoba gaqvs, maSin acnobiereb, yvelaze Cveulebrivi ram, ramdenad kargi yofila SenTvis. ramdenad saintereso yofila cxovreba, afaseb adamianebs Sen irgvliv da grZnob, adamianis ocnebebs limits veravin dauwesebs. da me ukve aRar vnerviulob, ar vnerviulob, rom iq telefoni ar iWerda, manqana rom gagvifuWda da saxlSi droulad ver davbrundi... 98 debiuti ani aminaSvili saqarTvelos SoTa rusTavelis saxelobis Teatrisa da kinos saxelmwifo universiteti Svidi dRe dRe pirveli yvelaferi gauferulda. TiTqos is, rac aqamde mniSvnelovani iyo, gaqra. albaT, ramdenime amosunTqva damrCa da mec im bavSvebis ricxvs SevuerTebi, romlebmac usamarTlod datoves wuTisofeli. magram namdvilad usamarTloa? SeiZleba Cven ase gvgonia, sinamdvileSi ki es yvelaferi davimsaxureT. is tkivili davimsaxureT, romelsac vigrZnobT... es aravin icis... kiTxvebi ar masvenebs. yvelaferi erTad ireva TavSi da SeiZleba imaze adre iyos Cemi bolo amosunTqva, vidre velodebi. albaT, Cems sxeulTan erTad es sityvebic ugzo-ukvlod daikargeba. ramdenime wlis Semdeg ki amis wakiTxva aRaravis moundeba. Semodeben romelime Taroze Cemi cxovrebis bolo dReebs da mtvers daayrian. mxolod remontis dros gadmoiReben da danaxvisTanave sikvdili gaaxsendebaT. albaT, dawvaven an gadaagdeben, radgan proza 99 aravis unda saxlSi tragizmiT savse Canaxatebi da mec swored ise davikargebi, rogorc yvela adamiani sikvdilis Semdeg.... dRe meore vcdilob, arc ki daviZino, radgan minda sicocxlis arsi mTlianad SevigrZno, wamlebi ki amis saSualebas ar maZlevs. viTxov medikamentebis Sewyvetas, magram Cemi mSoblebi uars amboben. or kviraSi srulwlovani vxdebi... vici, ver mivaRwev iqamde, me xom sul erTi kvira momces eqimebma. deda ambobs, es aravin ar iciso, mxolod RmerTis nebaao, magram... nuTu RmerTs SeuZlia SeewinaaRmdegos Cems daavadebas? Tu SeuZlia ratom ar maZlevs sicocxlis saSualebas, romelic me ase Zalian mwyuria? me jer kidev Cvidmeti wlis var da miyvars sicocxle. rogor SeiZleba adamians waarTva is, rac uyvars? SeiZleba srul absurds vambob, magram... sicocxle mwyuria! minda, ferad samyaroSi vicxovro da Sevqmna axali ferebi. minda gasaocari Tavgadasavlebi gadamxdes da vxato... minda, uamravi ferisgan Seqmnili suraTebi, romlebic Cem magivrad isaubrebs. adamianebs gaagebineben imas, risi gamoxatvac sityvebiT ar SemiZlia. minda, rac SeiZleba bevr adgils vestumro da iq gancdili emociebi tiloze gadavitano... minda, muzebisgan Sewuxebuls Rame meRviZebodes, perangis amara, saRebavebiT moTxupnuli molbertis win vijde da Cemi emociebis gamoxatvas funjiT vcdilobde. minda... ubralod sicocxle minda... 100 debiuti dRe mesame sasamarTlo procesze viyavi. Savi Sarvali da pijaki mecva, Signidan ki _ TeTri perangi. mcioda, magram temperaturis gamo ara, es nerviulobis brali iyo. vcdilobdi yvelanairad damefara Cemi gancdebi da mgoni gamomdioda. gamarjvebis survilze fiqri ki yvelafers maviwyebda. oTaxSi mosamarTle Semovida da yvela fexze wamovdeqiT. braldebuli oci wlis biWi iyo, romelsac bralad qurdoba edeboda. mis simarTleSi darwmunebuli rom ar vyofiliyavi, am saqmes ar aviRebdi. bevri mtkicebuleba hqondaT da cudi advokatis xelSi cixeSi Cajdoma ar ascdeboda. miuxedavad imisa, rom es Cemi pirveli saqme iyo, mainc did imedebs vamyarebdi da megona, rom yvelaferi Cvens sasargeblod dasruldeboda. braldebis mxare gansakuTrebuli aqtiurobiT gamoirCeoda. erTi periodi megona, rom davmarcxdebodi da Cemi kariera didi kraxiT dasruldeboda, magram Zalian male saqme Cvensken Semotrialda. raRacebi gamoeparaT, rac me SevamCnie da Sevecade Cven sasargeblod gamogveyenebina. jerjerobiT yvelaferi kargad midioda, magram bolomde mainc ar viyavi gamarjvebaSi darwmunebuli. uceb civma oflma damasxa da yvelaferma triali daiwyo. ver vakontrolebdi Cems Tavs da verc mocemul situacias. ramdenime wami vifiqre sxdoma dametovebina, magram yvelaferi mowesrigda da mec Cveul kalapotSi Cavdeqi. procesi dasasruls uaxlovdeboda. mosamarTle ganaCenis gamosatanad gavida, me ki eqTanma gamaRviZa.. proza 101 dRe meoTxe mTeli dRea vfiqrob guSindel sizmarze.. arasdros mdomebia advokatoba da uceb, axla, sikvdilis win, damesizmra sizmari, romelmac Cemi Sexedulebebi Secvala. yovelTvis megona, rom advokatebi ugulo adamianebs iyvnen da ar ainteresebdaT araferi fulis garda, magram, rogorc ki es roli me movirge mivxvdi, rom isini ubralod cdiloben udanaSaulo adamianTa daxmarebas, an.. an imas, rom daexmaron damnaSaveebs danaSaulis simZimis gagebaSi da maTi ukeTesobisaken Secvla scadon. mainteresebda, rogor dasrulda sasamarTlo procesi, magram verafriT viZinebdi. mgoni am dReebis ganmavlobaSi pirvelad moviTxove damamSvidebeli, raTa isev momergo advokatis roli. cotaxanSi, eqTani nemsiT xelSi mestumra. mivxvdi, rom Cemma eqimma damamSvideblis gakeTebis nebarTva misca da male isev sasamarTloze davbrundebodi. gavbruvdi da davbrundi procesze. mosamarTlis Semosvlisas isev yvela fexze wamovdeqiT. man gadmogvxeda da ramdenime wuTi dumili arCia, Semdeg ki daiwyo: `ganvixileT, rogorc braldebis, aseve braldebulis mxare, avwon-davwoneT yvelaferi da miviReT gadawyvetileba, rom...~ Rrmad CameZina. dRe mexuTe Rame Zalian rTuli iyo. ramdenjerme iyo saSiSroeba, rom guli gamCereboda da yvelaferi damTavrebuliyo, magram eqimebi gverdidan ar mSordebodnen. lilesa da Tomas saxeebi, wasvlis saSualebas ar maZlevdnen. 102 debiuti maTi cremlebiT savse Tvalebi Zalas mmatebda da ufro metad vcdilobdi gadarCenas. davdeqi Tu ara faqtis winaSe Zalian SemeSinda sikvdilis. sanam am diagnozs Sevityobdi, erTxel Cemma megobarma miTxra, rom Zalian ainteresebda, ra xdeboda sikvdilis Semdeg. maxsovs, maSin mec damainteresa, magram guSin Rame es interesi davkarge. sikvdilis Semdeg, rom araferi iyos? guli rodesac gamiCerdeba, maSin rom morCes yvelaferi? mxolod es azrebi mitrialebda TavSi, rodesac Cemi eqimi defibrilatoriT xelSi Tavze medga da yovel wams Cemi gulis gaCerebas eloda. gadavrCi, mTavari es iyo, magram axla samivem vicodiT, rom aranairi imedi aRar iyo. adre Tu gvian maT davtovebdi da Cem gareSe cxovreba unda eswavlaT. Toma Zalian mecodeboda. mTeli dRis ganmavlobaSi muSaobda da cdilobda gamoemuSavebina fuli, romelic me gadarCenaSi damexmareboda. saRamos ki, saavadmyofoSi modioda da mTeli Rame liles gverdiT iyo. mamas adgilas, albaT Zalian bevri adamiani far-xmals dayrida, wavidoda da sasmelSi Caklavda dards, Toma ki ase arasdros moqceula. piriqiT, mTeli ZalebiT cdilobda ebrZola Cemi sicocxlisTvis. axlac cdilobs, magram dedasgan gansxvavebiT, is xvdeba, rom yvelaferi Zalian male dasruldeba. dRe meeqvse Ramis sami saaTia... ukve Semdegi dRe daiwyo. me ki isev ver viZineb, verc vfiqrob da verc vocnebob. am wuTas, mxolod wera SemiZlia. bolo dReebis ganmavlobaSi es iyo Cemi sayvareli saqme, mxolod kalmiT SemeZlo proza 103 gamomexata Cemi emociebi da vyofiliyavi bolomde Tavisufali, marTali da gulwrfeli. bednieri viqnebodi, rom vinmesTvis mniSvnelovani yofiliyo is, rasac vwer. vinmes gulze moxvedroda da SeegrZno, rasac me am xnis ganmavlobaSi SevigrZnobdi. Tu amis wakiTxvis Semdeg erT adamians mainc auCuydeba guli da Tvalebi cremlebiT aevseba, maSin Tavisuflad vityvi, rom Cemi sityvebi arsad dakargula. Tu iqneba adamiani, romelsac Cemi bolo dReebis gadakiTxva axlidan moundeba, maSin vityvi, rom yvelaferi gamomivida. bavSvebi, romlebsac sikvdilis eSiniaT, amis wakiTxvis Semdeg SiSs Tu daZleven, vityvi, rom yvelaferi gamomivida. dRe meSvide uceb mTel sxeulSi tkivili vigrZeni da Cems gulze mierTebuli aparati awripinda. eqTnebisa da eqimebis jgufi Semovarda palataSi. me ugonod viyavi, aparati ki isev wripinebda. aranairi aqtivoba ar SeiniSneboda, magram aravin ar nebdeboda. dedas gaeRviZa... rodesac dainaxa, eqimebi, romlebic Cemi gulis xelaxla amuSavebas cdilobnen, guli wauvida. zevidan davyureb Cems usulo sxeuls, vxedav, rogor mikeTeben wamlebs da cdiloben defibrilatoris gamoyenebiT gulis amuSavebas. es SeuZlebelia. me gardavicvale, tkivilisa da cremlis gareSe. erT wamSi dasrulda Cemi Cvidmetwliani cxovreba. deda kuTxeSi zis da tiris. Tomam ki jerac ar icis, rom misma erTaderTi qaliSvilma dedamiwa datova. vuyureb Cems sxeuls, romelic sawolze usulod asvenia da aranairi 104 debiuti grZnoba ar miCndeba. ar vici, es kargia Tu cudi? gulic ar mwydeba, piriqiT, axla axali cxovreba iwyeba da me mivdivar iq, sadac ukeTesia. im bavSvebTan, romlebic Cem msgavsad am daavadebam Seiwira. odesRac, deda da mamac gamofrindebian CemTan da mixvdebian, rom ar unda enerviulaT. me gardavicvale... Cemi suli ki isev palataSi trialebs da Cems sxeuls dahyurebs. me gardavicvale! is sasamarTlo procesi ki Cven sasargeblod dasrulda... 105 proza giorgi CaCxiani ivane javaxiSvilis saxelobis Tbilisis saxelmwifo universiteti Tevzaoba Cixuraze Znelia ipovo ojaxi, sadac TiTo wevri mainc araa umuSevari, gansakuTrebiT soflad. umuSevrobas ufuloba, xolo ufulobas ki nerviuloba mosdevs, rac TavisTavad jer gaRizianebadobaSi, Semdeg ki Cxubsa da ayalmayalSi gadadis xolme. adamiani zogjer ise SeeCveva am yvelafers, rom mas yoveldRiur rutinadac aqcevs. SeiZleba ucnauradac JRers, magram Cxubi da davidareba misi erTaderTi gasarTobi xdeba da rogorc xmauris Semdeg dasadgurebulma srulma siCumem icis yurebisa da Tavis atkiveba, aseve ucnauri da udiskomfortoa ayalmayalis Semdeg wynari da mSvidi saubari. amitomac rutinis Secvlas aRaravin cdilobs da es uazro wamokidebebi dausruleblad grZeldeba. adamianisTvis es iseT Cveulebriv movlenad gadaiqca, rom verc ki xvdeba, mSoblebis gauTavebeli Cxubi bavSve- 106 debiuti bze rogor moqmedebs, azianebs da samudamod cvlis maT fsiqikas. marTalia, col-qmari saZinebelSi Serigdeba da erTmaneTs bodiSsac mouxdian xolme, magram bavSvi am Serigebas xom ver xedavs, mas mxolod wina dRis Cxubi da momdevni dRis ayalmayali amaxsovrdeba. gamonaklisi arc WiaTuraSi mcxovrebi omar jemaloviCis ojaxi iyo. ramdenime Tvis win omarma samsaxuri dakarga da eqvsi wlis sandros mama mSoblebis pensiaze damokidebulad iqca, amitomac colTan Cxubi xSirad mosdioda. _ rogor ar grcxvenia, usaqmuri da arafrismaqnisi xar! _ dauyvirebda meuRle da gabrazebuli omari pasuxs ar gamorCeboda. _ xo, veZeb am samsaxurs! _ ityoda da kargadac SeikurTxeboda, rasac calke kamaTi da gawev-gamoweva mosdevda. ukve moxucebuli jemali da misi meuRle col-qmris kamaTSi ar ereodnen, kaci maSinaTve SeSis dasaCexad midioda, qali ki gareT gavardeboda xolme. TviTonac itanjebodnen TavianTi vaJis sacodaobiT, magram ra eqnaT, verc rZals gaamtyuvnebdnen, momdureba namdvilad ar surdaT, bolos da bolos, is xom maTi sayvareli SviliSvilis deda iyo. xuWuWa, TaflisferTvaleba sandro ukve skolaSi dadioda. mSoblebis Cxubs xSirad Seswrebia, ris gamoc gulCaTxrobili da Tavis TavSi Caketili bavSvi iyo. bednier Tanatolebs uyurebda, maT xom laRi bavSvoba hqondaT, araferi adardebdaT da ezoSi burTs aqeT-iqiT daagorebdnen. sandros maTgan kidev erTi ram ganasxvavebda, is kargad swavlobda, proza 107 ar surda mamasaviT umuSevari yofiliyo. bedniereba surda, bedniereba ki, misi azriT, swored samsaxurSi moipoveboda. erTxel skolaSi ilia WavWavaZis sityvebi moismina: `bedi imisia, vinc Zlieria. Zlieri ki mxolod mcodne kacia~, _ ase Tqva iliamo, uTxra maswavlebelma da mas Semdeg sandromac ormagad moindoma codnis gaRrmaveba da bejiTad swavlac daiwyo. erTxelac, skolidan mosuls saxlSi isev ayalmayali daxvda, kvlav afeqtur mdgomareobaSi myof mSoblebs Seeswro, romlebic arafers uTmobdnen erTmaneTs. _ gTxovT, ar iCxuboT! _ amoiluRluRa sandrom da kurcxalic gadmouvarda, magram mas vin usmenda, patara bavSvi iyo da cxovrebis araferi gaegeboda, ar icoda, rom Cxubi gamosavali iyo da CxubiT, raRac ki ara, yvelaferi Seicvleboda. sandrom cxovrebis es umTavresi `norma~ ar icoda, mSoblebma ki is ar icodnen, rom zogjer swored patara bavSvebi amboben imas, rasac Rrmad ganswavluli filosofosic ver moifiqrebs. _ sandro, Sedi Sens oTaxSi, ufrosebis saqmeSi nu erevi! _ uyvira dedam. an es yvirili raRa iyo, TavisTvis idga bavSvi an es oTaxSi gamoketva raRa ubedurebaa, TiTqos xis Zveli karebis miRma xma ar aRwevdes, ipovian ra adamianebi gamosavals. _ ara! _ amoiluRluRa bavSvma. _ ra?! _qali misken gaemarTa _ aba, axlave oTaxSi gaeTrie! _ mamidan Svilze gadainacvla dedam. sandrom tirili daiwyo. _ sandro, mismen?! 108 debiuti _ bavSvs Tavi daanebe! _ gamoesarCla sandros omari. _ ho da mere... _qali ar cxreboda. patara biWi ki Tavdaxrili kuTxeSi idga, mTeli sxeuliT caxcaxebda. icoda, rom vaJkacebi ar tirian, magram mainc etireboda. am dros oTaxSi babua Semovarda, yvirilis xma gaegona. sandrosTan miiWra da SviliSvils xeli mohkida. _ wamodi, babu... _ uTxra da karebisken daiZra. sandro yovelgvari winaaRmdegobis gareSe acremlebuli gahyva. _ sad migyavs? _ Seicxada rZalma. _ saTevzaod. _ mokled mouWra jemalma da oTaxidan SviliSvilTan erTad gavida, saCqarod ankess daavlo xeli, manqanasTan mivida da sandros karebi gamouRo. _ midi, aZveri, babu... uTxra da TviTonac Cajda. babua da SviliSvili mdinare Cixurasken gaemarTnen. sandro isev qviTinebda. guldamwvarma jemalma SviliSvils sevdiani mzeriT gadaxeda da Tavze xeli gadausva. _ kai, babu, nu tiri axla, Torem icode Tevzebs daafrTxob. _ biWs gaeRima. _ marTla? _ xo, aba, egeni yvelafers grZnoben. sandrom cremlebi SeimSrala, Tavi fanjaras miado da horizontze aRmarTul mTebs uazrod miapyro mzera. jemalma manqana xeobasTan axlos gaaCera da babia da SviliSvili mdinarisken mimaval biliks fexiT Cauyvnen. sanapiroze siCeme idga, aq aravin Cxubobda... meTevzeebma ori didi lodi ipoves da zed Camosxdnen. jemalma proza 109 ankesi gadaagdo, Semdeg ki SviliSvils gadaxeda, sandro Zalian sevdiani Canda. _ babu, ginda scado? _ sandrom Tavi dauqnia da jemalmac ankesi miawoda. _ Tu moqaCvas igrZnob, damiZaxe. _ kargi. _ babua interesiT akvirdeboda SviliSvils, sandro dumda. _ ici, babu, Zvelebs uTqvamT cudi ambavi wyals unda mouyveo da axla Cven win uzarmazari dinebaa. _ ra movuyve? _ rac ginda babu, mTavaria, guliT uTxra. _ minda, Cemma mSoblebma aRar iCxubon. _ eh... eg mec minda babu, magram xan ase xdeba, xan ise. Znelia cxovreba, gangebas CvenTvis rTuli cxovreba Seuqmnia. me moxuci var, Cemi dro wavida ukve, Sen ki axalgazrda xar, cxovreba win gaqvs, Sen bednieri iqnebi, babu, iswavli, kaci dadgebi da mere bednierebac mova, aba sad wava. _ marTla? _ marTla, gana rodesme momityuebixar, babu? mTavaria, Sen gjerodes da yvelaferi kargad iqneba... _ sandrom Tavi dauqnia. _ dRes maswavlebelma mkiTxa amxanagebTan ratom ar laparakobo... _ moulodnelad Tqva biWma. babua SviliSvils miacqerda, Semdeg Cafiqrda da uTxra: sityvaZviri unda iyo, babu, magram rasac ityvi sibrZne unda iyos, bevrs sulelebi laparakoben da wesierad isic ar ician, ras amboben. bevri laparakis dros, raRac sisuleles ityvi da mere mTeli cxovre- 110 debiuti ba gagaxseneben, xolo rodesac sityvaZviri xar, yvela interesiT elodeba Sens sityvas, ufro Wkviani Canxar babu, sityvaZviroba sulac araa cudi. _ mec ase vfiqrob. _ Tavi dauqnia sandrom. _ Sen is miTxari, Seyvarebuli Tu gyavs, babu? _ erTi gogo momwons _ saxe gaunaTda sandros _ oxo, mere auxseni siyvaruli? _ sandrom Tavi gaaqnia _ _ ratom, xom ar geSinia babu? _ hooo... _ daimorcxva biWma _ ese igi, marTla giyvars… _ ex, babuam CaiRima _ maxsovs, Cems siymawvileSi xan erT gogos vetyodi miyvarxar-meTqi, xan meores, ar miyvarda da Tqven rogorc ityviT xolme, fexebze mekida, uars metyodnen Tu ara..., sandros gaecina,- Tu damTanxmdeboda xo kai, parkSi gavaseirnebdi da nayinsac vuyiddi da Tu uars metyoda, sxva gogos movZebnidi, ufro Sesaxedavs, mowesrigebuli da davarcxnili TmebiT da imas vetyodi miyvarxars, magram rodesac marTla Semiyvarda... mere ukve Tqmisa SemeSinda, babu, vfiqrobdi, uari rom miTxras, mere raRa vqna-Tqo, ar iyo sulerTi da magitom, marTla miyvarda. ese igi, Senc giyvars is gogo, lamazia? _ ki, yvelaze lamazia _ biWma gaiRima _ mari hqvia. _ kargi saxelia, babu. _ im gogos ra mouvida, babu, auxseni siyvaruli? _ CaekiTxa sandro. _ara, babu, ver gavbede, vucade, vucade, magram mere iseve uceb gamifrinda, rogorc Tavidan Cems cxovrebaSi mofrinda. qalaqSi gadavida sacxovreblad… proza 111 _ cudia... _ Cailaparaka sandrom. _ cudi araa, babu. bebiaSeni rom ver gamecno, ai, eg iqneboda cudi. _ anu vuTxra miyvarxar-meTqi? _ rogorc guli gikarnaxebs, babu… _ cotas movicdi. _ moicade, babu, ise qeni, rogorc Sen ginda. Seni cxovrebaa, iseTi iqneba, rogorsac Sen moisurveb, mTavaria moindomo. _ cxovreba momwons, marTla momwons, sainteresoa. _ namdvilad babu, yvelaferi sainteresoa, rac am cxovrebaSi xdeba, maSasadame TviTon es cxovrebaa saintereso. _ ubralod ar momwons deda da mama rom Cxuboben. _ adamianebi Cxuboben, mere rigdebian, mere isev Cxuboben da ase. didi xania borbali ase trialebs da Cven mas ver SevcvliT, babu, rasac ver SevcvliT unda SeveguoT. _ ar minda Segueba. _ Sens cols ar eCxubebi babu, magram sxvis cxovrebaSi Znelia ramis Secvla, es maTi cxovrebaa da maT ase moswonT. iZulebuli xar, maT cxovrebas Seeguo, Sensas ki SegiZlia _ ara. _ Sen da bebo CxubobdiT? _ mcireodeni pauzis Semdeg hkiTxa sandrom. _ ki, Tumca cotas, vuTmobdi da imitom… _ jemali Cafiqrda... _ Tavs davuqnevdi kargi-meTqi da Cems saqmes mivubrundebodi. qals yovelTvis surs bolo sityvis Tqma, Tu es ar gamouva imdens izams, rom aqeT 112 debiuti gaxvewninebs, gagebuteba da egaa, gamoWerili hyavxar, mere cxovreba Znelia. _ me Cems cols ar gavabrazeb. _ arc unda gaabrazo, babu, arc Sen da arc man, arc erTma ar unda gaabrazoT erTmaneTi. _ aq momwons! _ cota xnis Semdeg Tqva sandrom. _ xo, aq kargia, simSvidea, siwynare, wyali, xeebi, Citebi da Cven, babu. _ aq xSirad unda wamovideT _ daaaskvna sandrom _ wamovalT babu, Cixuraze saTevzaod wamovalT... amasobaSi karga xani gasuliyo, sandro ankess miacqerda… _ aq Tevzebi arian, babu? _ jemalma gaicina. _ Tevzebi mdinareSi midian da modian, mTavaria, cxovrebis mTavari Tevzi daiWiro, radgan Zneli dasaWeria. _ Sen ukve daiWire, babu? _ vmuSaob amaze... _orives gaecina _ daviWer, male daviWer da xels aRar gavuSveb. rac Zvirfasia, unda SeinarCuno, xeliT Zlier CaebRauWo da SenTan unda daitovo.... jemalma kidev erTxel Caxeda SviliSvils umanko TvalebSi, Tavi dauqnia da ankess xelebi ufro Zlier CaWida. proza 113 guro daviTliZe ilias saxelmwifo universiteti Teklai saerTod Cven droso, axalgazrdebio, moxucebs davinaxavdiT Tu ara, sazogadoebriv transportSi wamovxtebodiT da adgils vuTmobdiTo. imitom, rom kargad aRzrdilebi viyaviT da ufrosis pativiscema ojaxidan mogvdevdao! _ ekaCaveba erTi bebo viRac tips avtobusSi da amanac, _ Tqveno, qalbatonoo, Cems ubanSi ro marketia, ai, im marketSi rom gemuSavaT ocdaoTxi saaTi, adgilis daTmoba ki ara, SeiZleba kukiis aRmarTs sakuTari fexiT gahyolodiTo... da meTqi moicaT, Tu Cemi Zmebi da debi xarT… da avtobusidan universitetTan Camovedi kidec. amindia iseTi ra, Tekla ro unda vnaxo, Tan, gana ubralod unda vnaxo, unda mivide, iasamnebi mivutano da vuTxra, ro ki ar miyvars, meketeba da me ro meketeba, mand merxeva da ro merxeva, cudad vxdebi. mTeli ambavia mokled. mTlad levan abaSiZe vera var, magram 114 debiuti cotne var koniakeli da koniakis damzadebis teqnologiac zepirad vici. babuaCemi, romelic cnobili meRvine iyo, miyveboda xolme, rom Turme safrangeTSi, arsebobs koniakis regioni, sadac specialuri jiSis yurZens krefen da mere koniaks CiTaven. ubralod, am koniakis regions erTi metriTac Tu gadacdi da iq gazrdili yurZeni dakrife, is ukve aRar ivargebs koniakisTvis. da Tu mainc koniakad gaasaReb, maSin naCiCqni kbiliviT dagerxeva. aseTi kaci iyo babuaCemi, friad ganaTlebuli, stumarTmoyvare da sapativsacemi. man sicocxleSi sagarejos raionis yvela soflis arsebul saxlsa da ezoSi iqeifa. roca mokvda, mTeli sagarejos mosaxleoba Cveni saxlis win tiroda. ixsenebdnen ambebs… mokled, Wirisuflobis dros rogorc xdeba xolme. wvima rom daiwyo, zustad mag dros mivedi ZiakacTan. maita iasamnebi, Tan veubnebi: _ au, ra magrad gavxarT babuaCems-meTqi! Svilo, Sen gaixareo, miTxra. me dauyovnebliv davumate; ai, axla es yvavilebi erT gogosTan mimaqvs-meTqi. Sen genacvaleo, miTxra babuaCemis msgavsma moxucma. Tu gavixare, Tqvens sadRegrZelos qorwilSi davlev-meTqi, vuTxari da wamovedi. mivdivar am iasamnebiT da vgrZnob, magari suni asdis, TiTqos gazafxulis ra, Tan odnav wvims, TeklasTan mivdivar. vgrZnob, ukve magrad var, pirveladaa ase ra, aqamde arasdros. ilia iyo kaci Tu iyo, ise eketeboda aqaurobaze, rogorc me Teklaze da xalxma ise ver daafasa, rogorc me _ Cemi fexburTis mwvrTnelma, roca vyomarobdi da zustad magis bralia axla, rac spirts Seicavs yve- proza 115 lafers rom vsvam. xoda, mivedi am magari kacis saxelobis universitetTan da SesasvlelTan bevri xalxi davinaxe. es kikinebianebi marto me miyurebdnen, TiTqos `pieta~ viyavi, oRond patenti. Camovdeqi mec cota moSorebiT da Teklas velodebi. ar icis, ro movedi, TeTri perangi sul damisvelda, Tma gameburZgna. wvims ra, magrad... erTi saaTi velode, velode, mTeli dRis samyofi sigareti erT saaTSi movwie da mere svel kibeebze, welze CamoSlili wiTeli TmiT, gogo Camovida. Savi baTinkebi ecva, Ria feris kaba...xo, Tekla Camovida da sul damaviwyda, rom Cemi bavSvobis siyvaruli jer romi iyo Snaideri, mere lika qavJaraZe da bolos didZuZuebiani beluCi. mag dros pirvelad vigrZeni, rom viRac iuventusze, koniakze da Cems Tavze metad miyvarda. ramdenimewamiani pauza daviWire, gegoneba bajo viyavi da TerTmetmetrians vurtyamdi, mere nel-nela daviZari Teklasken da Cemi daZvridan ramdenime wamSi davinaxe misi holivuduri kocna da Caxuteba im kikinebian tipTan, mTeli erTi saaTi TvalSi rom meCxireboda. dapauzebul videos davemsgavse... mominda ukan nel-nela gadamexvia an saerTodac yvelaferi wameSala. temperamentiani tipebi ar mevasebian da arc me var maseTi, gamovfxizldi da wamovedi. wvimda, erT momentSi movabrune Tavi da davinaxe Tekla, is kikinebiani tipi da urnidan amoyofili iasamnis Tavebi, romlebsac civad awvimda. 116 debiuti mariam avazaSvili ivane javaxiSvilis saxelobis Tbilisis saxelmwifo universiteti Carpe Diem! is uranisa da saturnis TanammarTvelobis dros daibada, Tumca, miuxedavad mocartis, Carlz dikensisa da anton Cexovis arsebobisa, mudmivad swamda, rom rigiT meTerTmete astrologiuri niSnis qveS dabadebuls, arasdros SeeZlo gamxdariyo didi adamiani. mis am qveynad mosvlas saerTodac araferi ar mohyolia, garda mSoblebis usazRvro fizikuri Tu sulieri tkivilisa. Tovliani dRe iyoo, amboben. didi simZlavriT Camoqrolda Tovlis fifqebi am samyaroSi, aravin rom ar eloda ise. TeTrad mopentil Tovlis did gorakebs arara mohqonda, garda siCumisa. swored am siCumeSi daibada da ise Zlierad araferi gahyolia mis cxovrebas, rogorc dumili. wlebis matebasTan erTad xvdeboda, rom iyo pirveli Svili, pirveli SviliSvili, pirveli da, Semdeg pirveli saukeTeso mego- proza 117 bari, namdvili pirveli siyvaruli. magram imasac mixvda, rom maTTvis mas ubralod pirveli erqva, masSi ki maT arsebobas pirveli da ukanaskneli. erT dRes daaskvna, rom mTebis, wvimis, siCumis ufro esmoda, vidre xmauriani adamianebis. gaifarTova Sarvali, romelic aqamde suls uxuTavda, mkerdTanac sagrZnobliv Caixsna naWeri, TmaRawvebamde Seimokla da im dRidan moyolebuli erTi wamiTac ki ar ufiqria yofiliyo is, vinc aqamde undoda yvelas. saerTodac aRar iyo saWiro, gamxdariyo didi adamiani, morgeboda realobas, aw ukve SiSvels Caecva an Cacmuli umalve gaSiSvlebuliyo. ar sWirdeboda daemala, gaparuliyo, ar earseba, an earseba da sadReiso saxvaleod gadaeqcia. gardasaxvidan or-sam dReSi CurCuli scada, Semdeg eg sityvebze gadavida, gadaaba da xmamaRla daiwyo yvirili. dascines, daZraxes, qvebi esroles. adre rom dumda, umaqnisiao, ase ambobdnen. xma amoiRo da wamoayvedres, bevrs tlikinebo. mokled, samyaros veraferi rom ver gaugo, adga da kvlav nacrisfer dumilad iqca. giSrisfrad gadaxuruli kidobani qudad aqcia. pandoras yuTiviT Cairaza da Caiqufra. jer vernaTqvami brazic Sig Caitia, siSlege, samudamod dadumda da daiwyo wera. aq mas SeeZlo aerCia iseTi sityva, romelic mis danaxvaze TrToda, ileoda. am dros ratomRac RmerTad grZnobda Tavs, sityvebis RmerTad. werda yovel wams. xan wiTeli kubokruli qvedabolo amSvenebda, xanac _ samgloviaro, Savi feris maqmanis CaCi. xels mokidebda xolme dawinwklul qolgas, mokirwluli quCebis aRmarTs daRmarTiT anacvlebda da xelCasaWidi ambebis 118 debiuti gagebis molodinSi iyurseboda.zogjer fiqrobda, rom es cxovreba araferia, garda maradiuli mtkicebisa. da iwyeboda Tavis marTleba, mtkiceba. amazec uTxres, ar gvWirdebao Seni ambavi, Cven isedac cxadad vxedavTo. magram, saerTod ver xedavdnen, Tu rogor Wamda mas nelnela dardi. im dRes, rodesac mTvaris dabnelebam da savsemTvareobam erTad Zalian mZime energoveli Seqmna, igi fanjris rafasTan mdgar, xisgan dawnul sarwevela savarZelSi ijda, naxevrad SiSveli, xelSi axlad anTebuli wiTeli `Marlboro”-s Reri eWira da sigaretis fasis sagrZnoblad gazrdaze werda. gverdiT oTaxSi ki misi saguldagulod gadamaluli, milionjer gadakecili da gadasxvaferebuli naweri xelidan xelSi gadadioda. erT-erTma naweri kviris gazeTiviT farTod gaSala, beWebi gaWima, Tavi qedmaRlurad aswia da yvelas gasagonad kiTxva daiwyo: `Semodgomas SemoCveoda sigiJis feri. sadRac, kuTxeSi miCqmaluliyo siTbo da ebrZoda. ebrZoda mis civ nakadebs. susxian qarebs, trial mindvrebze mofusfuse zamTris Sav yornebs da ra xdeboda? vinme metyviT? vinme amixsniT? guls wamis Tavzed bagabugi rom gasdioda. me maSin Sevdeq. gonebaSi ki wamoiSalnen mogonebebi, zogi axali, zogic bavSvobis Rrma sazomidan, me ki meZnela, gamiWirda drois aRqma, bnela... bnela... TeTri mosasxamiT dadis sikvdili, rom gavarCio, rom ar mivyve, rom gavisuso. sadRac aqaa, sicocxlisa Cemi mizani, aqaa da yurZens wuravs, Rvinos amzadebs, esaa Troba arsobisa? hoi, ufalo. proza 119 bnela... siyviTle SeCveoda kvlav Semodgomas, akordebiviT mwyobrSi dganan Cemi sizmrebi, me sxeulidan amogiRe sisxlsavse gulo. gTxov, damibrundi, arc ki ici, rogor mWirdebi~. Semdeg ra aRar iyo... `vai, mis dedas~. `Sen mogikvdi Svilo~ `eSmaki, eSmakia masSi~, mokled, ra iyo da ra ara. keTilmosurneebma moikribes mTeli darCenili Zalisxmeva da erTi kargi sanatoriumi mouZebnes (sxvanairad sagiJeTi). marto darCenilma misma sityvebma epidemiasaviT iwyes qalaqSi gavrceleba. amis sanacvlod ki izrdeboda raodenoba da siZliere misaRebi medikamentebisa. igi xvdeboda, gagrZeleba rom ar SeeZlo. sanatoriumis WuWyiani minebis miRma xedavda yelTan daberil Tavis ZarRvebs, odnav Casisxlianebul Tvalebs da yvelaze ufro cxadad, tkvilisagan da usamarTlobisagan gasiebul guls. erT dResac, axalgaRviZebulma, matylis sqeli sabani fexebSua rom amoigo da oTaxSi mwoliare adamianebs gadaxeda, mixvda, rom erTaderTi, rac maTgan ganasxvavebda, fanelis TeTreuli iyo. es yvelaferi ver aitana. Zveli yornisferi tyavis CanTa carieli SuSis boTlebiTa da dabinZurebuli nemsebiT gamotena da wavida. vardisfer RrubelTa wiaRSi gardasulma sulebma ukve ician Cveni bediswera. da ara marto ician, Tavisi sanukvari TiTebiT tvifraven dagragnil etratebze Cvens bedisweras. vin icis, Tu ra gvelodeba. vin icis, Tu ras gvimzadeben maTi cis kides mibjenili TiTebi. vin icis?! Cven Tvals avawvdenT xolme Camavali mzis movard- 120 debiuti isfro sxivebs da xmaCaxlewili vkiTxulobT imaT epitafiebs, vinc didi xnis win, planetebis uerTierTgadakveTis dros daibada da gadaSenda. `damitove Seni istoria dRevandelobis morevSi CaZirulo adamiano. damiwere Seni cxovreba, gaTavisufldi da ise mokvdi~. jorj baironis, Subertisa da stendalis arsebobis miuxedavad, rigiT meTerTmete astrologiuri niSnis qveS dabadebuls, marTlac ar hqonia didebulad daRupvis niWi. proza 121 merab TavaZe saqarTvelos teqnikuri universiteti pablo me pablo var, SuadRidan saRamosken gardamavali kanis feriT. skolaSi pirvel dRes misulma, zurgs ukan Tanatolebis xiTxiTi rom gavigone, Cems TvalebSi wylis ferebma gaiRviZa. dedam, Tavi amayad geWiroso, magram gulSi nacrisferi siamaye ver vipove. dro iseTi niWieri mxatvari aRmoCnda, maT TvalebSi male gamafermkrTala, Tumca ufrosTa enebs veraferi mouxerxa. mama meubneba, Cveni ojaxi Waobisfer RvarZlze motivtive dumfaras hgavs, Worikana koRoebis bzuili ki cxovrebis akompanimentia da yuradReba ar unda mivaqcioTo. dRes xatvis gakveTilze mSoblebi dRe da Ramis ferebiT davxate, siyvaruli _ wiTlad aRvivebuli, alersi _ niaviviT ufero, magram mudam mgrZnobiare. siT- 122 debiuti bo, ra Tqma unda, mzisgan nasesxebi ferebiT Sevmose. mzrunveloba _ cisartyelas ferebiT da iciT, aTiani miviRe. sanatoriumi Cven wamlebis suniT gaJRenTil TeTr oTaxebSi vcxovrobT, sadac naTurebis baci ferebiT sicocxle gviuferuldeba. zRvis donidan Zalian maRla, fiWvnarSi Cakargulebi vibrZviT gadarCenisTvis. karli imedma moiyvana aq da Tvalcremliani datova, rogorc baRSi miyvanis pirvel dRes deda tovebs xolme Svils. mere movida gazafxuli...xvela. sicxe. sisxli. eqimis TvalebSi wakiTxuli sikvdilis depeSa. ar gvitiria... aq mxolod sixarulisgan tirian, roca saswauli jiniviT kafsulaSi gamoamwyvdevs xolme sikvdils. marias ergo aseTi kafsula da mxolod ganSorebis sinanulma danama Cveni brolis Tvalebi an ufro Surma da mis adgilas yofnis survilmac. aq gulaxdiloba turistad aqcies, romelic pirferobis mwvervalebis sanaxavad modis xolme. me antoni var da daxvretil filtvebSi sicocxlis Sekaveba miWirs. ojaxi mamaCemi mxatvari iyo, dedaCemi _ misi ferTa palitra, me ki _ STagonebis wyaro. erTad vqmnidiT nax- proza 123 atebad dReebs, sadac ca dedaCemis Tvalebisferi iyo, mze da sxivebi, misi Rimilis da Tmebisferi, Cveni ezos vardebi _ misi saxis kanisferi. roca wamovizarde, naxatebma ferebi icvales. mzisa da sxivebis gareSe gafermkrTalda zeca, radgan dedas Rimili da Tmebi avadmyofobam moipara, xolo sulis sarkeebSi sikvdilis anarekli Cadga. mere aRar iyo deda. mama iyo _ mxolod naxevari. dReebi iyo erTferovani, rogorc cariel tiloze TeTri feri. mere wavida mxatvaric da davrCi marto me, molbertiT xelSi. sakuTar ferTa palitris mZebneli axali STagonebis wyarosTvis. momavali mama, romelic aseve gamofens naxatebad dReebs nacnob sagamofeno sivrceSi, romelsac cxovreba hqvia. gamocda _ ukacravad, registracia TqvenTan unda gaviaro? _ diax, CemTan. gamocdaze gadixarT xom? _ diax, magram ar vici sad. _ axlave SegirCevT sagamocdo adgilsa da sxeuls. Tqven manamde dabrZandiT. _ dro ramdeni meqneba? _ mTeli cxovreba. _ ase cota?! _ meramdened gadixarT gamocdaze? _ ar maxsovs. _ axlave gagaxsenebT. gamocdaze dro erTi wuTia, magram savsebiT sakmarisi. Tu maRal qulas aiRebT, 124 debiuti moxvdebiT iq, sadac moxvedraze yvela ocnebobs. Tu bariers gadalaxavT, magram qulebi ar geyoT maRali konkurenciis gamo, xelmeored moxvalT gamocdaze, xolo zRvars Tu ver gadalaxavT, albaT xvdebiT, sadac moxvdebiT. _ gasagebia. _ dasawyisisTvis ki Rrmad SeisunTqavT haers da atirdebiT. TeTrebSi Cacmulebi dagexmarebian amaSi. _ pasuxs rodis gavigeb? _ sikvdilis mere, warmatebas gisurvebT, cxoneba male momelocos. diagnozi me pirvelad maSin avtirdi, rodesac TeTrebSi Cacmulma kacma dedas momwyvita. maSin vigrZeni da gavige, Tu ra aris tkivili. mas mere aRar mitiria, sanam ar gavizarde. roca ezoSi vTamaSobdi da muxlebze vecemodi, amayad, ucremlod vdgebodi da ufro swrafad gavrbodi, haers rom waerTmia es mware SegrZneba. mere ki bebia aloes foTlebs madebda gadatyavebul muxlebze da isev sarbenad miSvebda. Tan mafrTxilebda: `Tu isev daecemi, swrafad adeqi, rom aravin daginaxos. Sen sul gamarTuls unda gxedavdnen~. roca gavizarde, ufro xSirad vecemodi da muxlebze dacemuls, adgoma miWirda. raRac Zalian mZime mawveboda mxrebze, aRar bebia myavda da aRarc aloes foTlebi mqonda, radgan aloe dros gahyoloda siyviT- 125 proza ana botkoveli, `gardatexa~, muyao, zeTi. Tbilisis saxelmwifo samxatvro akademia 126 debiuti lis mxareSi. mere me didxans davdiodi awmyosTan cxovrebis analizebze da bolos, diagnozi momaCeCes xelSi: astigmatizmi, TvalebSi gaoreba anda yvelafris ukuRma danaxva. sikeTes akeTeb _ isjebi, gtkiva, borotebas sCadi da gajildoveben. proza 127 naTia SaorSaZe saqarTvelos SoTa rusTavelis saxelobis Teatrisa da kinos saxelmwifo universiteti magida naxevrad gamWvirvale miraJi sicxisgan datalRul haerSi ilandeba. patara xis saxli magidiT, TaroebiT da Tixis doqebiT, warsulidan SemorCenili mogonebaa. realurad, xis kedlebisgan mxolod TeTri fxvnili darCa, ukedlebod darCenil oTaxSi ki _ najaxisgan daCexili xis magida. Tixis doqebSi damxrCvali, wyliT gaberili WianWvelebi tivtiveben da gankiTxvis dRes elodebian. daCexilma xis magidam gammgiravad daiWriala da Zirs daeca. misi cxovreba kadrebad daiSala da bolo wuTebis aTvla daiwyo. sasowarkveTil metyeves axsendeba pirveli dartyma, meore, mesame. misgan daCexili didi xis morebi, romelTagan zogi daiwva, zogi gauCinarda, zogic na- 128 debiuti jaxis tarad iqca, misi sxeuli ki, raRac maxinj, wvril fexebze Semdgar oTxkuTxed figuras daemsgavsa. mas Semdeg dahyva ucxos SiSi. me ucxo, me ucxo, me ucxo...es misi pirveli azria. sanam Tavis oTxkuTxa sxeuls swavlobda, sxvisas akvirdeboda. didi oTxi Tvali, romlebic fexebze hqonda gamobmuli, samyaros SecnobaSi exmareboda. erT dilas ucnobi suni igrZno da SeSfoTebulma gaiRviZa. _ vin aris? saidan? gulmxurvaled CaeRima da bednierebisgan atirda. iasamnebis da vardebis surnelma gaabrua, is xom ver xedavda mis Tavze Semomdgar patara larnaks, saidanac es surneleba awvimda. mas Semdeg mousvenrobam Seipyro da butbuti daiwyo. `WeSmariteba~_ es iyo sityva, romelmac yvelaze metad aRafrTovana. _ ra aris WeSmariteba? es kiTxva dasva Tu ara, moiqanca, radgan mixvda, irgvliv yvelafers unda dakvirveboda. misi sxeuli borotebis danaxvam daafiqra, mis irgvliv orfexiani arsebebi mimodiodnen. susti mis fexebTan vardeboda da mzes aRar uyurebda. mas Semdeg irwmuna momakvdavis WeSmaritebiT, rom Zalmomreoba yvelafris qvakuTxedia. amis dasamtkiceblad ificeboda, ilanZReboda, igineboda, magram yvelaze xSirad loculobda, loculobda, raTa ZaladobisTvis Zala hqonoda. aseT dros mudmivad misi sxeulisgan gamoTlil najaxis tars da mis Zlier pirs akvirdeboda. proza 129 erT Rames misi miZinebuli sxeuli mZimed Sezanzarda da Tvalebis gaxelisas mis fexebze miyudebuli momRimari saxe dainaxa. maSin pirvelad gaifiqra, rom WeSmariteba araa Zaladoba. me xom viRimi, roca WeSmaritebis suns vgrZnob. amis gafiqrebisas daberebuli vardebis, iasamnebis Camomxmari furclebi daeca da ise SeigrZno maTi sxeuli, verc ki mixvda. WeSmaritebis axal gzaze axal butbuts rom mihyva da axali gzebis Zebna rom daiwyo. maSin, roca mxrebze dawolili didi simZime igrZno, sacodavad moeRrica saxe. mis mxrebze qalis sxeuli idga, romelmac Tavi yulfSi gauyara da rodesac fexebis qnevas morCa bednierebisgan amoikvnesa. magidam kvnesis xma gaigona, magram ar SeimCnia. yvelaferi ki mZimed maSin SeigrZno, rodesac qalis sxeuli mis sxeulze dades. simZime amouxsnel codvad daawva da lamis daaCoqa. lpoba rom daiwyo da mis sxeuls Seezarda magida, Zveli WeSmaritebis gzas, misTvis auxsnelad, raRac Zalian bunebrivad daubrunda. `ZaladobiT iwyeba da mTavrdeba yvelaferi~, -gaifiqra da moZaladis portretze daiwyo fiqri. qali SuaRames, malulad magidis qveS damarxes. daesivnen miwis qveS patara, mSieri WianWvelebi da erT RameSi SeWames. diliT ki, ukve miwis zemoT eZebdnen saWmels. magidam mis fexebTan misuli yvela WianWvela gasrisa da cocxlebs misTvis locva daavala. loculobdnen patara WianWvelebi, sanam magidas CaeZina. misi mTvlemare Tvalebis danaxvisTanave najaxi Seides zurgze, ZlivZlivobiT aRoRdnen mis wvril fexebze da Tavisive sx- 130 debiuti eulisgan gamokveTili najaxi urtyes zurgSi. Semdeg yvelafers moednen, xis kedlebi kbilebiT daRrRnes da mtvrad aqcies, Tixis doqebSi Camdgar wyals ramdenime Seewira kidec. miraJi ise gaicrica, TiTqos gauCinarda, codvisgan gaberili cocxlad darCenili WianWvelebi ki miwaSi CaZvrnen da axali msxverplis Zebna daiwyes. proza 131 nato gabaraSvili ivane javaxiSvilis saxelobis Tbilisis saxelmwifo universiteti sizmari ` _ sul mainteresebda, rogor iwyebdnen adamianebi weras... ai, rogor iReben kalams xelSi, rogor midian, sxdebian da weren. isic sul mainteresebda, usaSvelo tkivils rogor uZlebdnen, xorcis ki ara, sulis gausaZlis tkivils!~ roca adamiani did fsiqologiur dartymas iRebs, mis gonebaSi warmoqmnas iwyebs axali samyaro, sadac yvelaferi isea, rogorc `manamde~ da xandaxan ise Zlieria am irealuri samyaros gavlena, rom garCeva giWirs, sad xar sinamdvileSi... xelovnuri mxatvruli efeqtisTvis ver vityvi, rom ramiT gansakuTrebuli saRamo iyo, arc yviTeli foTlebi gvefineboda Tavze, arc Camavali mze gvWrida Tvals da arc Citebis WikWiki iqcevda Cvens yuradRebas. piriqiT, zedmetad Cveulebrivad iyo yvelaferi. ezoSi, xis magidasTan visxediT me da deda. saxe dabereboda, 132 debiuti Sromisgan daRlili xelebi kalTaSi gadaejvaredinebina da odnav ukankalebda. etyoboda, rac Tma gauWaRaravda, erTxelac ar SeuRebavs. axlac gaTeTrebuli Rerebi ukan lamazad Seekra, mxolod grZel da xSir warbebs Semoenaxa erT dros Savi Tmis elvareba. dedas Wreli kaba ecva, feradi yvavilebiT moCiTuli. im yvavilebze Tvali gamiSterda da vfiqrobdi, marTla arsebobda sadme aseTi yvalilebi, Tu ara. vgrZnobdi, TvalebSi miyurebda da pasuxismgeblobis an cudad Sesrulebuli saqmis gamo, misi mzera mwvavda. Sevxede TvalebSi da gavifiqre, rogor male damiberda-meTqi. erTi eg aris, me Tavs patara bavSviviT vgrZnobdi, TiTqos sul ar mommateboda wlebi. gaucnobiereblad fexebze davixede da gavocdi, zustad iseTi vardisferi baTinkebi mecva, dedam rom miyida, roca TxuTmeti wlis gavxdi, oRond marjvena cals erT mxares lanCi gaxeoda. saocaria, verafriT gavixsene, rodis gavafuWe. gakvirvebulma Sevxede TvalebSi. gamiRima, mkrTalad, magram mravlismTqmelad... _xom giTxari, ezoSi magiT ar iTamaSo-meTqi! _ xmadabla miTxra, TiTqos mimixvda fiqrebs. araferi mipasuxia, vuyurebdi da TandaTan uCveulo simSvide meufleboda. _ deda, rodis gagiTeTrda ase Tma? _ vkiTxe cota xanSi. _ Sen rom kibidan dagordi da fexi moitexe maSin. _ marTla? _ aRar maxsovda. _ da amdeni naoWi erTbaSad? _ erTbaSad ara, Sens yvela tirilze TiTo memate- proza 133 boda. isev davxare Tavi da davfiqrdi. raRac kadrebi mereoda gonebaSi. deda gadmoiwia da Cemi xeli Tavis xelebSi moaqcia. civi wylisgan da dauRalavi Sromisgan daxeTqili xelebis Sexeba vigrZeni. _ rodemde unda itanjo Tavi, ratom ar utydebi, rom giyvars? gavocdi. TiTqos qurds moparvisas waaswreso, ise gavSeSdi uceb. saidan icis? rogor mixvda? _ usiyvarulo cxovreba ra cxovrebaa, erTi miTxari. magaze wminda raRa unda ganicado. adeqi da martivad uTaxri! _ ise agrZelebda, arc eloda Cems pasuxs. icis, Sematyo, mixvda. aRarc me daviwye Tavis marTleba da TavisTavad mivyevi saubars. _ meSinia, imedgacruebisa meSinia! _ vupasuxe. _ sul ase SegeSindeba, Tu erTxel ar ajobe Tavs. gaxsovs, bavSvobaSi xeze asvlis rogor geSinoda, sanam ar axvedi? wamierad Tvalwin damidga Cveni baRis SuagulSi mdgari didi TuTis xe. _ gaxsovs? _ mkiTxa da raRac brWyviala SeaTamaSa, verc davinaxe jibisken rodis gaapara xeli. gamovarTvi da davxede. Cemi samajuri iyo, wlebis win davkarge sadRac. rogor miyvarda, rogor momwonda xolme. _ saidan gaqvs? aRarc maxsovs, rodis davkarge. _ bevri rame dakarge da daiviwye ise, rom aRarc gaxsovs! _ ratom meubnebi magas? _ rodis moefere mamaSens bolos? _ mkacrad mkiTxa. 134 debiuti ise, rogorc bavSvobaSi gaimkacrebda xolme xmas, rames Tu davaSavebdi. davibeni. mindoda Tavis marTleba damewyo, magram vgrZnobdi, xmas amoviRebdi Tu ara, cremlebi wamomcvivdeboda. erTbaSad, raRac burTiviT gameCxira yelSi. _ axla Seinaxe eg samajuri da daimaxsovre, win roca midixar, xandaxan ukanac unda moixedo, daakvirde, rame Zvirfasi xom ar dagivarda, rame mniSvnelovani xom ar dakarge. uxmod gamovarTvi samajuri da muWSi magrad moviqcie. amasobaSi deda mZimed wamodga, akankalebuli xeliT magidis kuTxidan Wiqa aiRo da wyali svenebiT mosva. sanam cariel Wiqas Tavis adgilas daabrunebda, uneburad xelidan gauvarda. magididan Camogorebuli Wiqa TiTqmis uxmaurod patara qvas daeca miwaze da gaibzara. davixare, unda ameRo. _ ar aiRo!_gamaCera, _ mieCvie usargeblo nivTebis moSorebas, dRes gabzaruli, xval gatydeba da SeiZleba ufro gazaralos. skamze nela gavswordi. vcdilobdi, yvela sityva kargad gameazrebina. deda momiaxlovda, Tavze damado xeli. wamis siswrafiT gamaxsenda, ase Tavze xelis dadebiT amTavrebda xolme bavSvobaSi Cems darigebas da usiamovno sicive vigrZeni. ar mindoda dagvesrulebina saubari. isic mikvirda, ase sad eCqareboda da Tavauwevlad vusmendi. _ daimaxsovre, Svilo, kedlis miRma danaxva Tu ar SegiZlia, ar niSnavs imas, rom mis ukan samyaro ar aris. proza 135 _ ar waxvide, deda! kidev bevri damrCa saTqmeli... _ gabzaruli xmiT Sevexvewe. _ ar mivdivar... _ Cumad miTxra da makoca. cremli ar momdioda, magram TvalebSi mainc Camidga raRac burusi. arc deda dgamda nabijebs, magram vxvdebodi, mSordeboda. skamidan swrafad wamovdeqi, mindoda gavkidebodi, gameCerebina. RmerTo, ra mWirs? ver gavrbivar. nabijis gadadgma minda da ver viZvri, TiTqos mTeli qveynis simZime fexebze medos. arada midis, arada mSordeba nel-nela. uecrad kaSkaSa sinaTlem momWra Tvali da...gamomeRviZa. swrafad wamovjeqi sawolze. Cemi gulis cema saaTis wikwikSi ireoda. sadRac dilis eqvsi saaTi iqneboda, qalaqis xedebs susti sinaTle dahkravda. SeSinebuli ar vyofilvar, piriqiT, uCveulod mSvidad vgrZnobdi Tavs, ubralod SigniT, sadRac Rrmad, raRac sicariele iyo. didi xani gasuliyo, rac deda sizmarSi aRar menaxa. sul megona, mibrazdeboda da aRar surda Cemi naxva. ar yofila gabrazebuli Turme. pirvelad vnaxe aseTi gaTeTrebuli da moxucebuli. oci weli gavida mas mere, rac bolos realurad visaubreT. am oci wlis ganmavlobaSi aTasjer mainc warmomedgina, rogori iqneboda Cveni xelmeore Sexvedra, ras metyoda, rogori damxvdeboda. albaT ise iqneba, rogorc sizmarSi, me isev TxuTmeti wlisa viqnebi, rogoric damtova, Tavad _ ukve moxucebuli. Tumca ara, albaT ufro me viqnebi asakovani, dauZlurebuli, cxovrebagavlili, akankalebuli xelebiT da TeTri TmiT da deda isev axalgazrda, Wreli kabiT, iseTi, rogoric marTla maxsovda. 136 debiuti nikoloz ciskariSvili ivane javaxiSvilis saxelobis Tbilisis saxelmwifo universiteti msxverplSewirva veTayvanebi RvTaebas, didebuls, rogorc wiTel mTas da SiSismomgvrels. misi kbilebis elvarebas Tayvans vcem. tyis siRrmeSi cxovrobs demoni, samyaros Semqmneli, romlisTvisac Sewiruli msxverpli wmindaTawmindaa. vumReri mas, rogorc _ Ramis caze mocimcime diad RmerTebs. elva moRrublul caze misi klanWebis gamokrTomaa, xolo quxili _ misi braziani Rriali; qaris qrolva demonis Rrma sunTqvaa, xolo zRvis Relva _ Rameuli misi fSvinva; mze da mTvare misi ori Tvalia, xolo ca _ misi yovlismomcveli xaxa, romelsac Cveni STanTqva SeuZlia. RvTaeba tyis siRrmeSi cxovrobs da aravis uxilavs axlos, mxolod misi Rriali gvaRviZebs RamiT da Cvenc yvelani, koconis garSemo vikribebiT, raTa vilocoT da cekviT vadidoT misi yovlisSemZleoba da sisastike. proza 137 yoveldRe, dilaadrian, msxverpls vwiravT SiSismomgvrel RmerTs, raTa misi wyaloba davimsaxuroT. `geTayvanebiT Sen, demono, raTa ar davimsaxuro Seni SemaZrwuneblad moelvare eSvebis mrisxaneba~. mzis amosvlamde rigrigobiT SevdivarT tyis siRmeSi da iq, aRmosavleTis RmerTis gamoCenis molodinSi gatrunul wyvdiadSi vtovebT ZRvens, romliTac demons vadidebT. iyo dro, rodesac sxva RmerTebs veTayvanebodiT, magram ai, daibada axali demoni, romlis mZvinvare Rrialma daarRvia tyis srulyofili mdumareba da Zrwola mogvgvara. bevri Cvengani gaxda misi mrisxanebis msxverpli da maSin mivxvdiT: swored is aris erTaderTi, visac Tayvani unda vceT, gavuziaroT nadavlis nawili da vicekvoT, raTa ukvdavyoT gamouTqmeli saxeli misi. urCxuli uzarmazaria, misi nabijis simZimisgan miwa iZvris da kldeebidan qvebi cviva. misi mrisxane sunTqva zRvis Relvas da napiris walekvas iwvevs. misma sisastikem gangvdevna tyidan da axla zRvis maxloblad vcxovrobT, sanapiroze, raTa mudam, yovel wuTs vusminoT demonis sunTqvas, romelic wylis RelvaSi xmianobs. cecxlTan mocekvaveni xarbad vsvamT msxverplTa sisxls, kocons vapkurebT uwmindes siTxes da vmReriT, raTa ukunisamde vadidoT RvTaebis dauSreteli sisastike. ganTiadi misi Rimilia, xolo mwuxri _ sevda. maRla aRmarTuli SubebiT nela miviwevT tyeSi, rom kuTxeSi movimwyvdioT nadiri, romlis naxevaric mas ekuTvnis _ ukvdav demons, uZiros, rogorc zRvas da mSveniers, rogorc zRvaSi Casvenebul mzes. 138 debiuti es ambavi savse mTvaris dros moxda. miefara Tu ara mnaTobi goraks, axalgaRviZebuli nela daviZari tyis siRrmisken, raTa msxverpli Semewira ukvdavi demonisTvis. mxars mimZimebda sisxlisgan daclili arsebis sxeuli, misi suli sadRac Sors, mTebSi danavardobda da arwivebTan erTad Rrmad isunTqavda dilis msubuq haers, sxeuli ki Cems mxarze ekida, raTa Seesrulebina erTaderTi namdvili, sapatio daniSnuleba _ gamxdariyo RvTaebis nawili samudamod da ukunisamde. xeebs Sorisac ki, napirisgan Sors, TiTqos vgrZnobdi beladis mkacr, momTxovn mzeras, romelic misi Taflisferi Tvalebidan gamosWvioda, Tvalebidan, romlebic rwmeniT da sisastikiT iyo savse. tyis siRrmeSi vgrZnobdi demonis nerviul, Smag sunTqvas, romliTac haeri gaJRenTiliyo. me, misi morCili, xelebs jer isev bneli cisken aRvapyrob da Sendobas SevTxov. igi Semiwyalebs, radgan xeebs Soris aRar dalivlivebs muqariT savse Rriali da fSvinva. vxedav, misi Ria yavisferi, savse mTvaris naTebis msgavsi elvareba iRvreba palmebs Soris. kvlav aRvapyrob xelebs, amjerad ukve Sevardisferebuli cisken da CurCuliT vumadli demons, radganac sakuTari srulyofilebis xilvis neba damrTo. es is pativia, romelsac aravin daijerebs. demonis sxeuli xeebs gamoeyofa da miaxlovdeba. misi Tvalebi muqi Taflisferia, usasrulo. yavisferi sxeuli Savi koplebiT aqvs moxatuli da me cremli mdis misi mSvenierebis Semyures. nela miaxlovdeba, rogorc macduri qali sadResaswaulo cekvebis Semdeg, TiTqos proza 139 Cemi daufleba, STanTqma surs. Soridanac vgrZnob misi srulqmnili sxeulis surnelebas da Tavbru mesxmis, radgan erTaderTi var, vinc igi ixila. nela, mowiwebiT vuwvdi samsxverplo cxovels da miwaze vdeb, Semdeg kidev erTxel avxedav zecas da madlierebiT aRsavse vSordebi demons. uCumrad, frTxilad vixev ukan, magram demoni Sewirul msxverpls Tavs aridebs da Cemsken moiwevs. vgrZnob, rogor icvareba ofliT TiTebiT magrad CabRujuli Subi. vCerdebi, rom kargad Sevavlo Tvali RmerTs, romelic miaxlovdeba da mis TvalebSi Cabudebuli sisastikis ukan raRac ucxos vamCnev. Taflisfer TvalebSi, romelic xandaxan mwvaned gamokrTis, nela iRvreba SiSi. maRla aRvmarTe Subi, orive xeliT CaveWide da davelode, demoni kamaras rodis Sekravda. namgala mTvaris formis daniT Tavi movkveTe RmerTs, raTa sabolood damemarcxebina igi, Seuracxyofa mimeyenebina misi uZlevelobisTvis. sibraze meufleboda misi adrindeli sisastikis warmodgenisas, rodesac Tavs yovlisSemZled gvaCvenebda. amieridan aRar vimRerebT simRerebs da aRar vicekvebT koconis garSemo mis gamo, movcildebiT zRvis moSiSvlebul sanapiros, sadac SuadRiT mzis mxurvaleba gvtanjavda, xolo RamiT _ Seubralebeli qari. kvlav SevereviT tyes, rogorc uZveles dros da Tamamad vinadirebT. davewafebiT CrdilSi mdinaris civ nakadulebs da movkrefT tkbil, ferad nayofs, raTa aRarasdros vigrZnoT Zrwola cxoveluri Zalis winaSe. kvlav veTayvanebiT caze moseirne RmerTebs, romlebic 140 debiuti Suqs gvfenen da aRar SegveSindeba demonis Rameuli Zaxilis, radgan igi mkvdaria. me movkali urCxuli, romelic RmerTi gvegona, bolo movuRe mis moCvenebiT srulyofilebas da sisastikes. mis mokveTil Tavs vaCveneb adamianebs, Cems Zmebs da debs, vaCveneb misi kbilebis aw ukve Camqral elvarebas, raTa darwmundnen, rom urCxuli aRar arsebobs. misi sxeuli ki, rogorc sxva yvelaferi, tyis siRrmeSi gaixrwneba, raTa xorcis simyrale mTel miwas moedos da gagvaxsenos, rom aRar arsebobs Zrwolismomgvreli, sastiki demoni. misi Rriali sabolood miwyda. sanapirosken mimaval gzaze xarbad vlokav danaze SerCenil velur sisxls da vgrZnob, rogor ivseba Cemi sxeuli ucxo sinaTliT, romelic aqamde arasdros minaxavs. beladma, romelsac ferxTiT davubrZane urCxulis sisxlmdinare Tavi, gorakisken mimiTiTa. dReidan gandegili var, uaryofili. dilaadrian, sanam mTvare Cem ukan Caesveneba, vxedav, rogor miiweven Cemi Zmebi da debi tyisken, raTa kidev erTxel Seswiron msxverpli demons, RmerTs, romelic aRar arsebobs, romelsac arc arasdros uarsebia. isini kvlav iq cxovroben, sanapirosTan, zRvasTan axlos, radgan gaurbian imas, risi ararsebobis dajerebac ar SeuZliaT. gandegili, sakuTar martoobaSi vgrZnob, rom maTi gulebi carielia da kvlav, usasrulod vadideb oqrosfer mnaTobs. gorakze ganmartovebiT mdgari, kldeebsa da gamoqvabulebs Sexiznuli, vfiqrob, rom aqamde demons da RmerTs ki ara, SiSs veTayvanebodi. dRes ukve vici, rom rodesac qreba urCxuli, romelsac proza 141 msxverpls vwiravT da Tayvans vcemT, Cveva da crurwmena rCeba. urCxuli mokvdavia, SiSi ki _ ukvdavi. gadideb Sen, oqrosfero mnaTobo da Cems dausabamo martoobaSi geTayvanebi, raTa mommadlo sinaTle, romelsac Seni grZeli mklavebiT asxiveb. 142 debiuti nino miqaZe saqarTvelos universiteti cxovreba kadrebiT cxovreba fragmentidan amoglejili momentebisgan Sedgeba, romelsac gulSi saTanado adgils miuCen xolme da didxans inaxav mexsierebaSi. dro arasdros gelodeba, ukanmouxedavad mirbis win, Sen ki erT dRes moixedav da xelSi an bednieri, murabasaviT tkbili, an wiwakasaviT mware da mtkivneuli mogonebebi SegrCeba, romlebmac TiTqos umniSvnelo, magram SenTvis didi anabeWdi datoves warsulis sufTa dafaze. es Seni mexsierebis anabeWdebia... ra moxdeboda Cemi Tvalebi suraTebs rom iRebdnen? vin icis, ramdenjer miocnebia amaze. maSin xom Cemi ganvlili cxovrebis TiToeul kadrs gadaviRebdi, gansakuTrebul adgils amovurCevdi Cemi mexsierebis patara komodSi. dro rom gavidoda, isev amovqeqavdi, davaTvalierebdi da vizualurad davinaxavdi yvelafers, proza 143 rac gamoviare, yovelgvari gonebis daZabvisa da warmodgenis gareSe. axla mxolod is mrCeba, rom didxans vuyuro mniSvnelovan kadrs, raTa arc erTi detali ar damaviwydes, mere gavixseno is SegrZneba, rac im dros dameufla. es daaxloebiT im gemosaviTaa, SenTvis sayvarel kerZs rom aqvs. netav, Cemi telefonidanac ise Candes yvelaferi, rogorc Cemi Tvalebidan. axla loginze var wamowolili, gadaviRale... hoda, ucbad mominda ramdenime wuTiT ganmeorebuliyo is wami, rodesac RamiT zRvis napiras Cems gogoebTan erTad qvebze viyavi wamowolili, varskvlavebiT gadaWedil cas SevscqerodiT, Coldplay-s Fix you-s vusmendiT da vcdilobdiT dagvenaxa, rogor vardeboda varskvlavi cidan da Tu Camovardeboda, bednierebisgan vyvirodiT, Tan erTmaneTs vekiTxebodiT, movaswariT Tu ara survilis Cafiqreba. ucbad tanSi Jruantelma damiara. zustad gamaxsenda is SegrZneba, rac maSin dameufla. Zalian Znelia, roca amdeni bedniereba ar ici sad waiRo, rogor gamoxato, rac Sen SigniT, sxeulSi xdeba da yelSi mobjenil uzarmazar burTs dauSalo, rom ar gaskdes. oRond zafxuli ki ara, ai, zustad is wami momenatra, rodesac Cemi Tvalebidan fokusi gavaswore da suraTi Zalian naTlad gadaviRe. dro mainc ar melodeba, kadrebi ki samudamod rCeba. cxovreba erTi didi firia, romelic iqamde grZel- 144 debiuti deba, sadamdec Sen iarsebeb. yvelas Tavisi kuTvnili firi aqvs. hoda, me am wams Cemi firidan sanatrel momentze gadavaxvie da axlidan vuyure. netav TiToeuli adamianis cxovreba ase erT firze iwerebodes, romelsac Semdeg saxels da gvars daawerdnen da sadme erTad did sacavSi moaTavsebdnen, ganyofilebebi ki gvarebis mixedviT iqneboda. xalxs SeeZleboda nebismieri firi aeRo da eyurebina. eyurebina imdenjer, ramdenjerac gauxardeboda da mec, albaT, xSirad mnaxavdiT iqve grZel rigSi sulmouTmenlad mdgoms. 145 proza salome bzaraSvili ivane javaxiSvilis saxelobis Tbilisis saxelmwifo universiteti sinaTle lazares TvalebSi ici ganTiadi rodis aris mSvenieri?! roca mas adamianis TvalebSi xedav... Tu Tqven odesme RrubelTa ziareba gixilavT, maSin RvTaebrioba gigrZvniaT. uflis maTaridan zecaze daqceuli Rvinis wveTebi... TiTqos mwuxris agoniidan gamoqceuli samyaro SeboWil suls ziarebiT ixsnis. wamieri gaelveba da daibertyaven Rrublebi mSvenierebas, rCeba mxolod uRimRamo naturmorti. marinistisTvis albaT nacnobi SemTxvevaa. mas Tavis namuSevrebSi gardamtexi wamis dasatyveveblad zRvis piras Rame mravlad gauTenebia, magram Tvalwarmtaci sanaxaobiT Sepyrobili STagonebas aRuwerel, magram damatyvevebel wams usaxsovrebda xolme. buneba saukeTeso magaliTia adamianis Sinagani samyaros aRsawerad da axla, rodesac ganTiadis RvTaebriobaze vsaubrob, maxsendeba suli, romelic sixarulisgan miniWebul rwmenas ise eWideba, rogorc dedamiwa 146 debiuti aiss. TiTqos maradisobis cnebaSi dasarwmunebel mizezs imgvarad eZebdes, rogorc adamiani _ misi arsebobis RirebulebaSi. da mainc, yovelTvis arsebobs magram... buneba, rogorc yofierebaSi gabatonebuli gulgriloba, SegviZlia aRviqvaT xiluli da abstraqtuli samyaroebis saerTo tkivilad. _ eh, alber, iqneb jobda Savi Wiri apaTias... axla seqtembris grili dilaa. sarkmels farosanebi awydebian, Ramurebi Zilispiruls RiRineben, foTlebi Rrublebs ahyolia da Srialeben, dedamiwa iRviZebs, magram Zils ufro natrobs. meezoveebi quCebs fexakrefiT asufTaveben da nagavs avtomobilebs atanen, TiTqos momavals warsulis Secdomebisagan asufTaveben. SoriT ZaRlebi yefas iwyeneb da mosalodnel saSiSroebas vaJkacuri yiJiniT afrTxoben. CemSi Sinagani agonia da wuTisoflis sificxe erTmaneTs abaTilebs da vrCebi ubralod araferi... sicariele... drois SegrZnebadakarguli JamTaaRmwereli... _ kidev didxans apireb ase yofnas? _ mekiTxeba oTaxSi barbaciT Semosuli babo, romelic Tvalebs isress, Tan karis saxelurs ritmulad eyrdnoba. ar surs, SeimCnios asaki, amitom xeljoxs ar iyenebs da aTrTolebuli. ase nel-nela, droisgan ferwamxdar kedlebs Soris xelis cecebiT dafusfusebs... _ adeqi, Svilo, xom xedav, mzis kokrebi gaifurCqna, qalaqi axmaurda._ Semaxsena gaTeneba, momiaxlovda, saxeze TiTebi Camomisva, iqneb damloca an Cemi nakvTebis damaxsovreba surda, TavSali mxrebze moigdo da Ria proza 147 sarkmels gauswora Tvali... _ ra mSvenieria alioni, samyaro waxda, magram laJvardis saTnoeba veraferma dajabna. Svilo, ratom dumxar? dila mxiarulebiT unda daiwyo, rom es dRe SenTvis bednierebis momtani iyos. eh, netav Seni mSoblebis mze ase male ar Casvenebuliyo... Sen gaemzade, me sufras gavawyob. _ mibrunda da sulSi mZvinvare qariSxlebi RarSive Catova... *** metroSi Cavdivar da cxovrebis rutinas mivyvebi, qvegriala CemTvis yvelaze myudro adgilia, sivrce sadac fiqrisTvis gansakuTrebuli atmosferoa. matarebelic xom drois qmnilebaa, romelic Tavad miuZRvis mas. vagonis kuTxeSi vdgavar SeumCnevlad, yofierebis klanWebSi var moqceuli, rogorc sxvebi da uRimRamo arsebobisgan Tavis daRwevaze vocnebob. akviatebuli fraza gonebas miRrRnis. zogjer mgonia, rom adamianebi peplebi varT miwisZvris epicentrSi da afrena ar SegviZlia. vdgavar sicocxlisgan moSorebiT, klonTa garemocvaSi Sepyrobili azriT, rom araraoba var, imdenad didi araraoba, rom arafers vakeTeb sakuTari Tavis am mdgomareobidan gamosayvanad. abstraqtuli samyaroTi Sepyrobils wuTisoflis xmebi mafxizlebs da vamCnev ormoc wlamde mamakacs, romelmac vagonSi mZimed Semoabija da espanuri satrfialo simRerebis Sesruleba daiwyo. cota ar iyos meucxova, radgan arasdros Semxvedria es repertuari, ufro xom qarTuli folklori JRers xolme metroSi. 148 debiuti moulodnelad ucxo qalbatoni TvalSisacemad wamoxta adgilidan, cekva-cekviT miirbina musikosTan da kalaTaSi xurda Caugdo, mere gauRima, xalxs xalisi Seemata. qali artistizmiT, sicocxliT iyo savse da roca darwmunda, rom xalxi gamoafxizla, TiTqos movaleoba pirnaTlad moixadao, umalve vagonidan gauCinarda... vismendi espanur baladebs da masze fiqri ar mSordeboda, TiTqos naTeli davinaxe am samyaroSi. naTeli, romelic Cemi sulis Carazul darabebs amtvrevda. meore diliT me gavaRviZe babo, kalTaSi Tavi Cavude da davuTqvi, rom Zvel pirobas Sin dabrunebisas avusrulebdi. gamiRima, dawnul Tmebze xeli gadamisva da miTxra: mixaria, Sen mainc rom asruleb dabrunebis pirobebso. TiTebze vuyurebdi, droiT dakoJril TiTebze da vumeorebdi, rom yvelaze mSvenieria, uflis madlia misi xelebi, romlebsac yovelTvis SeuZliaT Cemi gankurneba, CemSi dacemuli angelozis amaRleba... *** metrosken miviswrafi, Tan vcdilob, gavixseno romel vagonSi gadaveyare ucnob artists. gadaviTvli vagonebs da isev vibnevi, sabolood ki beds mivendobi. dinebis miyolas didi xania miveCvie, sulze daxeTqili iarebic ver maSineben da verc iluziiT aSenebuli kedlis narCenebi. vTvli, rom adamianis yvelaze didi Secdoma danebebaa, radgan mas ise Zlier SeuZlia SeCveva, rom funqciadakargul arsebas emsgavseba... Sevabijeb vagonSi saswaulis molodinSi da araferia, is aq ar aris. kvlav kuTxeSi vdgebi da misi xilvis proza 149 imeds vkargav. amRvreuli var, mouTmenloba mipyrobs, vfeTianob, xalxSi mis Tvalebs veZeb. TiTqos garSemo sibnelea. okeaneSi CasaZirad ganwiruli navi var da Suquris gafantul sinaTles sicocxlis dauokebeli surviliT daveZeb, TiTqos brbos nawili var, brbos, romelic cxovrebas ferTa palitrisgan acalkevebs da arsebobad aqcevs. me ki mSvenierebis danaxva msurs. ara stereotipebiT gaTvaliswinebuli, aramed usazRvro, STamagonebeli, Seufasebeli mSvenierebis, romelic Tavisufali Sinagani samyaros qmnilebaa da ara tendenciebis. impulsurad gamovdivar vagonidan da Sin vbrundebi, SurduliviT mivrbivar saxlisken, TiTqos sadacaa caSi aviWrebi da frTebs Sevisxam, magram sulieri simZime Zirs manarcxebs. babo gaSeSda Cemi danaxvisas... _ ra xdeba, babo genacvalos, ase male ratom dabrundi? _ araferi, ubralod leqciebi micdeba, aivanze gavideT Cveneburad da dapirebul leqsebs wagikiTxav. maSinebda is faqti, rom Cemi striqonebi melanqoliis morevSi iZireboda, meSinoda amas babos rwmenaze ar emoqmeda, misi dakargvis meSinoda. uceb Semawyvetina da miTxra: _ zecaze varskvlavebs Soris ar daiwyo RmerTis Zebna, ubralod gulSi Caixede, RmerTi siyvarulia. _ gulze xeli damado da ganagrZo: _ sicocxle saswaulia Svilo, Seni gulis feTqvac saswaulia, uflis wyalobaa, amitom arasdros dakargo rwmena RmerTis da sakuTari Tavis, is arasdros dagtovebs, radgan Seni nawilia... _ 150 debiuti babom kalTis jibidan patara wignaki amoiRo, karga xans akvirdeboda Cafiqrebuli, Semdeg gadaSala da amoikiTxa: _ gTxov, damixseni, gTxov `gamixsene, suli STambere, viT qandakebas... Seni mSoblebi, rom gardaicvalnen tkivilma rwmena wamixdina, magram Semdeg Sen iqeci Cems sayrdenad, sulSi kelaptrebi amigizgize da dRemde veraferma SeZlo maTi Caqroba. Senc unda dainaxo, Svilo saswauli, romliTac ufali sicocxlis RirebulebaSi gvarwmunebs. babos Sublze vakoce, wamovdeqi, vuTxari, rom saseirnod mivdiodi. vigrZeni, pirjvari rogor gardamsaxa karSi gamosvlisas. mivdiodi, raRac amoucnobsa da amaRlebuls ganvicdidi. vagonSi Sevedi, kvlav kuTxeSi davdeqi da is davinaxe. SuaSi mokalaTebuliyo da mgzavrebs xatavda, TiTqos misi suli yviroda `SeCerdi wamo, mSvenieri xar!~. albaT eubneboda portretebze aRbeWdil adamianebs, SexedeT da gaixseneT es wami, rodesac sevda an bedniereba ileqeboda Tqvens saxeebze da mixvdebiT adamianad yofnis fass, mixvdebiT, rom yovelTvis SegiZliaT ganicadoT Sinagani fericvaleba, romelsac aRmafrenamde mivyavarT da Tqvens arsebobas saocar Tavgadasavlad aqcevs... vuyurebdi da vxvdebodi, rom me saswauli davinaxe, garSemo yvelafers xibli emateboda da vigrZeni, rom vsunTqavdi... 151 proza salome SveliZe qarTul-amerikuli universiteti (GAU) wyalSi CaZiruli fiqrebi adamians klavs is, risic yvelaze metad eSinia. raoden usasrulo da SeuzRudavia adamianis fiqris areali. Cveni goneba xom ganuwyvetliv fiqris procesSia. ar arsebobs sakiTxi, romlis siRrmeSic ar CauRwevia Cvens fiqrebs, magram Cemi fiqrebi arasdros misulan sikvdilis Temamde. Cemi sikvdili mxolod siberiT warmomedgina, welSi moxrili, TmagaWaRaravebuli, danaoWebuli xelebiTa da isev axalgazrda guliT, cxovrebis bednieri wuTebiT rom davtkbebodi. ukve kargad gakvaluli gzis mnaxvel adamians sikvdili xom veRar aSinebs, verc me SemaSinebda. sikvdils Zala maSin ekargeba, roca sicocxlesTan uZluria. maSin is mxolod fizikuri tkivilis Semsubuqebad gveCveneba. maSin aRar nerviulob, guli aRar gwydeba, rom raRac ver moixile. 152 debiuti siymawvilis wlebi ise gadis xolme, rogorc unda gadiodes; soflis orRobeSi gazrdils rogorc Seefereba; swavliT da RvTiv dalocvili miwis movla-patronobiT; bebos mier kecze gamomcxvari mWadiTa da damWknari xelebiT amoyvanili yvelis gemoTi; ymawviluri garTobisa da uSedego nadirobis xibliT. axla wyalSi var da kinokadriviT vixseneb TiToeul im wuTs. Cems Tavs vuyureb da Tan im ymawvils, romelic verasdros warmoidgens sakuTar Tavs aseT dros. veZaxi mas, magram ar minda SevaSino, ar minda vuTxra imis Sesaxeb, rac win elis. iTamaSos, ilxinos, datkbes cxovrebis tkbili wuTebiT, Torem tanjva da tkivili merec moelis. dro miqris ise, rogorc axla. da am drois svlasTan erTad, es biWunac izrdeba, vaJkacdeba. uCndeba samomavlo miznebi da survilebi. droebiT miwevs dedis kalTas movcilde da sxva qalaqSi wavide. menaneba is dro, dedis nazi saxis danaoWebas rom ver vixilav, mis utkbiles xmas rom ver gavigoneb. menaneba, magram iq arc dro icdis da arc miznebi. mivdivar da yurSi dedis utkbesi xma Camesmis... im drois sastiki reJimi cdilobs, ocnebebze uari maTqmevinos, ar maZlevs nebas, Cemi cxovrebiT vicxovro. omis damRupveli xma miqadis, Tavisken mixmobs. depeSebs depeSaze vagzavni da `vRebulob~. vatyobineb ojaxis wevrebs, rom kargad var, rom omi ver maSinebs. erTaderTi, risic meSinia, udedmamobaa da is, rom rom drois mdinarebas ver SevaCereb. dReebi monatrebaSi gadis da vbrundebi samSoblo- proza 153 Si, vubrundebi miwa-wyals, Cems sofelsa da mSoblebs. oh, rogor miyvars Cems sofelSi alioni, wylis siRrmidan amosuli mzis mwveli sxivebi, gauRviZebeli bunebis surneleba da gaSlili horizonti. wyali Rrmad miTrevs iqeT, saidanac mze yoveldRe gamTeniisas amodis... mere iyo studentoba, TeTrad gaTenebuli Rameebi, mSieri dReebi, studenturi Tavgadasavlebi da siyvaruli… miyvarda giSrisTvaleba gogona, grZeldalalebiani, spetaki guliTa da umanko suliT. im droSi siyvarulic sxvagvari iyo. sufTa, ubiwo, adamianTa gulebs uangarod eufleboda. im moridebasa da krZalvaSi didi siyvaruli iyo. ojaxis uReli erTad ioli satarebeli, miuxedavad imisa, rom ukve Svilebic gvyavda. Cemi cxovrebis arc erT wuTs ar aRemateba im wuTebis bedniereba, roca am patara arsebebma mamobis sixaruli momaniWes. me sxva adamianad gardaviqmeni, Zlier, Seuryevel cixesimagred, romelsac gare dabrkolebebis miuxedavad, veravin arbevdnen. yvela, vinc mabednierebda, ukve myavda. borotebas araferi esaqmeboda iq, sadac siyvaruli batonobda. magram rogori daugegmavia es cxovreba, gaugebari da amoucnobi. isev vcdilob wylis zedapirze amosvlas, iqneb Cemi arseboba vinmem igrZnos. gTxovT, damixsnaT wylis saSineli klanWebisgan... Cems Svilebs siyvaruli vaswavle. vaswavle, rom cxovrebiseuli dabrkolebebis miuxedavad, arasdros Tqvan uari TavianT ocnebebze. eh, netavi meti drois 154 debiuti gatareba SemZleboda maTTan erTad. Cems Tavs vuxmob da STavagoneb, rom cxovreba xanmoklea, rom arc erTi wuTi ar unda daikargos sayvareli adamianebis gareSe. kvlav aravis esmis Cemi ... mere iyo Cemi meuRlis avadmyofoba. locvasa Tu vedrebaSi gaTenebuli Rameebi. vgrZnobdi, mis gareSe rogor icvleboda samyaro. vgrrZnobdi, rom misi mxardaWerisa da siyvarulis gareSe ver gavZlebdi. amjerad Cemi vedreba ismina ufalma da usiyvarulobisTvis ar gamwira. Cemi giSrisTvaleba gogo gons rom movida da erT TveSi gaWaRaravebuli daminaxa, gamiRima, didxans gicxovria Cem gareSeo... vcdilob ukanasknelad CavisunTqo, ukanasknelad... roca qveyana airia da daiwyo gaWirveba, SimSiloba. guli ar miCerdeboda samSobloSi, ukanasknel xurdebs viTvlidi, Cems Svilebs ver vexmarebodi, vxedavdi, rom Cems moxuc mSoblebs didi Sroma uwevdaT. isev wavedi!.. wavedi da Tan dedis cremlebi gamomyva. mivdiodi ucxo qveyanaSi, iq, sadac Cemi soflis alions veRar vixilavdi. iq, sadac haeric ki gansxvavebuli iyo. iq, sadac Cemi guli ar xarobda. ver daviviwyeb mtiral meuRles, mSoblebs, Svilebs. mtkioda ise, rogorc axla, roca wylis siRrmiseuli miTrevs da mipyrobs. vmuSaobdi da varCendi ojaxs. gauTenebeli dReebi Cqara gadioda. Cemi ojaxis wevrebs iseT dros vakldi, roca yvelaze metad vWirdebodi. am ganSorebis Wrilobebs ki Cemi SviliSvilebis siyvaruli mixorcebda. oh, rogor mixarebda guls maTi daZaxili `babu!~ netav, axla TqvenTan mamyofa… netav, axla TqvenT- proza 155 vis Semaxeda da kidev erTxel movkvdebodi... babu! mapatieT, rom piroba ver Sevasrule, roca dagpirdiT, sul TqvenTan viqnebi-meTqi. mapatieT, uTqvenod gatarebuli TiToeuli wuTi, Tqveni warmatebis unaxavi rom mivdivar am qveynidan. mapatieT, rom ver gaswavleT is, rac Cems Svilebs vaswavle. me mZuls uTqvenod gatarebuli TiToeuli wuTi. mapatie, deda. rom yovelTvis mivdiodi Sengan. mainc versad wavedi Sen umisod... Cemo giSrisTvaleba gogov! Cemi miznebi Seni povniT Sevasrule!. vici, naklebad igrZnob uCemobas. imitom, rom isedac yovelTvis Sen gverdiT viyavi da viqnebi. adamians klavs is, risic yvelaze metad eSinia. mZuls wylis TiToeuli wveTi ukidegano zRvis sivrceSi. mZuls misi siCume. wyalSi var Cavardnili da Tavs veRar vaRwev, aqedan Cemi xma aravis esmis, TviT ufalsac ki! vyviri, magram piri wyliT mevseba da mgudavs. curvis ucodinars wyali siRrmeSi miTrevs, me ki vebrZvi, uSedegod viqnev xel-fexs, ar vnebdebi, wyals saSualebas ar vaZlev, damaxrCos. me ar minda sikvdili. wyeul wyals ki ar esmis! ugulos arc ki warmoudgenia, ra aris siyvaruli. ar mjera am cxadis, zedmetad xangrZliv sizmars vxedav, nuTu wyals marTla SeuZlia Cemi sikvdili. netavi amomasunTqa... roca haeris ukanasknel burTs piridan vuSveb, vmarcxdebi… vxedav, Tu rogor iTrevs wyali Cems sxeuls Tavis wyvdiadisebur siRrmeSi. me ki cisken… sadRac RrublebSi mivemarTebi. axla Rrmad vsunTqav, oRond Cemi sxeulisagan Sors var, zevidan davyureb mas, wylis siR- 156 debiuti rmeSi, silaSi Cafluls. vxedav im qveynis wyalSi, sadac gauTenebeli dReebi miqrian… mekvlad mivdivar, Cems mogonebad ki wylis TiToeul wveTs gitovebT wyalSi CaZirul fiqrebTan erTad. mivdivar... 157 proza xatia TeliaSvili san diegos saxelmwifo universiteti 17 dRe da me qali var! dRe pirveli: davibade. miTxres, rom lamazi gogona var da rogorc caze varskvlavi ise amovkiafdi... dRe meore: vizrdebi. Wrela-Wrula kabaSi gamowyobili, feradferadi Tmis samagrebiTa da peplebis saWeriT davrbivar mindorSi. mixaria, ra kargia, rom gogo var! SemiZlia, grZeli Tma welamde CamovuSva, masSi gvirilebi Caviwna da yvavilebis gvirgvini davidga... kargia, qalad rom davibade... dRe mesame: vizrdebi, ukve Tineijerulad vicvam, ra kargia, rom qali var... 158 debiuti dRe meoTxe: ubralod, cxovreba mixaria… vwevar sawolSi, welamde Tmas vivarcxni. simRerebs dabal xmaze vusmen da TiTqos dedamiwidan Sors gavdivar. dRe mexuTe: musikis xmas odnav vumateb, ar minda `nu miyviri~ frazam Cemi dedamiwidan gasvla gaarTulos... dRe meeqvse: musikis xmas bolomde vuwev... dRe meSvide: musikas kvlav bolo xmaze vusmen, miuxedavad imisa, rom dabal xmaze miyvars mosmena. frazebma monotonuroba dakarga da axla ukve ismis: `ar damartya~, ..mtkiva~... dRe merve: Tmebi aRar damivarcxnia ise wavedi skolaSi, musikis xmamaRla mosmenasac SeveCvie... dRe mecxre: saxlSi misvla aRar minda... dRe meaTe: dedamiwidan gasvla araTu musikiT, aramed suicidiT vcade, magram gadavrCi... proza 159 dRe meTerTmete: kvlav gadavrCi... dRe meTormete: ar minda, rom qali viyo... dRe mecamete: monotonurobis damRleli dRe… dRe meToTxmete: TiToeuli dartymuli xeli mtkiva, yvela dayvireba muqarad Camesmis, ar minda, rom qali viyo... dRe meTxuTmete: sakuTar TavSi Zalas vpoulob, magram mainc mgonia, rom ocnebebi mcnebebiviT irRveva... dRe meTeqvsmete: `ar damartya~ `mtkiva~, am sityvebSi vimarxebi, xelebi yurebze magrad maqvs mibjenili, raTa araferi gavigono, Tma ukve saukunea aRar damivarcxnia, arc gvirilebi Camiwnavs, arc musikisTvis momismenia ise, rogorc me miyvarda... ar minda, rom qali viyo.... dRe meCvidmete: velodebi, rom meCvidmete gazafxuli mainc iqneba nugeSis momtani… (gamogonili rutina) magram vpoulob Zalas, iqneb unda viyo kidec qali, qali _cvlileba... Zala vipove... Tma davivarcxne, gvirilebi Caviwani Tma- 160 debiuti Si... axla ukve deda var… Cemi Svilebi yovel Rame musikas dabal xmaze usmenen... _ me qali var XX qromosomuli wyviliT, susti ZvlebiT, arcTu ise Zlieri kunTebiT, viwro mxrebiT... me qali var, zogisTvis susti sqesiT, zogisTvis mxolod mzareuli, mrecxavi... amboben realurad is xar, rac SenSi principebs afetiSebso, xoda, mec amitom vambob, rom qali var, SeiZleba fizikurad arcTu ise Zlieri, iqneb arc Zalmomre, Tumca qali var, romelsac aqvs Tavisi miznebi, grZnobebi... me qali var, es sami sityva maZlevs enTuziazms, vibrZolo imisTvis, rom gaxunebul frazebs mniSvneloba SevZino, davamsxvrio stereotipebi da Cemi inovaciuri azrovnebiT sociumSi, romelSic me vcxovrob mentaliteti Sevcvalo. miuxedavad drois meraniviT swrafi frenisa, adamis modgmis satkivari ar icvleba: mentaliteti, romelic sociumSi batonobs Zalmomreobisken aris mimarTuli. me qali var! me mtkioda, roca amerikaSi jonaTans xeli daartyes, me qali var! movkvdi, roca mokles avrora. me qali var! davimarxe yvela im qalTan erTad, romlebic uprincipo sociumis Zalmomreobas Seewirnen.... me qali var, me ar unda vago pasuxi imisTvis, rom qali var, me maqvs Cemi Rirsebebi da dReidan vcvli samyaros Cemi ideebiT... publicistika 161 salome gulordava, `musikaluri improvizacia~, guaSi. Tbilisis saxelmwifo samxatvro akademia 162 debiuti baCo gogriWiani grigol robaqiZis saxelobis universiteti barbarizmebis, `mokrZalebuli xibli~ qarTul enaSi mimdinare procesebze zedapiruli dakvirvebac ki cxadyofs, rom enaSi mniSvnelovani cvlilebebi xdeba _ es aramarto mecnierTa dakvirvebaa. mTavari is aris, ramdenad saCvenoa es cvlilebebi, romelic upiratesad inglisuri sityvebis qarTul enaSi Semodinebas ukavSirdeba. dRes ukve savalalo Tu ara, arasaxarbielo viTareba namdvilad gvaqvs sasubro leqsikonSi. neologizmebi, Jargonebi, barbarizmebi _ qarTuli ena gadagvarebis pirasaa. Cveni tkbilqarTuli isev Cvenganaa dasacavi. qarTvels, romelic mSobliur enas pativs scemda, odiTganve enis siwmindis dacvis sadajaroze idga, misi erovnuli kodi ecleba xelidan. fiqrobT, rom Zalian sentimentaluri var? sruliadac ara, amisaTvis erT patara narativs davimowmeb. Cveulebrivi, arafriT gamorCeuli dRe iyo. maisis publicistika 163 SabaTi saRamo. mogexsenebaT, rom gazafxulis am Tves Cvevia araprognozirebadoba. bunebrivi movlenebi ise swrafad moulodnelad enacvleba erTmaneTs, rom weliwadis droebSi garkvevis unars kargav. samsaxuridan, Cveulebisamebr, daRlili gamovedi. lokacia _ vake, WavWavaZis gamziri, CemTvis ki ufro universitetis quCaa, TiTqos mTel quCaze swavla-ganaTlebis `surneli~ trialebs. miyvars universitetis gamzirze fexiT xetiali. vtkepni gamzirs, TiTqos minda Cemi kvali, Cemi xelwera davtovo am quCaze. universitetis meore korpusidan fexiT avdivar vakis parkamde. gazafxulis JuJuna wvimac swored am gzaze wamomewia. gaCerebaze vdgebi da mesmis: gogona telefonze saubrobs. savaraudod, megobars esaubreba _ au, gogo, Zalian reini (wvimiani) amindia vakeSi da rom davaqenseloT (gavauqmoT) Cveni Sexvedra, ara?! geflizebi, (gexvewebi, gTxov) ra... Cems Tavs gafic~. (ase uTxra, `gafic~) Tavidan gamecina, Zlier gamecina, Tumca mere gaviazre, rom es sulac araa sasacilo, ufro satiralia! sakuTar Tavs CavekiTxe, Cven qarTvelebma, qarTul enas rogor unda vuSveloT-meTqi? arada, saSvelad namdvilad aqvs saqme Cvens gansakuTrebuli madliT mosil erovnul saunjes. ilia marTali ambobda `mteroba enis ars mtroba qveynis~, mogviwodebda, rom dagveca mSobliuri ena yvelgan da yovelTvis. ioane zosimem `qarTuli ena 164 debiuti RmerTebis enaa~ _ o. naxeT, raodeni siyvarulia, rogori amayebi undaT viyoT qarTvelebo! `RmerTebis enaze~ vsaubrobT RvTismSoblis wilxvedr qveyanaSi, magram ra vuyoT barbarizmebs, modurad rom morTul-mokazmula da ise Semoipareba qarTuli enis wiaRSi. barbarizmi berZnuli sityvaa da ama Tu im enis bunebisaTvis Seuferebel gamonaTqvams, sityvas niSnavs _ ganmartavs vikipedia. martivad, rom vTqvaT, ucxo enidan gadmotanili sityvebia da sasaubro leqsikonSi damkvidrebulia. yuric ise advilad eCveva xolme, magram yvelasi _ ara. `ra moxda mere, didi ambavi~ _ viRacam SeiZleba asec imarTlos Tavi, magram ara, batonebo! Cven qarTvelebi varT, mSobliuri ena gagvaCnia, igi JReradia, sasiamovno mosasmenia. yvelafris gamosaxva SeuZlia, gulanTebuls dagtovebs, qarTul enaze saubari srulyofilebaa, erovnuli TviTgamoxatvaa. daiviwyeT _ `maroJni~ (nayini), `spiCka~ (asanTi), `zaJigalka~ (sanTebela), `vedro~ (saTli), `taSti~ (varcli). arada, es swrafmavali `metastazebi~ _ qarTul enaSi yoveldRiurad mkvidrdeba. samwuxaro realobaa, rom am ukanasknels xels uwyobs media, romelsac uSualo sazogadoebaze zemoqmedebis berketebi miumadlebia Cvens droebas. informaciis wyaroa da erTgvari kompasis daniSnuleba aqvs, rom sazogadoebas swori mimarTuleba daanaxos. Cveni koketoba iqamdec midis, rom ama Tu im sityvis mniSvneloba adamianebs zustad arc ki esmiT, magram maT aqtiurad iyeneben. es maneruloba gansakuTrebiT mozardebs xiblavT. mozardebi ki yvelaze saTuTi so- publicistika 165 ciumia, romlebic, xSir SemTxvevaSi, amas problemad ar aRiqvamen. mSobliuri enis mimarT mokrZalebuli damokidebulebisTvis jer ar momwifebulan. ar aRiqvamen am faqts problemad, . TiTqos pativs scemen mSobliurs, magram saqme saqmeze rom midgeba sxva suraTi gvxvdeba. vfiqrob, maT erovnuli suliskveTeba akliaT, raTa enis siwmindis dacvis survili gaucxoveldeT da qmediTad gaisarjon. ubralod _ sensitiuris magivrad mgrZnobiare Tqvan, paskis magivrad ki _ xatispuri. dRes qarTuli ena ukve gadaivso neologizmebiT, JargonebiT, barbarizmebiT, romelic damangrevelia enisaTvis, bRalavs mis siwmindes da `maspinZlis enis~ funqcias kargavs. saxelmwifos roli am procesis SesaCereblad qmediTi unda iyos. jer qarTuli da Semdgom inglisuri, batonebo... zogan qarTuladac ki ar aweria dawesebulebebs. ra qnas im adamianma, romelmac inglisuri ena ar icis?! maTi uflebebis darRvevis paralelurad, sakuTar samSobloSi, qalaqSi, Tavs daCagruladac xom ar vagrZnobinebT. vifiqroT amaze, vidre ucxo enis codniT movindomebT sakuTari personis gabrwyinebas, vidre xelSi Sagrenis tyaviviT Semogvelia tkbilqarTuli. 166 debiuti irina gamrekeli grigol robaqiZis saxelobis universiteti miusafari ZaRlebis sevda quCaSi, skverSi, sacxovrebeli saxlebis siaxloves, maT yvelagan naxavT. yurebze morCilebis aRmniSvneli damRiT da sevdiani, momlodine TvalebiT. maTi lodini an ZaRlebis TavSesafarSi unda dasruldes, an vinme humanuri adamianis saxlSi, romelmac is unda Seifaros. `Seifare~ _ es mowodeba yvelas gvekuTvnis. ra Tqma unda, saxelmwifosac. saqarTveloSi sul ramdenime cxovelTa TavSesafaria, romelic an arasamTavrobo organizaciebis, an ubralod im adamianebis mieraa daarsebuli, romlebsac guli SestkivaT miusafar cxovelebze, erT-erTi _ TbilisSi arsebuli Tamaz elizbaraSvili. ZaRlebis TavSesafaria. uWirs qveyanas da uWirs ZaRlebis TavSesafarsac. qveyanaSi mZime socialuri fonia. visac fuli aqvs _ xSirad sibralulis gancdas aris mokle- publicistika 167 buli, cxovelebisadmi keTilganwyobil adamianTa umravlesobas ki qvelmoqmedebisaTvis saxsrebi ar gaaCnia. saqarTveloSi zogierT TviTmmarTvel qalaqs ZaRlebis TavSesafari saerTod ar gaaCnia. 2014 wels Tbilisis sakrebulom ZaRlebis da katebis movla-patronobisa da maTi populaciis marTvis axali wesic ki daamtkica, magram am sityvas xom aucileblad saqme unda moyves. saqarTveloSi upatrono cxovelebis gaCuqebis koeficientic Zalian dabalia, rac problemebs qmnis TavSesafrebisaTvis. arada, yvela vTanxmdebiT, rom ZaRlis da katis quCaSi dabruneba ar SeiZleba. municipaluri cxovelTa TavSesafari 2003 wlidan funqcionirebs. am sakiTxTan mimarTebaSi saxelmwifos mxridan aqtiurobis imedi ukve gamoikveTa. 2019 wlidan igegmeba saqarTvelos regionebSic cxovelTa TavSesafrebis mSenebloba, magaliTad _ kaxeTsa da samcxe-javaxeTSi. aseve arsebobs cxovelTa dacvis organizaciebis cxeli xazi. Tumca upatrono cxovelTa raodenoba quCebSi mainc STambeWdavia da Semcirebis tendenciac ar igrZnoba. Tamaz elizbaraSvilis TavSesafari am usaqmobisa da gulgrilobis xiluli msxverplia. upatrono cxovelTa es TavSesafari uamravi krizisis, stiqiurisa Tu finansuri problemebis miuxedavad, meTeqvsmete welia funqcionirebs, Tumca sul raRac erTi Tvis win elizbaraSvilma TavSesafris facebook gverdze gamoaqveyna posti misi daxurvis Sesaxeb da mizezad finansuri krizisi daasaxela. `Rrma finansuri krizisis gamo, dReidan TavSesafarma Sewyvita 168 debiuti cxovelebis miReba. momsaxure personalidan naxevarze meti darCa umuSevari. TavSesafris binadrebi sanaxevrod mSivrebi arian, magram, bunebrivia, maT quCaSi ver gavuSvebT~ _ es posti, rogorc ganaCeni ise gaJRerda maTTvis, visac jer kidev SerCenia cxovelebis mimarT pasuxismgeblobas grZnoba. vis ar mimarTa Tamaz elizbaraSvilma, magram, uSedegod., es is mware realobaa, romelic amxels Cveni sazogadoebis kriziss da arc saxelmwifosaTvisaa damakmayofilebeli testi. `ai, swored amis gamo veRar gpasuxobT cxel xazze, keTilo adamianebo da ver gexmarebiT. naTqvamia, imedi yvelaze bolos kvdebao da rogorc Cans, es boloc daudga TavSesafars...~ wers TavSesafris erT-erTi TanamSromeli. umuSevroba da mudmivi finansuri krizisi saqarTveloSi sensacia ar aris, magram gulistkivils aq sxva rame iwvevs _ saRamo Jams, restornebis win Camwkrivebuli avtomanqanebis mflobelebi aucileblad aweven adamianobis sadRegrZelos. arada, Cven xSirad swored iq vmarcxdebiT, sadac yvelaze metad gvevaleba viyoT adamianebi. cxovelebi Cven ver gangvsjian, gansja mxolod adamianuri Tvisebaa. sazogadoeba ver acnobierebs, ramdenad mniSvnelovania aseTi TavSesafrebis arseboba. araerTxel gamigia _ `ra dros ZaRlia, ager manqana ver gamikeTebia ukve karga xania~ an `rad unda amdeni movla, puri miugde da egec eyofa, ZaRlia, adamiani xom ara~ uamrav `Cvenebur~ arguments gavixsenebdi am prob- publicistika 169 lemis misaCqmalad rom aris gamiznuli. Tumca, sabraloa adamiani, romelsac ar SeuZlia im emociebiT gailamazos sicocxle, romlebsac Cveni oTxfexa megobrebi gvCuqnian. maT xom ar gaaCniaT is Tvisebebi, rasac adamis modgma daatarebs _ Suri, orpiroba, siZunwe. es uangaro, erTguli arsebebi xSirad droebiT gasarTob saSualebadac iqcevian xolme. unda gvaxsovdes, dabadebis dRis es saCuqari sayvareli pirmSosaTvis, cocxali arsebaa, romelsac dardi SeuZlia da namdvili cremlebiT tiris. xSirad minaxavs, rogor Zaladoben cxovelebze da es xdeba dRisiT, mzisiT, quCaSi. iSviaTad Tu Caereva gamvleli da gadaarCens pataras. sazogadoebis umravlesoba mSvidad reagirebs quCaSi mosiarule cxovelze da zogi Tvlis kidec, rom quCa maTi erTaderTi samyofelia. modiT, grZnobebs davexsnaT da pragmatulad SevxedoT am viTarebas. aris Tu ara usafrTxo adamianisTvis amdeni miusafari cxoveli garSemo. saTanado veterinaruli mkurnalobis gareSe, ramdeni daavadebis gadamtani SesaZloa gaxdes Tundac erTi, Cven maxloblad binadari oTxfexa, skverebSi, baRebSi, sadarbazoebsa da ezoebSi, iq sadac Tqveni patara atareben dros da romelic ZaRlis an katis mosafereblad aucileblad gaiSvers patara xels. vin daicavs maT savalalo Sedegisgan?! diax, Cven Tavad gavxdebiT Cveni gulgrilobis msxverpli, TviTonve CavigdebT Tavs safrTxeSi. nebismieri Sedegi mxolod Cveni brali iqneba imitom, rom 170 debiuti swored Cven gvevaleba uzrunvelyoT qveyanaSi TavSesafrebis funqcionireba, gvqondes urTierToba cxovelTa dacvis organizaciebTan, romlebic izruneben Cveni oTxfexa megobrebis usafrTxoebaze. manam ki, SeveSvaT sadRegrZeloebs adamianobaze, wuwuns samoqalaqo kulturaze. `Seifare~ _ es mowodeba Senc gekuTvnis. 171 publicistika levan gelaSvili ivane javaxiSvilis saxelobis Tbilisis saxelmwifo universiteti vefxistyaosani da kino `vefxistyaosani~ yvela epoqaSi aqtualuri iyo. poemis zepirad codnis da kiTxvis tradicia, mziTvebSi gataneba, poemis gagrZelebaTa gagrZelebebi, romelic calke aRebuli, poemas bevrad aRemateba. `xalxuri vefxistyaosani~, avTandiloba Tu Sermadinoba, gadamwerebis Camatebebi _ es yvelaferi xalxis kulturulsocialur cxovrebaSi `vefxistyaosnis~ interaqtiul _ TamaSobriv monawileobas gamoxatavda. poema aramxolod literaturul, aramed sazogadoebriv cxovrebaSic ayalibebda gemovnebas, msoflmxedvelobas da rTul viTarebaSi zogjer komunikaciisa da mimoweris yvelaze saimedo saSualebac iyo. omis dros, cenzuris pirobebSi, mimowerisas saTqmelis dasaSifrad xSirad poemis teqsts mimarTavdnen. 172 debiuti meoce saukuneSi literatura da kino cnobierad daukavSirda erTmaneTs. kino, romelic saxelovnebo dargebis gamocdilebis gamoyenebas cdilobda, TviTgamorkvevis periodSi ekranizaciebis xarjze ganviTarda. kino axali gamomsaxvelobiTi formebis ZiebaSi iyo, literatura ki, saukuneebis ganmavlobaSi mxatvrul aRqmaSi dagrovili yvela SesaZlo Txrobis teqnologias flobda. gasakviri ar aris, rom iseTi universaluri teqsti rogoric `vefxistyaosania~, am dialogis uSualo monawile iyo. SeiZleba iTqvas, rom `vefxistyaosani~ uSualod monawileobda qarTuli kinos dabadebaSi. 1900 wlidan mama-Svili diRmelovebi `jenmorisis~ fsevdonimiT saqarTvelos qalaqebSi gastrolebze gaemgzavrnen, sadac ziCis vefxistyaosnis ilustraciebs uCvenebdnen. rogorc maSindeli afiSebi ityobinebodnen: `bundovan suraTebad vefxistyaosnis sinematografia~. aRsaniSnavia, rom ocian wlebSi, maSin roca kinofilmi `xmebdamatebul~ munj kinod da `gaferadebul~ SavTeTr gamosaxulebad aRiqmeboda, kinos SesaZleblobebi `vefxistyaosnis~ magaliTze iyo axsnili, magaliTad Jurnali ,,xelovneba ‘ 1925 wels werda: `kino udidesi Tanamedrove eposia, Tqven erT saaTSi vefxistyaosnis gmirTan erTad, mTel arabeTs da indoeTs CamogarbeninebT, masTan erTad SegabrZolebT vefxvebs, aRelvebul zRvebSi SegacurebT da mere Tanamedrove evropis babilonisebur qalaqebSi gagaseirnebT~. qarTul kinos im periodSi did propagandas uwevda Salva dadiani. publicistika 173 dadians ekuTvnis `vefxistyaosnis~ scenari, masmiwermowera hqonda parizis kinofirmebTan Zmeb pateebTan poemis ekranizaciis Taobaze. 1917-1918 wlebSi Salva dadianma baqosa da TbilisSi ori moxseneba waikiTxa. pirveli moxseneba _ `qarTuli kinematografia anu qarTuli lenta~ man waikiTxa 1917 wlis 24 Tebervals, baqoSi mcxovreb qarTvelTa krebaze. Semdeg moxsenebiT gamovida TbilisSi, 1918 wlis 10 Tebervals. dadianma warmoadgina momavali `qarTuli kinematografiuli sazogadoebis~ wesdebis proeqti dasuraTebis gadaRebis gegma Tavisi xarjTaRricxviT. dadianis mier SemuSavebuli gegmis mixedviT, qarTuli kinos mesveurebs oTxi tipis filmi unda SeeqmnaT. misi azriT, upriani iqneboda, Tu Tamar mefis rols frangi msaxiobi sara bernari iTamaSebda. reJisorad ki Teatrisa da operis reJisors gordon kregis moiwvevdnen. dadianis energiul wamowyebas vefxistyaosnis ekranizaciis kuTxiT, konkretuli Sedegi ar mohyolia. 1920-ian wlebSi pirveli qarTveli prodiuseri germane gogitiZe germaniaSi Cavida. `berlinSi Sevxvdi cnobil reJisors da kinosuraT `nibelungebis~ damdgmels frinc langs. Sexvedris sababi gaxldaT SoTa rusTavelis ukvdavi nawarmoebis vefxistyaosnis~ Cven mier dagegmili dadgmis SesaZlebloba. aq saWiroa iTqvas, rom parizSi gamgzavrebamde, saxkomsabWos Tavjdomares eliavas, Cveni kinos did patriots, daebada azri vefxistyaosnis kinodadgmis Taobaze. man damavala am mizniT Sevxvedrodi frinc langs, gamecno misTvis, rac 174 debiuti SeiZleba swrafad, es nawarmoebi da SemeTavazebina misi dadgma. winaswar gamomerkvia am dadgmisTvis saWiro yvela materialuri winapiroba. me gamovxate Cemi uTanxmoeba da gamovTqvi mosazreba, rom aseTi didi nawarmoebis ekranze gadmotana ar unda yofiliyo gamarTlebuli, vinaidan arsebobs Txzulebebi, romlebic ekranizaciisaTvis aranairad ar gamodgebian _ am SemTxvevaSi, aseTia SoTas ukvdavi nawarmoebi. es Txzuleba, Cemi azriT, Tavis mSvenierebas unarCunebs filosofiuri Sairebis gamo. Tu ki am brZnul gamonaTqvamebs amoviRebT an kidev SevamoklebT nawarmoebi gafermkrTaldeba. kinos specifikuroba ki bevrs moiTxovs. axla ar msurs amis Taobaze meti visaubro, vinaidan Cemi Rrma rwmena dRemde ucvlelia. Cemi kinostudiidan wasvlis Semdeg ganzraxva, daedgaT qajeTis nawyveti S.rusTavelis nawarmoebidan, fiasko ganicada da amiT kidev erTxel damtkicda Cemi, vfiqrob, aramcdari Sexeduleba. me, ra Tqma unda, Salva zurabis Ze eliavas ar davuwye kamaTi. magram TiTqmis im drosve mxari damiWira sergo orjonikiZem, romelsac am Temaze azrebi gavuziare. berlinSi ki fric langs Sevxvdi da `vefxistyaosnis~ mokle Sinaarsi gavacani, man dadgmaze Tanxmoba ganacxada da moiTxova, rom gadaRebebze Tavisi asistenti, ori operatori da ori daaxloebuli piri wamoeyvana. roca Cven yvela es moTxovna valutaze gadaviangariSeT mniSvnelovani cifri miviReT. gamomSvidobebisas davpirdi winaswar molaparakeba gamemarTa Cvens mTavrobasTan da mecnobebina misTvis am sakiTxis saboloo gadaw- publicistika 175 yvetilebis Taobaze. me ki ar mjeroda, rom am suraTs ramenairi momavali SeiZleba hqonoda, amitom langis mier wamoyenebuli yvela winapiroba ganzrax ormagad gavarTule ise, rom TbilisSi Camosvlisas am fantastikur Canafiqrs mTeli amierkavkasiis valutac ar eyofoda _ ixsenebs Tavis mogonebebSi germane gogitiZe. `vefxistyaosnis~ ekranizaciis morigma talRam ase Caiara. magram win iyo poemis saiubileo TariRi da aTi wlis Semdeg, poemis ekranizaciasTan dakavSirebuli cieb-cxeleba isev ganaxlda. geronti qiqoZe Tavis wignSi `Tanamedrovis Canawerebi~ ixsenebs, rogor momwifda da Catarda rusTavelis iubiles idea: `1934 wels mweralTa pirvel sakavSiro yrilobas daveswari moskovSi. saqarTvelos delegacias malaqia toroSeliZe meTaurobda. is jer kidev Tbilisis seminariidan icnobda stalins. yrilobis dawyebamde erTi TviT adre misuliyo masTan da ekiTxa, ra xasiaTi mivce Cems moxsenebas, Zvel qarTul literaturaze vilaparako, Tu marto Tanamedrovezeo. _ rasakvirvelia, Zvelzec, _ upasuxa stalinma rusTavelzec, baraTaSvilzec, iliasa da akakizec, yvelaze, mxolod amaT garda: nestor kalandaZe, Salva SaraSiZe, vaJafSavela da aleqsandre yazbegi. amaTi xseneba aukrZala stalinma. qiqoZe wers, rom malaqia toroSeliZem yrilobaze waikiTxa vrceli moxseneba, romelic or saaTs gagrZelda. man ganacxada, rusTaveli ufro didi poeti iyo, vidre puSkini, riTac ukmayofileba gamoiwvia rus mwerlebSi; sanaxevrod aneqsia uyo `pepos~ avtors 176 debiuti gabriel sundukians... magram yvela darwmunebuli iyo, rom qarTveli momxseneblis ukan sabWoTa kavSiris beladi dgaso, da amitom veravin ver gabeda Tavisi ukmayofileba aSkarad gamoeTqva. beriam, rasakvirvelia, advilad Seatyo, rom stalins gansakuTrebiT pativmoyvareobis demoni qenjnida. am demons Seewira mravali qarTveli mwerlis, mecnieris da xelovanis adamianuri Rirsebis grZnoba~. 1938 wels rusTavelis 750 wlis iubilesadmi miZRvnili saiubileo komisia Seiqmna. bevr sxvadasxva RonisZebasTan erTad daigegma, rom qarTvel kinematografistebs daedgaT filmi `vefxistyaosnis~ mixedviT, risTvisac gamocxadda konkursi saukeTeso kinoscenarze. amave dros gadawyda, Seqmniliyo biografiuli filmi `SoTa rusTaveli~, romlis dadgma miandes reJisor leo esakias. azrs daekiTxnen profesor ivane javaxiSvils, romelic jer kidev 1922 wels ganaTlebis saxalxo komisariatis kinoseqciaSi, Salva dadianis iniciativiT Seqmnil saqarTvelos bunebis dayofis kinematografiulad gadamRebi sazogadoebis sainiciativo jgufis wevri iyo. am jgufSi Sediodnen :Salva dadiani, mxatvari dimitri SevardnaZe, mweralida sazogado moRvawe giorgi lasxiSvili. jgufis sapatiowevrad miwveuli iyo, rogorc ukve aRvniSneT, prof. ivane javaxiSvili. es wamowyebac, samwuxarod, ganuxorcielebeli darCa. saiubileod gadawyvites saxkinmrewvis kinofabrikis bazaze gadaeRoT `qajeTis cixis aReba~. es epizodi publicistika 177 sagangebod SearCies, rogorc yvelaze efeqturi sanaxaobrivi da eqspresiuli scena, romelic kulminaciuric iyo. am films unda gadaewyvita, SeZlebdnen Tu ara arsebuli resursebiT mTliani poemis ekranizacias. miqaberiZis mier warmodgenili scenaris literaturuli varianti `qajeTis cixis aReba~ saxkinmrewvis kinofabrikis samxatvro kolegiam 1935 wlis 2 ianvars ganixila. sami dRiT adre ki, 1934 wlis 30 dekembers, saxkinmrewvis direqtorTan gamarTul TaTbirze imsjeles l. esakias scenarze `SoTa rusTaveli~. arsebobs ivane javaxiSvilis sityviT gamosvlis stenografiuli angariSi, romelic man TaTbirze warmoTqva. ivane javaxiSvili biografiuli filmis gadaRebas ar miiCnevda SeuZleblad, magram aRniSna, rom es SesaZlebeli iqneboda ramdenime wlis Semdeg da ara axla, radgan bevri rame jer kidev gamoukvleveli iyo. ivane javaxiSvili vrclad msjelobs biografiuli filmis gadaRebis sirTuleebze, rac Seexeba mxatvrul ekranizacias, amas dasaSvebad miiCnevda da dasZenda, rom mciredi gadaxvevebic SesaZlebelia, radgan es mxatvruli teqstis ekranizaciaa. ,,vefxistyaosnis” ekranizaciis sakiTxSi javaxiSvilis azrs iziarebdnen saxkinmrewvis samxatvro kolegiis wevrebi, romlebic k. miqaberiZis scenaris `qajeTis cixis aRebis~ gansaxilvelad Seikribnen. sxdomas eswrebodnen: saxkinmrewvis kinofabrikis direqtori mixeil kalatoziSvili, gamoCenili mwerali da sazogado moRvawe geronti qiqoZe, sayovelTaod cnobili ungreli ki- 178 debiuti noTeoretikosi bela balaSi. kinoreJisorebi: nikoloz Sengelaia, daviT rondeli da leo esakia, kinodramaturgi giorgi mdivani, xelovnebaTmcodne profesori vladimer elsneri da sxvebi. ivane javaxiSvili am saxkinmrewvis mxatvruli kolegiis wevri ar yofila da sxdomas ar daswrebia, magram rogorc kote miqaberiZe wers, scenars icnobda da ar dauwunebia, arc poemidan zogierT gadaxvevaze ganucxadebia sawinaaRmdego mosazreba. gansakuTrebiT saiteresoa bela balaSis azri, romelsac, marTalia, poemis Rrma codna ar hqonda, magram artur laistiseuli germanuli Targmanis saSualebiT icnobda `vefxistyaosans~. misi mosazrebebi emTxveva javaxiSvilis mosazrebebs. aRsaniSnavia, rom analogiuri azri gamoTqva mogvianebiT cnobilma frangma sazogado moRvawem da gamoCenilma xelovanma pier vormsmac. romelic kinostudiaSi film `qajeTis cixis aRebis~ gadaRebas daeswro da Jurnal `sabWoTa xelovneba~-Si vrceli werili gamoaqveyna, rogorc studiis sxva filmebze, aseve qajeTis aRebazec. rogorc Cans, ivane javaxiSvilis mosazreba gaiTvaliswines da warmoebaSi ar CauSves rusTavelis Sesaxeb biografiuli filmi, xolo mxatvruli filmis `qajeTis~ gadaRebas win konkursi uZRvoda; saukeTeso scenaris avtorisaTvis soliduri fuladi jildoc iyo dawesebuli. arsebobs akaki beliaSvilis daskvna `vefxistyaosnis~ scenaris Sesaxeb, romelic vrclad msjelobs mis dadebiT da uaryofiT mxareebze. sabolood filmis gadaReba kote miqaberiZes daevala. filmSi triukebis dasadgmelad moiwvies i.nikitCenko, publicistika 179 romelmac `rva Tvis ganmavlobaSi gasaocari ucodinroba da sruli arakolegialoba gamoamJRavna, rac filmis warmoebis vadebis gawevisa da zednadebi xarjebis gazrdis mTavari mizezi gaxda~. konkretulad am filmis Sesaxeb saarqivo masalebi, SemoqmedebiTi biografia da filmografia moZiebulia da winasityvaobis saxiT aris warmodgenili 2017 wels gamocemul soso dumbaZis da nino ZanZavas araCveulebriv wignSi `kote miqaberiZe~. `qajeTi~ mravalmxriv sayuradRebo filmia. rogorc kote miqaberiZe wers, qarTul kinematografiaSi pirvelad iqna gamoyenebuli specialuri kombinirebuli gadaRebebi, romelic ganaxorciela cnobilma operatorma diRmelovma. `imdroindeli kinomrewvelobis saxgaerTianebis direqtori ambrosi TiTberiZe aRniSnavs, rom beria araerTxel naxulobda filmis `qajeTi~ yvela nawils _ suraTis saboloo Cabarebamde~. 1953 wlis 10 ivniss kote miqaberiZe Tavis dRiurSi exmaureba lavrenti berias datyvevebas da gansjis mas, rogorc qveynis `moRalates~, sityvebiT: `sircxvili~, `sircxvili~. 1936 wliT daTariRebul ,,qajeTis” ganxilvis stenogramaSi moskovis kinos saxlSi gamarTuli ganxilvis erT-erTi monawile oslaniani, aRniSnavs: Tuki `Cven SevadarebT film `nibelungebs~ davinaxavT, rom Cveni suraTi erTi nabijiT winaa da momavalSic vaCvenebT, rom kinoxelovnebis mxriv, ostatobis mxriv, ukve davewieT da gavuswariT sazRvargareTul kinematografias~. rusTavelze biografiuli filmi ivane javaxiSvilis sicocxleSi ar gadauRiaT. 1966 wels gamovida ekranebze guram pat- 180 debiuti araias dokumenturi filmi `rusTavelis nakvalevze~. vefxistyaosnis da kinos urTierTobis erTi etapi amiT dasrulda. didi da seriozuli proeqti saxelisuflebo Zalebis CarTulobiT dRemde ar ganxorcielebula, Tu ar CavTvliT, ,,vefxistyaosnis” Treilers, romelic srulmetraJianis gadasaRebad gakeTda ramdenime wlis win, magram filmi ar gadauRiaT. kinomcodne dodona kiziria msjelobs kinoxelovnebis orgvari xasiaTis gavlenaze; erTi aris literaturaSi modelirebuli kinoTxrobis meTodebi; meore, mkiTxvelis kinos gavlenis Sedegad literaturuli Txrobis fsiqologiuri aRqma. dodona kiziria yuradRebas amaxvilebs garemoebaze, rom im periodis mayureblisTvis, rodesac kino xelovnebad yalibdeboda, misi ori Tavisebureba gansakuTrebiT TvalSisacemi iyo: montaJi da rogorc maSin uwodebdnen, kinogamosaxulebis nivTobrioba, an sagnobrioba. igive SeiZleba iTqvas nivTobriv, anu sagnebis vizualur Sedarebebze, romlebic kinos arsebobaze adre Seiqmna, Tumca Zalze iSviaTi iyo. amis saintereso magaliTad d.kizirias SoTa rusTavelis erTi striqoni mohyavs:`...Semomxveodnen jalabni viTa Camsxdomni navisa~. `aq jer gulwasuli da Semdeg mosulierebuli tarieli xedavs, rom mas `jalabni~ Semoxvevian da welSi moxrilni dasqerian mas. am Sedarebis sizustes advilad gaviazrebT, Tu aRweril situacias vizualurad warmovidgenT. miwaze gaSotil adamians Semoxveuli xalxi ise arian waxrili, rogorc navSi Casajdomad momzadebuli adamianebi iqnebodnen. publicistika 181 aq xedvis kuTxec SegviZlia davinaxoT _ qvevidan zeviT, vinaidan mwoliare tarieli mxolod amgvarad dainaxavda maT~ _ wers kinomcodne dodona kiziria. levan gigineiSvili `vefxistyaosanSi~ farsadanis karze gaTamaSebul politikur avantiuras nestanis gaTxovebas da xvarazmSasTan mcire razmiT Sevardnas sainteresod ganixilavs rogorc kinoscenars da kinomovlenebs. `vefxistyaosnis~ da kinos `dialogi~ vrceli sakiTxia, poemaSi kinonarativis pasaJebi e. w. TvaliT dasanaxi Txrobis Taviseburebebi uaRresad mniSvnelovania, rac calke werilis Temaa. 182 debiuti nana melqaZe, `vardebi~, tilo, zeTi. Tbilisis saxelmwifo samxatvro akademia 183 Targmanebi giorgi kaxiSvili qali komediografosTa fragmentebSi evbulosi. fr. 115. `qrisila~ boroteulad daiRupos boroteuli, romelmac qalze iqorwina, rigiT meorem. pirvelze cudi ar damcdeba, rameTu vfiqrob, ar ugemnia qorwinebis Wirnaxuloba. diado zevso, dReis Semdeg gana qalebze damcdeba sityva saaugo?! ara, vficav zevss, am SemTxvevaSi, albaT, myisve daviRupebi! saganZurTagan uaRresni! Tuki medea ukeTurobda, penelope iyo simdidre! vinc klitenmestras borotebis Zalas aRniSnavs, mas movagoneb alkestisis uWknob sikeTes. mavani fedras ganaqiqebs samarTlianad? sanacvlod, vficav, rom keTili iyo... vin iyo?! vin iyo mainc?! vai, Cemo Tavo, sabralo! 184 debiuti rogor uecrad dailivnen kargi qalebi, roca cudTagan bevri damrCa saxsenebeli... susarioni. fr.1 ismineT, xalxno, ase ambobs susarioni, filinusis Ze, megareli, tripodiskidan: borotebaa qali, Tanademoselebo da uborotod ver iqmneba qveynad ojaxi. ucoloba da coli erTi borotebaa. menandrosi. fr. 236. `qalTmoZule~ am saqmis mimarT Zalzed cudi winaTrgZnoba maqvs. Sen uxeirod miudeqi, radganac masSi sanerviulos xedav mxolod, kargs ki ver amCnev. iseT sikeTes ver poulob, simulos, kvalad raime saxis borotebac rom ar erTvodes. coli, Cveuli fufunebas, damTrgunvelia; qmars rodi acdis, rom icxovros survilisamebr, magram sikeTec xSirad axlavs: me Svils vgulisxmob, qmris samsaxurs da zrunvas mZime salmobebisas, warumatebel Jams meuRlis mxris gamagrebas da daRupulis Sesaferi saxiT dakrZalvas. yoveldRiuri sazrunavi Tu gagawbilebs, ase ganWvrite es saqme da marjved daiTmen. daitanjebi Tu mudmivi damwuxrebis wil ar daukvirdi mosalodnel mraval sargebels. Targmanebi menandrosi. fr 804. daudgeneli piesa mxsneli zevsisgan qorwineba aseTi gvmarTebs yvelas, Tuki gvsurs movipovoT ram sargebeli: nuravin moCxrekT usargeblo ambebs: patarZlis papa vin iyo, an vin iyo misi bebia _ gmarTebs patarZlis zne moCxriko Sesaferisad, visTan erTadac unda ganvlo wuTisofeli. mziTvs magidisken nu waiReb, raTa gaigo oqro, romelic Sin xuT Tvesac ar gaCerdeba, ramdenad aris mSvenieri. magram icode, vinc mudam saxlSi geyoleba, Sesaferisad Tu ar gamoscdi, Seeyrebi ficxs da ugunurs, mis rTul xasiaTs zed daerTos egeb ybedobac. Camovatareb Cems qaliSvils mTeli qalaqis gaswvriv da SerTvis msurvelebi gaesaubreT, win-win mozomeT, ra gansacdels gadaeyrebiT. Tavad qali xom uciloblad borotebaa da netaria nakleb avi qalis momyvani. 185 186 debiuti daviT esaTia kavkasiis universiteti menSevikebi saqarTveloSi osip mandelStami 1. oranJerea. qalaqi _ kolibri. palmebis, malariisa da nazi iaponuri gorakebis qalaqi. qalaqi, damsgavsebuli nebismieri kolonialuri evropis kvartals, zafxulSi savse moskitebiT, zamTarSi ki axali mandarinis naWrebis SemomTavazeblebiT. baTumi, 20-iani wlebis agvisto. maRaziebi da duqnebi daketili. sadResaswaulo simSvide. TeTri kolonialuri saxlebi morTulia wiTeli droSebiT. portSi ori aTeuli usaqmuri mayurebeli Seviwroebulia administraciisa da policiis mier. reidze iryeva da qanaobs giganti `loid triestino~ konstantinopolidan. mecenati qalbatonebi, wiTeli Targmanebi 187 vardebis TaiguliT da ramdenime pativcemuli jentlmeni sxdebian Zravian katerSi da miiswrafvian samsarTuliani sasaxlisken. dRes meduqneebsa da kviris burJuas ergebaT pativi naxon TviT kautski. da ai, kateric ukan morbis: da xis xidze Cndebian `namdvili evropuli socializmis~ momRimari beladebi. cilindrebi. TvalismomWreli samodelo kabebi da uamravi, uamravi teniani, mTrTolvare wiTeli vardi. TiToeul stumars, faqizad, rogorc bambis yuTSi, ise svamen manqanaSi da acileben SeZaxilebiT. erT-erT delegats arainformirebuli brbo sanapiroze xvdeba, rogorc kautskis _ magram irkveva, rom Secdomaa da imedgacrueba: kautski SeuZlod gaxda, kautski Zalian wuxs, mokiTxvas uTvlis _ mosvlas ver axerxebs. aqve JRers meore versiac: qarTuli xelisuflebis nametanma flirtma antantasTan Seuracxyo kautskis germanuli grZnobebi. germania mainc axal Wrilobebs iSuSebda... samagierod Camovida vandervelde. isini ukve profkavSiris `Sromis sasaxlis~ balkonze idgnen. vandervelde sityviT gamodis. me arasodes damaviwydeba misi sityvebi. es iyo namdvili nimuSi oficialuri, pompezuri da carieli, komikuri Tavissave safuZvelSi, mWermetyvelobisa. me gamaxsenda floberi, madam bovari da sasoflosameurneo departamentuli dResaswauli, prefeqturis klasikuri mWermetyveleba, floberis warmoTqmul im provinciul sityvaSi, romelSic igrZnoboda xmis Teatralur awev-daweva. Tavissave deklamaciaze Seyvare- 188 debiuti buli burJua _ yvela, rogorc erTi, grZnobda, rom maT winaSea burJua, romelic ambobda: me bednieri var vimyofebode namdvil socialistur respublikaSi. me mzaravs (farTo Jesti) es droSebi, es daketili maRaziebi, uprecedento sanaxaoba socialisturi delegaciis CamosvlisaTvis. _ Tqven gaxadeT civilizebuli aziis es kuTxe (aq daetyo frang burJuas zedapiruli ucodinroba da uZvelesi, saukunovani tradiciebisadmi gulgriloba). Tqven aqcieT is momavlis kunZulad. mTeli msoflios mzera momarTulia Cveni erTaderTi socialisturi gamocdilebisken. 2. vandervaldes Camosvlamde, erTi kviriT adre baTumSi Camovida sxva gemi. konstantinopolidan ki ara, aramed feodosiidan _ patara, brtyelZiriani, Sav zRvaSi arausafrTxo azovis barJa, gembanis mgzavrebiT, romelic gzaze Svidi dRe imyofeboda. am gemiT Camovidnen yirimis devnilebi. ifigenias samSoblo dasustda jariskacis Ceqmis qveS da me momiwia meyurebina sayvareli, mSrali, gabrwyinebuli feodosiis gorakisTvis, kimeriuli mTa-gorisTvis cixis fanjridan da meseirna gadabugul ezoSi, sadac ikribebodnen SeSinebuli ebraelebi. isini usmendnen jariskacebis velur Rrials, romlebic Tavis sardals egebebodnen. am dros saqarTvelo iyo erTaderTi sasunTqi wyaro yirimisTvis, erTaderTi gza ruseTisken. kontrdazverva Targmanebi 189 saqarTvelosTvis SedarebiT martivad gascemda vizebs. kavSiri menSevikebsa da vrangelis kontrdazvervistebs Soris mWidrod iyo. saqarTveloSi ki uSvebdnen imisaTvis, rom enaxaT, rogor da saiT gaeqaneba is, Semdeg ki da isev ukan yuTSi Cayridnen. Svidi dRe Relavda SemWidrovebuli, cisferi talRebiT savse zRva. CoxebSi gamowyobili daRestnelebi ioanes vortze gvepatiJebodnen. namdvilad kargia cixidan pirdapir gemze gadasvla, didi sivrciTa da datenianebuli, xaliCiani iatakiT. gasasvlelebTan gxvdeba studenti, uflebamosilebebiT savse. gamaxsenda aznaurebis Sekrebebze kavkasiuri wveulebebis instruqtorebi. _ Tqveni pasporti, Tqvenic, Tqvenic. miiReT sam dReSi. ubralo formaloba. _ ratom yvelas ara? _ formaloba. daRestanelebi CoxebSi almacerad iyurebian. qalaqSi gafrTxileben: nu ivliT sabWoTa misiiT _ gipovian da dagiWeren. nu vivliT. wavideT TbilisSi, mainc dedaqalaqia. qalaqi cxovrobs sanetaro mexsierebiT ingliselebze. Svidi wlis bavSvebma liris kursi ician. yvela profesia da saqmianoba didi xania meorexarisxovani gaxda. adamianis erTaderT qonebad iTvleba vaWroba, ufro zustad ki sargeblis amoReba cxeli, kaliforniuli, malariuli haeridan. menSevikuri baTumi iyo cudi qarTuli qalaqi. maRali aWarlebi, qalis TavSalSi gamoxveuli mkvidri mosaxleoba Seadgens wvrilmanebiT vaWrobis dabal safexurs bazarze. mravaltomiani xalxi gaiTqvifa da 190 debiuti gadaiqca megobrul movaWre erad. yvela _ qarTvelebi, somxebi, berZnebi, sparselebi, ingliselebi, italielebi _ saubrobdnen rusulad. veluri volapiuki, Savi zRvis rusuli esperanto daqris haerSi. 3. sami dRis Semdeg, rac Camovedi, me SemTxveviT gavicani baTumis samxedro gubernatori. Cven mogviwia Semdegi saubari. _ saidan CamoxvediT? _ yirimidan. _ CvenTan Camosvla ar SeiZleba. _ ratom? _ Cven cota puri gvaqvs. _ moulodnelad mixsnis: _ CvenTan ise kargia, rom Tuki nebas davrTavT, yvela CvenTan Camova. es gamaogneblad gulubryvilo, klasikuri fraza Rrmad CaibeWda Cems mexsierebaSi. patara `damoukidebel~ saxelmwifos, gazrdils sxvis sisxlze, undoda usisxlo yofiliyo. is imedovnebda sufTad da warmatebiT Sesuliyo istoriaSi, SekumSuli mrisxane ZalebiT, gamxdariyo raRac axali, rogorc Sveicaria, neitraluri da dabadebidanve `udanaSaulo~ miwis nagleji. _ Tqven mogiwevT ukan dabruneba. _ magram me ar minda aq darCena, me moskovSi mivdivar. _ sulerTia. Cven aseTi wesrigi gvaqvs. yvela midis iqiT, saidanac Camovida. audiencia dasrulebulia. saubris dros oTaxSi daqrodnen muqi adamianebi da xarbad, gaSmagebiT TiT- Targmanebi 191 iTs iSverdnen Cemsken, raRacaSi arwmunebdnen gubernators. gaugebari sityvebis nusxaSi ikveTeboda erTi: bolSeviki. adamianebi wvanan iatakze. mWidrod, rogorc saqaTmeSi. samxedro tyve, avstrieli mezRvauri qerCidan, adamiani, romelic gaufrTxileblad Sevida rusul armiaSi, burJua konstantinopolidan, eqscentruli axalgazrda Turqi, romelic fxekda iataks kbilis saxexiT, TeTri oficeri, romelic ganjidan gamoiqca. oficers giraoTi franguli misia exmareba. Turqs wixlebiT gareT agdeben. danarCenebi yirimSi. Cven bevrni varT. arafers gvaWmeven, rogorc aRmosavleTis cixeSi. ramodenimes fulic aqvs. badragi kmayofili darbis purze da yurZenze. iReba kari da mowiTalo, maRal meduqnes langriT sparsuli Caic Semoaqvs. vkiTxulob amokawrul warwerebs, erTi damamaxsovrda: `Мы бандитов не боимся пытки, ловко фабрикуем Жордания кредитки~. erTs uSveben. is sulelurad isev sabWoTa misiaSi Sedis da meore dRes ukanve brundeba. es farss waagavs, raRacnair patara operas, `operetas~. xumrobiTa da cekva-TamaSiT xalxs uSveben iqeT, sadac maT moklaven, radgan yirimis kontrdazvervisTvis qarTuli gaZeveba _ umaRlesi samxili, namdvili daRia. me qalaqSi purze gavedi megzur-badragTan erTad. mas Cigua erqva. me misi saxeli damamaxsovrda, radgan gadamarCina. man miTxra: _Cven ori saaTi gvaqvs dro, SeiZleba vibodialoT, wavideT sadac ginda. _ da idumalad daamata: _me miyvars bolSevikebi. SesaZloa, Sen bolSeviki xar? 192 debiuti me, CamofleTili katorRis ieriT, daglejili SarvliT, xolo badragi ki -TofiT davdiodiT saTamaSoebis quCebSi, orkestriani kafeebis, italiuri kantorebis gaswvriv. Zlieri Turquli yavis suni igrZnoboda, sardafebidan ki Rvino gizidavda. roca Cven iq SevixedavdiT xolme, panikas viwvevdiT, redaqciaSi, profkavSirebSi, vakakunebdiT mSvidobian saxlebSi fantastiur misamarTebze. Cven gvaZevebdnen, magram Ciguam icoda, saiT mivyavdi. viRac kacma gaielva tipografiaSi da telefoniT dareka. is urekavda samoqalaqo generalgubernators. brZaneba: dauyovnebliv gamocxadeba badragTan erTad. Zveli social-demokrati darcxvenilia. is gvibodiSebs. samxedro Zala moqmedebs samoqalaqosgan damoukideblad. Cven arafris gakeTeba ar SegviZlia. me Tavisufali var. SemiZlia inglisuri Tambaqo movwio da moskovSi wavide. gamoxda baTumi- Tbilisi. biWebi da gogonebi kalaTebiT yidian yurZens _ izabellas _ mkvrivsa da mZimes, rogorc TviTon Ramis mtevani. vagonSi koniaks svamen. piknikisa da sixarulis devnis gacxelebuli atmosferoa. vandervelde megobrebTan erTad ukve TbilisSia. wiTeli droSebi saxlebsa da avtobobilebze. Tbilisi, rogorc kurdReli konstantinopolis Zafze tokavs. is iqca konstantinopolis birJis ganyofilebad. didi rusuli gazeTebi savsea gulkeTilobiTa da rbili tolerantobiT, `rusuli sityvis~ sunia, meTormete weli, TiTqos araferic ar momxdara, TiTqos revolucia ki ara, msoflio omic ar yofila. Targmanebi 193 baTumi mTeli baTumi, rogorc xelis gulzea. ar igrZnoba manZili- daboloeba. mirbixar masSi, rogorc oTaxSi: amasTanave, haeri mudam orTqliani, rogorc oTaxis. am patara, TiTqmis saTamaSo qalaqis meqanizmi, aRmavali Cveni drois pirobebiT rusuli spekulatiuri kaliforniis simaRleze, uCveulod martivia. aris erTi detali _ Turquli lira: kursi icvleba, albaT RamiT, roca yvelas sZinavs, radgan diliT mcxovreblebi iRviZeben ukve liris axali kursiT da aravin icis, es rogor xdeba. lira yvela baTumelis sisxlSi pulsirebs, xolo mis kurss ki aJRereben mefunTuSeebi. eseni mSvidi, Tavaziani, sasiamovno Turqebi arian, romlebic Zalian sufTa da axali amerikuli xorbliT damzadebul tradiciul SoTs yidian. diliT puri aTia, dRisiT Tormeti, saRamos- Tvrameti, xolo meore diliT ki- ratomRac Tormeti. mosaxleobas aranairi saqmianoba ar aqvs. adamianis bunebriv mdgomareobad iTvleba vaWroba. adgilobrivebis fonze mkveTrad gamoirCevian sabWoTa muSakebi, liris uqonlobiTa da Savi purTan SexebiT, romelsac namdvili baTumeli TvaliTac ki verasodes dainaxavs. baTumis spekularuli ierarqiac aseve naTeli da martivia. sistemis centrSi dgas aTobiT msxvili ucxouri firma, romlebic bavSvisTvisac ki cnobilia da garSemotymulia saucxoo pativiscemiT- valacii, lloid triestina, sago, sala, bitali, kamxi da a.S. 194 debiuti Tumca saucxoo pativiscema ar uSliT sicocxlismoyvarul ucxoelebs, Casuqebulebs, moxdenilebsa da momrgvalebulebs, sxvebTan erTad iseirnon berZnul quCebSi Senobidan Senobamde, maRaziidan maRaziamde ise, rom ijadoqron wminda valutaze. zamTari araa. mandarinis movaWreebi, dasvrili biWunebi baklavebiTa da kenkriT yovel nabijzea. cotaTi damTbari, nazi cisferi zRva sayvarlad liclicebs mravalsarTuliani korpusis `franca-ferdidandis~ garSemo (axlaxans konstantinopolidan) _ mravalpalubiani okeanis sastumro, sadac kristalurad TrTis tabel d’hote. axalgazrda konstantinopoleli komersantebi kaSkaSa-yviTel waRebSi, qarvis krialosans aTamaSeben da sanapiroze daqrian. bzinvarebis miuxedavad, isini raRaciT evropul tansacmelSi gadacmul zangebs mogvanan da kidev ufro metad- ekzotikur Semsruleblebs, odesRac gajaxirebul maTTvis damaxasiaTebel scenaze. yvela duqnis kari sanapiroze Riaa. aq myudro naxevradsibneleSi mniSvnelovnad saubroben msuqani da apaTiuri sparselebi, TavianTi tvirTis simZimiT TiTqmis gaWyletilebi_ manufaqturebi, Saqari, saponi, fexsacmlebi. mwuxarebas miiRebT, Tu moifiqrebT erT-erT aseT duqanSi Sesvlas da ramis morgebas. SecdomiT SeuZliaT mogyidon miliardis saqoneli _ yvelaferi es sabiTumoa. baTumSi mefobs erTi ena _ rusuli, yvelaze xnieri ucxoelebic ki mesame dRes rusulad iwyeben saubars. Targmanebi 195 es kidev ufro sasaciloa, radgan baTumSi rusebi TiTqmis ar arian, albaT qarTvelebic bevrni ar arian _ qalaqi erovnebis gareSe _ simdidris devnaSi xalxma is dakarga. ai, SemTxveva, romelic baTumis ruseTisgan gankerZoebulobas asaxavs, _ yvelaze did adgilobriv kinematografiaSi gadis italiuri filmi rusuli cxovrebidan: `vanda varenina~ (marto saxeli rad Rirs). am gamaognebel scenarSi rusi qalebi, rogorc Turqebi, dadian Savi ridiT da ixsnian mas mxolod oTaxSi, rusi Tavadebi dadian saopero kostiumebSi `cxovreba mefisTvis~-dan, seirnoben inglisur etlSi Sebmuli `troikiT~, Tanac marxilebi waagavs skandinaviuri vikingebis rTul gemebs. me viyavi am warmodgenaze, _ aravin gadavsebul darbazSi ar icinoda da aravis araferi ukvirda. yvelas, rogorc Cans, egona, rom es bunebrivia da mxolod maSin, rodesac italiurma kinom aCvena rusuli jvriswera eklesiaSi, rogor Semoiyvanes axalgazrdebi uzarmazari gvirgvinebiT, mcirericxovanma wiTelarmielebma ver moiTmines da buzRuni daiwyes. baTumisTvis sagangebod damaxasiaTebelia yirimidan emigracia. yirimi axla dasustda, iq datrialeba Zalian rTulia, da ai, yovel axal `pestelis~ reiss baTumSi emigrantebis axali partia Camohyavs feodosiidan, ialtidan da sevastopolidan. Tavidan isini berZnul quCebSi Tavdaujereblad seirnoben, rogorc gaputuli wiwilebi, magram gadis ramodenime dRe, isini imosebian da xdebian Tavisufali qalaqis sruluflebiani mo- 196 debiuti qalaqeebi. ucxoels, romlis stumrobac sabWoTa federaciaSi baTumiT Semoifargleba, uyalibdeba Zalze ucnauri STabeWdileba, magram CvenTvis savsebiT sakmarisia baTumi imisaTvis, rom vimsjeloT konstantinopolis brwyinvalebaze. baTumSi aravin uCivis mZime droebas da mxolod erTi wvrilmani gvaxsenebs imas, rom arseboben adamianebi lirebis gareSe _ es uricxvi plakatia, romliTac morTulia TiToeuli maRazia, TiToeuli patara duqani: `krediti aravis~, `aravis krediti~ da `kreditebi ,,aravisTvis~ _ sxvadasxva orTografiiT. Tumca namdvili vaWroba kreditis gareSe SeuZlebelia da sinamdvileSi sakmarisia sadme papirosis yuTi aiRo, rom meore dRes meore yuTi kreditad miiRo. erT saporto duqanSi me vamCnevdi mepatroneebs, romlebic imdenad mTvralebi iyvnen, rom ugonod ecemodnen. naklebad savaraudoa, maTi `boloebi boloebSi emTxveodnen~. es yvelaferi liris msaxurebaa, magram baTums aqvs ufro maRali saWiroebebic sulierebisTvis. marinis quCaze aris wre `xms~ _ `xelovnebis muSakTa sazogadoeba~. aq imarTeba sasacilo, makulaturul mxatvarTa gamofenebi, romlis naxatebic sabiTumod miaqvT Camosul berZnebs, xolo adgilobrivi esTetebi da snobebi gadi-gamodian moxatuli oleografebis qveS ise, rom Tavi vernisaJze hgoniaT. aqve qalbatonebi am dargis specialistebis xelmZRvanelobiT swavloben simRe- Targmanebi 197 ras, musikas da plastikas. baTumSi poetebic arian, romelTa daxvewilobaze ukeTesi rTuli warmosadgenia. qalaqs gamudmebiT ar akldeba Sarlatanebis _ `profesorebisa da leqtorebis~ TareSi. erT-erTma maTganma iuda iskariotelis sasamarTlo gamarTa musikis TanxlebiT, Tanac afiSaze TviTneburad gamoacxada revtribunalis monawileobaze, ris gamoc sasamarTlos gadasces. yoveldRiurad, SabaTobiT qalaqi gaxveulia samxedro musikis hangebSi, samoqalaqo SekrebebSi, es aris qeifi mTeli RamiT, morigi saqvelmoqmedo saRamo ebi mSivrebis sasikeTod, loto, amerikuli auqcioni da sxva amdagvari mSveniereba. aq miliardebi rCeba. Tu saRamo (wveuleba) qarTulia _ erTi wuTiTac ki ar Cerdeba sazandarelebis hipnozuri musika, romlebic dadian magididan magidasTan, sanam vinme moqeifeebidan civad ar adgeba da lezginkas ar dascxebs aRmafrTovanebeli, gulisgamgmiravi akompanimentis TanxlebiT. ra aris axlandeli baTumi: Tavisufali savaWro qalaqi, kalifornia _ oqrosmaZiebelTa samoTxe, mtaceblobisa da tyuilis binZuri qvabi, sabWoTa qveynis saeWvo fanjara evropaSi, Tvalwarmtaci naxevradaRmosavluri xmelTaSua porti Turquli kafeebiT, Tavaziani vaWrebiTa da rusi movaWre mezRvaurebiT, romlebic tkepnian mis velur niadags iseve udardelad, rogorc tkepnidnen Sanxaisa da san-franciskos niadags? gvemaxsovreba, rom Tanamedrove baTumis haeri _ mziani, teniani da arajansaRi _ gaJRenTilia upativcemlobiT momavali proletaruli ruseTisadmi, misi mSeneblo- 198 debiuti bisadmi, misi moraluri ierisadmi, misi tanjvisadmi. baTumis komerciuli sargeblianobac gazviadebulia. baTumis sawyobebSi dayrili saqonlis gorebi, Tu gavaanalizebT (gavarCevT) _ uxamsi ZonZebia, romelic adre kolonialuri qveynebisa da velurebisTvis iyo gankuTvnili. Cveni slogani aseTi unda iyos: rac SeiZleba male gavTavisufldeT baTumis hegemoniisgan, imisaTvis, rom marilianma zRvis haerma gagvinaTos Cveni mSromeli saxli, odesis, novorosiiskis, sevastopolis, peterburgis jansaRi navsadgurebis farTo fanjrebidan, sadac karg drosaa gamofenili pirveli CarCo. baTumi wvima, wvima, wvima _ es niSnavs: SeuZlebelia gaxvide quCaSi. SeiZleba wvimdes xvalac da zegac: zamTris wvima baTumSi _ es grandiozuli Tbili Sxapia ramodenime kviriT. aravis misi ar eSinia da Tu saqme moiTxovs, yoveli baTumeli aseT TavsxmaSi, rodesac noesac ki SeeSindeboda kidobnidan Tavis gamoyofis, wava sadac surs. ai, miiCqaris `centrosabWoeli~ movaleobis Sesasruleblad Tavis mSobliur centrosabWoSi monadiris fexsacmliT _ bolo kooperatiuli gacemisTvis. is foniT Tamamad gadadis yvelaze saSiS adgilebs da specialuradac ki arCevs iq, sadac ufro Rrmaa. centrosabWo garedan yvavis. patara sufTa sasax- Targmanebi 199 leSi wiwvebian zRvispira bulvarTan, oleandrebTan da palmebTan, swored im saxlSi, sadac _ uaxlesi gadmocemiT _ amerikelebs samxedro sasamarTlo hqondaT, dilidan saRamomde duRs samuSao. dilauTenia dauRalavi TanamSromlebi wyalgaumtari mosasxamebiTa da makintoSebiT mosaven avtomobilebs Caqvis Cais plantaciebisa da mamulebis dasaTvaliereblad. dilauTenia misaRebSi ucxoeli vaWrebi saubroben, romlebic TiTqos kravebiviT miyavT adgilobriv komersantebs satanjvelad (yovelTvis SeiZleba gaarCio vin miyavT da vis miyavs) da didi pirferobiT Sedian administratoris kabinetSi, sadac xvdebaT basri da SorsmWvreteli bibliuri solomonis mosamarTle an yadi `aTas erTi Ramidan~. _ Cven _ `sazogadoebrivi vaWrebi~, _ siamayiT amboben baTumeli kooperatorebi. _ Cven arc gvcxela, arc gvciva `centrosabWosgan~, _ amtkicebs ubralo adgilobrivi. magram adgilobrivi iTxovs wiwkanas xelebSi, mas axlave unda rame SelSesaxebi. amasobaSi ,,centrosabWo” rom ara, mWidrod dakavSirebuli ,,vneStorgTan”, ar iqneboda aranairi Sekaveba, aranairi sammarTvelo ucxoel mtaceblebze, romlebic aq pouloben Tavisi gaumaZRrobisa da avroritetis mogeriebas, romlis winaSec Tavi unda moixaron. magram wvima maradiulad ar modis. TiTqos jadosnobiT, ise Sreba sufTa quCebi. baTumis wyaldidoba _ es gamdinare wylebis samefoa. wvimis Semdeg qalaqi mxolod gairecxa, ganaxlda. iwyeba zamTris gaseirnebebi 200 debiuti sanapiroze. ianvarSi xalxi sanapiros Tbil xreSze zis talRebTan axlos, magram ar banaobs. aq iwyeba Turquli kafeebis dResaswauli _ es mTeli qalaqis gulia: misi patara klubebi da birJebi. kafeSi bnela da dabolilia. aromatuli, mimzidveli aromati igrZnoba haerSi. siRrmeSi oqros naperwklebiT gizgizebs uqrobi mayali da masze spilenZis TefSebiT mepatronis mier mzaddeba RvTiuri sasmeli. Zalagamoclil mosamsaxures patara yavis finjnebi gadaaqvs, romlebsac civi wyliT savse Wiqebi uZRvis win. ai, megazeTe Semodis. mas gazeTebi yvela enaze aqvs momaragebuli. yvelas _ TavTavisi. xnieri pativcemuli Turqi yidulobs Turqul `komunist~-s da nel-nela ukiTxavs sxvebs. ras gaigebs is, vaWari da patriarqi, SeTavazebul axal swavlebaze? is Subls Sekravs, magram ar iRimis. rogorc misi xalxi, is kargad aRzrdilia da miCveulia pativi sces sxvis azrs. savaWro baTumSi yvelaze sasiamovno zustad savaWro saxlebia. maTSi sikoxtave da kulturaa, rac araa nedl italiur da sxva evropul firmebSi, sadac amaoeba da cudi veluri suli mefobs. aris erTi punqti, sadac aRmosavleTis vaWroba namdvilad ar uTanabrdeba evropuls: vaWroba ara mxolod gadamanawilebeli, aramed socialuri aparatia da aRmosavluri CveulebiT pativiscemas grZnob adamianis mimarT, romelsac ubralod ver gaatyaveb da fafasTan ver SeWam. binddeba, magram baTumi daZinebas ar apirebs. mari- Targmanebi 201 inskis quCaze gvian Ramemde moZraobs mudmivi sadResaswaulo zvavi; igrZnoba, rom yvelam am brboSi `gaakeTa saqme~ da axla ki Tavisi komerciuli daxvewilobis nayofs imkian. yuTebi da karebi brwyinvaled ganaTebulia xiliTa da samxreTis zamTris sixaruliT _ mandarinebiT. raRacnairi mewarme da dasvrili bavSvebi, lezginkis cekva-cekviT, gamvlelebs fexebSi uvardebian, romlebic Tavis mxriv, xurdebiT igerieben maT. brbo imdenad gamococxlebulia, rom misi mxiaruli da xmamaRali CoCqoli meoTxe sarTulamde aRwevs da Tqvens pirvel sizmars SehRaRadebs. am dros ki mTeli kvartlebi mkvdaria rogorc udabno. es specialuri daxlebis kvartlebia sanapiroze. mTeli quCebi, Camqrali sibneleSi, Tavxedurad daxurulia rkinis mZime, Camokiduli boqlomebiT. mxolod darajebi daxetialeben fxizeli JRaruniT, romlebic miliardebs icaven. sxvaTaSoris, rkinis saketebidan saidanRac sinaTle aRwevs da bevr daxlze cxovrobs. saqme imaSia, rom baTumSi binebi araa, `sacxovrebeli krizisia~. es martivad mowyobili oTaxebi ise miuwvdomelia, rom aravis TavSic ki ar mosdis maTi Zebna. Tu Camosuli xarT baTumSi, ar gekiTxebian sad cxovrobT, aramed gekiTxebian sad aTenebT Rames. usaxlkaro Camosulebis mimarT iseTi didi SiSia, rom arc erT saCaieSi, arc erT kafeSi ar SeiZleba nivTebis datoveba sadguridan: mepatroneebi darwmunebulebi arian, rom amis gamo Tqven dabrundebiT Ramis gasaTevad da amis WiriviT eSiniaT. wvrili movaWreebi ikuWebian TavianT jixurebsa 202 debiuti da fardulebSi, romlebic zomiT saZaRleze didi arc iqneba. rogor Tavsdebian aq msxvili Camosuli komersantebi _ es sruliad idumalia. naTelia, lira sivrcis kanonebze imarjvebs. Tavisi saerTaSoriso savaWro gamococxlebuli xasiaTiT baTumi kolonialur qalaqs an sadRav SanxaiSi evropul kvartals gagonebs. rogor gaubedurebulad geCveneba mis Semdeg novorosiiski Tavisi mSvenieri, giganturi, aRWurvili portiT, Tavisi elevatorebiT, romlebic aRmarTulan fantastiurad grZel, marcvlis mimRebebSi, rogorc anZa. yovelive amas sZinavs da gamoRviZebas elodeba. usiamovnod gxvdeba novorosiiskis yinulovani nord-osti (Crdilo-aRmosavleTi), magram qalaqSi igrZnoba raRacnairi gansxvavebuli seriozuloba, TiTqos igi emzadeba uzarmazari mosalodneli ekonomikuri amocanis Sesasruleblad. magram jer cariel, gayinul daxlebSi, sadac demonstraciulad dagdebulia tilos naWeri, gmiri komvoiaJerebi raRacnairi qurduli maneriT, ciebcxelebiT avseben Cemodnebs baTumis ZafebiT da daaTreven saeWvo asprocentian tvirTs saSiS, bnel gzaze da samudamod miiswrafvian TavanTi arkadiis napirebisken. 203 Targmanebi daCi mejidovi baTumis saxelmwifo universiteti jibran xalil jibrani wignidan `winaswarmetyveli~ bavSvebis Sesaxeb da mkerdze bavSvmixutebulma qalma Tqva: gviTxari raime bavSvebis Sesaxeb. xolo man upasuxa amgvarad: Tqveni bavSvebi _ ar arian Tqveni bavSvebi. isini cxovrebis Zeebi da qaliSvilebi arian, romelic sakuTar Tavze zrunavs. isini Tqven mier Cndebian, magram ara Tqvengan, TumcaRa isini Tqven gekuTvnian, Tqven ar xarT maTi batonebi. Tqven SegiZliaT aCuqoT maT Tqveni siyvaruli, magram ara Tqveni fiqrebi, radgan maT aqvT sakuTari fiqrebi. 204 debiuti Tqven SegiZliaT misceT maT sxeuls saxli, magram ara suls, maTi sulebi xom xvalindeli dRis saxlSi cxovroben, romelsac Tqven ver moinaxulebT Tqvens ocnebebSic ki. Tqven SegiZliaT ecadoT daemsgavsoT maT, magram nu eswrafviT, rom isini daimsgavsoT. radgan cxovreba ar midis ukan da ar elodeba guSindels. Tqven mxolod mSvildebi xarT, saidanac win gamogzavnilia cocxali isrebi, romlebsac Tqven Svilebs eZaxiT. mSvildosani xedavs sakuTar mizans maradisobis gzaze, da swored is gdrekT Tqven Tavisi ZaliT, raTa misi isrebi swrafad da Sors frendnen. dae, gixarodeT modreka am mSvildosnis xelSi, mas xom uyvars ara mxolod isari, romelic mifrinavs, aramed mSvildic, romelicuZravia. qorwinebis Sesaxeb maSin almitra xelaxla alaparakda da Tqva: xolo ras ityvi, qorwinebis Sesaxeb, moZRvaro? man ki upasuxa ase: Tqven erTad daibadeT, da erTad iqnebiT yovelTvis. Tqven maSinac ki erTad darCebiT, roca sikvdilis Targmanebi 205 TeTri frTebi gafantavs Tqven dReebs. diax, Tqven erTad iqnebiT RmerTis mdumare mexsierebaSi. magram dae, Tavisufali iyos sivrceebi Tqvens erTobaSi. dae, zeciuri qarebi cekvavdes Tqven Soris. giyvardeT erTmaneTi, magram nu gaikeTebT siyvarulis borkilebs. umjobesia, rom es iyos mRelvare zRva. Tqveni sulis napirebs Soris rom SfoTavs. SeavseT erTmaneTis Tasebi, magram nu SesvamT erTi Tasidan. mieciT erTmaneTs Tqveni puri, magram nu mokbeCT saerTo naWridan. imRereT da icekveT erTad da iyaviT mxiarulebi, magram erTmaneTs marto darCenis saSualeba mieciT. barbiTis TiToeuli simi xom TavisTvisaa, Tumca isini erTad JReren melodiaSi. mieciT sakuTari gulebi, magram ara erTmaneTTan Sesanaxad. radgan mxolod sicocxlis xels SeuZlia daiWiros Tqveni gulebi. da iyaviT erTad, magram ara zedmetad erTad. rameTu taZris svetebic ki cal-calke dganan. da arc muxa da kiparisi izrdeba erTmaneTis CrdilSi. 206 debiuti mariam Wanturia, “Blak dog”, muyao, tuSi. Tbilisis saxelmwifo samxatvro akademia 207 Targmanebi sarCevi poezia ani qavTaraZe ......................................................................................3 avTo xaraiSvili ................................................................................6 giorgi laSqaraSvili .......................................................................9 Tiko kotrikaZe................................................................................13 mariam papaSvili ..............................................................................16 naTia kapanaZe ...................................................................................19 Tamaz wereTeli...............................................................................24 lali WeSmaritaSvili ....................................................................28 maia wiqariSvili ............................................................................32 nodar gurgenaSvili ......................................................................38 revaz zumbaZe ..................................................................................41 proza daCi axvlediani ...............................................................................47 eliza qristesiaSvili ....................................................................56 veriko Tordia.................................................................................60 TaTuli wereTeli ..........................................................................64 Tiko surmaniZe ...............................................................................70 mariam qeTelauri ..........................................................................74 olani biwaZe ....................................................................................78 salome wyarozia .............................................................................84 sofio TinikaSvili..........................................................................90 ana Ciqovani .......................................................................................94 208 debiuti ani aminaSvili ..................................................................................98 giorgi CaCxiani ..............................................................................105 guro daviTliZe ............................................................................113 mariam avazaSvili..........................................................................116 merab TavaZe....................................................................................121 naTia SaorSaZe...............................................................................127 nato gabaraSvili ..........................................................................131 nikoloz ciskariSvili ................................................................136 nino miqaZe ......................................................................................142 salome bzaraSvili .....................................................................145 salome SveliZe ..............................................................................151 xatia TeliaSvili .........................................................................157 publicistika baCo gogriWiani .............................................................................162 irina gamrekeli .............................................................................166 levan gelaSvili ...........................................................................171 Ta r g m a n e b i giorgi kaxiSvili...........................................................................183 daviT esaTia ...................................................................................186 daCi mejidovi ................................................................................203